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Ever gone to sleep wondering if you will wake up again?

MasterVampire

MasterVampire

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Some times when i do alot of drugs, by the end of the night i really get worried that when I will goto sleep or pass out, if i will ever wake up again.

An example is last new years eve.

We went down to my friends beach house and it was a very very hot night, right in the middle of summer.

Well that night I did 2 ecstasy pills, smoked a shit load of weed, came close to overheating, took some panadol forte painkillers (had a headache) and then later on made myself goto sleep by taking some sleeping pills.

I woke up the next day but i was seriously worried id die that night. Mainly becuase it was such a hot night and i had taken so much stuff but its scary and something ill try to avoid next time.
 
yeah like i nod off really hard on some morphine ( a lot of it) and i sit there and wonder sometimes if i am just gonna quit breathing in my sleep..... i have to say one thing tho nodding off would probaly be the best and least painful way of going out.....;
 
Yes, one of the first times I did heroin I was lying on the couch and my body and my breathing and my heart was slooow and I couldn't resist the feeling of dropping off, but every time I'd start to sink into sleep I felt as if my breathing was stopping and I'd wake myself up again thinking I'd never wake up if I gave into the feeling. I was just panicking, it was one of my first times and I wasn't used to the feeling, I was scared though and its never become a feeling I'm too fond of...
 
When i'm high enough to be at that point im usually thinking

'No matter what happens now
I shouldn't be afraid
Because I know today has been the most perfect day I've ever seen'
 
i remember this one time after drinking way over my limit how hard it was to breathe. that was definetly the scariest night for me
 
eh I had a death wish when I did it, ambien, hydrocodone, xanax and alcohol....I just blacked out, next thing I know I'm in a hospital bed
 
I took about 300mg's of temazepam with a bottle of vodka and just passed out. I honestly didnt know or care if i would wake up. That happened more then a few times i just liked the feeling of passin out really drunk.

About a month ago i snorted 40mg's of dilaudid in one night along with clonazepam and lyrica and just nodded off for a few hours. I don't know how i survived it but my high tolerance must have come in handy for once.
 
I get bad sleep apnea from high doses of opiates so it often scares me. When I was in hospital, I would often wake up from having my breathing suspended. Eventually I got so paranoid about going to sleep and never waking up from the apnea I forced myself to stay awake for as long as I could, I think it was about 3-4 days. I was in ICU at the time and on a lot of IV morphine. Eventually I passed out with my eyes open. The nurses told me I was completely unresponsive until they shook me and "woke me up" and my eyes were open with a blank stare.
 
As someone from the stims side of the equation, the more common question regarding bedtime is "will I ever fall asleep again?"

That being said, I know I've found myself thinking something a lot similar to others in this thread... I might notice as I'm going to burn off another rock that my hand is feeling prickly and tingly... or the other day I actually had a few involuntary "tics" on one side of my face as I was taking the hoot.

The thought that hits is: "Is this it...? Am I about to have a massive stroke/major heart attack and suddenly have my addict lifestyle blown open to my entire world... or maybe even die? Is this where and when I'm set to die?"

It hasn't been... yet, anyway.
 
I drank about 12 beers over the course of the night, then within an hour or two period I smoked a bunch of weed, did some coke, did some nitrous, then finished up with a huge line of ketamine. I was really fucked up, in a different place basically, and ended up having to get up to go throw up or something, probably from the ketamine. Anyways, I was downstairs and kinda wandering around talking to someone when I started to just lose muscle coordination, just started to get weak and fall over. I walked as far as I could leaning against the wall, about on the damn ground. Stood up and just fell onto a couch. I couldn't move anymore once I was down, and the person with me didn't really know what was going on at all. I just laid there, not able to talk or move at all, straight on my back, and just laid there for a minute or two until my vision started to go black and I passed out. I definitely remember being really scared, and definitely thinking that I was dying. I remember trying to get up or speak to tell the person with me to get help, but I couldn't. I was scared, really fucked up, but I could still tell I wasn't feeling good and that shit didn't seem to be going very well. I woke up three hours later, remember exactly what happened and told myself i'd never do a ridiculous night like that again. I felt like shit for about 2 days after that, it sucked ass.
 
There has been a few occasions where I have done a lot of opiates or ingested a lot of benzos and large amounts of alcohol and thought this it as I put my head on my pillow.
 
about a month ago, i dont know what it was, drug related or what. early in the day i had blown about half an oc 80, then around 11pm i smoked a blunt, about 1.5g of some kill bud with my boy, after i felt extremely hot, sweating so bad, i felt like i wasnt breathing, could barely open my mouth to talk. i made it to the bathroom, kinda sat on the floor and felt like i couldnt get up, i made it back to the couch, dont remember anything else. i woke up the next morning to my phone ringing on the same couch. i was really freaking out. scared for sure. i thought i could have been the tree, but i smoked more of the same bag the next day, nothing just really nicely high. dont know what it was but i felt like i was gonna die.
 
I might notice as I'm going to burn off another rock that my hand is feeling prickly and tingly
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That's prob just overbreathing, this happens to me most every time I take stimulants, even though I'm always careful to slow down my breathing. It can get even better - so that you faint every time you lift your head too fast and your muscles all start to contract - fun times ;)

I get the twitches as well which is generally caused by a lack of potassium, eat a banananana......=D
 
MasterVampire said:
Some times when i do alot of drugs, by the end of the night i really get worried that when I will goto sleep or pass out, if i will ever wake up again.

An example is last new years eve.

We went down to my friends beach house and it was a very very hot night, right in the middle of summer.

Well that night I did 2 ecstasy pills, smoked a shit load of weed, came close to overheating, took some panadol forte painkillers (had a headache) and then later on made myself goto sleep by taking some sleeping pills.

I woke up the next day but i was seriously worried id die that night. Mainly becuase it was such a hot night and i had taken so much stuff but its scary and something ill try to avoid next time.
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Yes, I was taking Ativan for anxiety at the time and went to the ER for chest pain, where they gave me hydrocodone and assured me I'd have no trouble mixing the two. I couldn't even walk to my car, and an hour later passed out barely able to breathe.

The other time I had a panic attack and just passed out.
 
I filled 2 1cc rigs with 6 dimes each (as much as each could fit), and shot both back to back.. I was near out of shit andf had no forseable funds and wanted to just end it and not have to come down.. I felt my face flush red, fell onto my pillow thought if i didn't get up and call 911 that'd be it.. but naw my tolerence was huge then and I woke up fine.. as I have 5-6 times (all the others on accident..).
 
Not too long ago I took a good amount of methadone, three 10mg pills (which is a lot for me) and later after drinking a decent amount I popped 2mg of xannies, also not a whole lot but an hour or so afterwards I remembered that I had just read on here that those two should NEVER be mixed, especially with alcohol....

I was pretty scared that night and actually puked up some brownish liquid. After that I tried to stay awake as long as I possibly could to try and sober up a bit.

I finally went to bed after I felt I had control of it but told my wife to keep an eye on me to make sure I didn't stop breathing.
 
I had this happen not to long ago when I took methadone along with Xanax I would lay down and nod off then feel like I couldnt breath and have to wake myself up cause I felt like I was gonna die. I wouldnt get any sleep cause I was worried I would die .
 
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