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Ever felt close to death??

Soma24

Soma24

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I was reading the Afterlife thread in the Australian Social section and it got me thinking about some of the more scary experiences I've had with drugs

I know there are many drugs like dissociatives and stuff that can produce "near death" type experiences, but I mean real "oh shit I've gone too far this time" experiences

I must say, even with all the "harder" drugs I've done the alcohol and weed combo is the only one where I actually found myself fearing for my life... got way way too drunk and punched a few bongs in quick succession, began my walk home and found myself alone in an alley, unable to stand and only just unable to cough hard enough to prevent myself from choking on my own spew. Very scary shit!!

I think this could be an interesting thread, and in the interest of harm reduction it could highlight some things people should avoid when taking drugs

Please share your own "near death" drug experiences.
 
Once on a particularly scary experience with HBWR the constriction got so bad that I really thought I was going to check out. I felt a tightness that started in the extremiries and worked it's way inward toward my heart. It was scary enough to compel me to get up (wobbly) shuffle to the sink and FORCE myself to throwup; god that was awful.

Another time I made Mandrake root tea (dumb) and I felt like I was having a heart attack- that was as scary as it gets I think. I've od'd on h twice and that wasn't scary because I passed out before I felt the death fear kick in (way too fuggin' high).
 
Aside from the usual "oh shit" experiences that were just scary but not too close, I never have. But I sure wish I have. I suspect it could b every meaningful.
 
there have been countless times where i've thought i was going to go into cardiac arrest after smoking a point or two of horrid ice in very long, deep drags.

fun. oh yes.
 
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there have been countless times where i've thought i was going to go into cardiac arrest after smoking a point or two of horrid ice in very long, deep drags.

fun. oh yes.
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i had this at XXX. smoke a shit load of low quality gear and all day i could hardly breath and had sharp stabbing pains in my chest, and it being a really hot day didnt help

[Edit- Removed event name. lil angel15]
 
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Just recently, I went on a bit of a last minute bender with some friends. It started with some xanax (eaten), then later on for the sake of it some base (IV). We were awake enough but still wanting more. We tried getting on and we couldnt, all we could get was some bikkies (beige TAGs), so we got some of those and IV'd one each. Now, i'm on ssri's so i was actually quite suprised to find myself off my head, usually bikkies do very little for me. I totally blacked out and only in the last week have i been able to recollect what transpired. I vomitted first, uncontrollably for about 5 minutes. I vaguely remember somebody telling me I'd feel better now that I'd thrown up. I didnt. I was just stumbling around in a stupor, barely responsive to anybody or anything. It was kinda like being in a real deep K hole except I was able to walk around (sorta). I laid down on a lounge and had extreme difficulty getting comfortable. Meanwhile, my 2 friends were vomitting everywhere and complaining of severe back and muscle/joint pain. They were literally lying there just yelling in pain, screaming at times. By this point I realised my consciousness was not suspended in one place like my body, I was able to leave my body and dart around in a fast paced fashion. However, trying to project my consciousness to a particular place proved difficult, it seemed to be just randomly darting around until I passed out. I knew something was wrong from when the pick first went in, it kinda hurt and there was swelling and bruising at the site which persisted for a few days. It was rather careless and out of character for me (xanax), and from when i started throwing up i wanted to go to hospital, I couldnt verbalise it properly, and I later found out my friends had attempted to call an ambulance and failed. Certainly the closest I've come to death in a long time, I woke up much to my surprise, and early too. I had a lot of energy in the morning. The others woke up real late and complained of headaches. I dont think I got the negative symptoms as bad as the others (ssri's?), however all 3 of us vowed no more pills IV. I'd be interested to know what was in them pills though, I experienced some pretty powerful psychedelic visuals/feelings.
 
Dont worry mods, im not going to touch this one ;)
Too many times. And there was a period where a close G related death (or what doctors would think so anyway) was happening pretty much daily.

Okay, just one.. thisa was on a bit of a cocktail :D But I had a half hour long detailed very graphic dream of living hell that was my reality.. as in I was in hell and had died.. It freaked me out big time, I saw death, I saw flames, demons, and everything we have been programmed to believe as evil or warped and I was now in hell (which I dont believe in God, heaven, hell etc.) Anyway I felt a presence give me another chance of life... Anyway I came out of it yelling and carrying on thanking I was still alive and was given another chance. I ask WHAT THE F*&K JUST HAPPENED AND HOW LONG WAS I OUT?

My friend replied, "what? You only had your last bulb like 20 seconds ago after saying something about patterns and then shook a little and went pale............ Could never work that one out... and never will.. Maybe I was in a coma sleep state and the time in dreamland are nothing like earth time
 
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Only time where i get worried is smoking weed after doing alot of pills/speed. It makes my heart go a million miles an hour, combine that with the paranoia that i sometimes get from weed and coming down as well, it has been pretty fuckin scary.
 
Overdosing on a combo of temazepan, alchohol and weed, got taken to ER and told the lady I felt like I was going to die. They let me straight in. That would probally be closet but theres been times were i've been on the ice for 3 or 4 days and smoked the last point or so in one toke and felt like I was going to die.
 
I OD'd on on morphine a few times but never had the close to death feeling cause it's been so warm and nice.

Addit; I got sent too a psyc, which has kinda helped, but hasn't really solved the issue

I've had the flu a few times where i've felt like i was going die.
 
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Near death experience on high dose of K and then a double Nang - that was wicked, saw my life flash before my eyes, being born ect ect.

That's the closest I've ever felt to death, even though I know now that it was just drug induced trippyness. After lots of speed and a night out when I lay down and my heart is pumping so hard its rattling the bed it feels like I'm dying, or at least doing major damage that will cause me to die :(
 
Please don't be surprised if your post in this thread is edited, any posts that appear to be glorifying irresponsible drug use or that we feel are otherwise not appropriate will be edited or removed.

I think it'd also be interesting to know: if you have been in such a situation; what steps did you take to get help? If you didn't seek medical assistance; why not?
 
Well the one I listed I didfnt seek medical advice as it was just an intense trip/subconscious state. I dont think I was in any real danger.. People polydrug every weekend, snort K, and nang on for hours.. do you hear about many deaths? Its the PMA pills and the once a year high dose MDMA pillage, probably water intoxication or just a bad reaction to the drug that the person couldnt handle I know my body well enough to know its limits.

For the G related stuff it was more like I was alone, and I couldnt actually reach a phone if I wanted to. it's called a deep sleep. Anesthesia, not its not in a hospital setting.

For the last time (which im writing a trip report on soon) I did goto the E.R. but lied about the drugs (in fear of fucking up that certain drug for everyone else, giving it media attention etc.).. so they just thought i was trying to kill myself by trying to knock myself out from a stimulant comedown (they didnt know of the adulterated pills, 2c-b ND's, etc. either)... but as long as they kept an eye on me what could they do, theres no miracle cure for these drugs like there is for heroin overdose. Its a simply attach ECG shit to your body, put you omn a fluid drip and watch over you.
 
I'm not sure if BL is playing up again but I thought I posted a horrible real near death experience of alcohol and Ketamine. Maybe it wqas a little graphic. But graphicness sure beats the hell out of what this forum is against (Just Say No)

Lets just say alcohol and K at low doses, people seem to think its cool cos they feel fucked up.. Freinds have told me about it and how they enjopyed 50mg with a few drinks..... I think its dangerous at any level.

At high doses of alcohol (>6-12 std drinks) and a point of pure K or more, or probably even less..., you're looking to wake up and find your room smashed up, have very dangerous breathing, act like a full on pattern-based retard, cause problems for a few hours and basically be terrible for you.

Please avoid this combination at all costs. This is another reason why you shouldn't drink with pills, even if they're tested, cos MDXX sure as hell masks a medium strength MDXX pill on a tester.
 
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Was once in a club quite inebriated and in my good wisdom decided to rail some k. Wasn't the wisest decision. After 10 minutes i somehow made my way to the toilet where i stayed for 30 minutes at least. Got myself the fuck out of there and into a waiting car and passed out till i got home. Wasn't near death just replying to the post above.

Closest i've came to carking it was when i went a little too hard on GHB and woke up in hospital. Pretty sure the stuff was gbl and i was a little too sure of myself and had grown complacent with my mindfulness of its ability to fuck you over. I remember being awake in the back of my car, then my next memory is just black, and i was throwing up. Not sure if my eyes were closed i had lost the remaining 4 senses, i couldnt even feel myself puking 100%. Everything was dark and in my mind i pictures an oesophagus or something and it moved, and i knew it was throwing up...but aware it was me or that i was infact puking. Housemate found me in the back of my car after some friends, who'd also come complacent, left me to sleep it off in the back of my car. I was never in any real danger, i was just unresponsive which led to the ambo's being called, and me waking up 4hrs later in hospital. Was not fun at all. So thankful that i dont live at home and was able to call a good friend to collect me with no damage to my rep with family etc.
 
The closest iv ever come to death (or at least conceived death, as i was probably in no real danger physically), was off lsd tabs and hash

i was probably less than half way though my acid trip and it was just starting to reach morning, and as we had next to no weed left me and a mate decided we may as well get rid of the last of our hash. After smoking up our last cone with a huge amount of hash sprinkled on top things started to go pear shaped

We were tripping out on this super nes game on the computer and I started to notice my perception go rather wack, unlike anything id experienced before even after smoking a lot while on acid. The last thing I said to my mate was 'I don’t feel right’ then I blacked out and slammed to the floor. Whilst I was blacked out I was in a trance of fast flashing lights and the repeated sound of my last sentence (almost like bulbs but a lot more intense). I thought I had died. and that this was my last seconds on earth before falling to a void of nothingness, the only legible thought that crossed my mind was that I had finally pushed it too far and was gone. Which in itself is very strange as apparently I was un-conscience for 30 sec (don’t know how you can still think in a un-conscience state.

when i came too on the floor the first thing i saw was my mate with a look of absolute horror as to what had happened (him with a head full of acid as well) which didn’t help my situation), i was trying to comprehend in what world i was just in and what the fuck had happened to me and subsequently sent myself into the worst anxiety attack imaginable for the remainder of my acid trip 4 hours+ with the hash multiplying all the anxious nervous paranoid thoughts by 100x trying to figure out what happened to me, if i let my thoughts start to wonder i would start hyperventilating and sweating profusely so all i could do was focus on something real that reaffirmed my mind, as in "im looking at a window, this is a window" etc.

No one had any benzos to calm me down which made me freak out even more realising i was gunna be stuck until either the acid wore off or i stopped being so high on hash

after this perceived near death experience (actually i thought i was already dead), i can no longer think of touching hallucinogens at all, the thought makes me ill (which is very disappointing)

and weed which i had smoked heavily for years now give me cronic anxiety attacks every time forcing me too stop. Probably a positive outcome in the long run, as it was a catalyst to stop

knowing that you can push your body through something like that, and that your strong minded and strong willed enough to come through a terrible trip and still have your sanity is actually an amazing experience

sorry for the long post (but it was actually very therapeutic)
 
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