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has anyone else did cry like a baby due to sobriety and lack of access to drugs (in hospitalization, rehab/detox, jail etc)?
 
I have never been to rehab or jail, but I have been hospitalized. I was just smoking weed back then and they where giving me morphine and vicodins at the hospital, so I was happy. I do feel like crying right now, no drugs. I usually smoke weed everyday but I'm broke plus I'm trying to quit.

I can't sleep right now, though I slept for like half of the day. I woke up the other day after a night of popping soma, percocet and drinking alcohol, I was so depressed it scared me, I had this dark feeling and just felt like ending it. I just rode it out and it went away, it scared the shit out of me though I can now understand how people end up killing themselves, I just felt so hopeless.
 
I am similar case like dude above. Last time i cried was last night.I cry 3-4 times a year and only when i did not have Weed.I cant sleep if i dont smoke some joint.I was heroin addict and i `v been cried 2 -3 times in those 2 years and those 2-3 thimes i did have no Weed.

I was risking to force me out from rehab for smoking Weed.
Last night i popped 30mg zopiclone and i cant sleep but when friend of mine brought me 1 little joint i fall asleep like a slickthroughted lamb.

Fuck this shiaaat i am smoking since i was 13,now i am 27, so what the fruck supose we gonna do? I guess i`ll never quit.I dont want to quit,i dont have money to support my everyday Weed habbit+Buprenorphine.If i must choose i will choose weed...its a frucking hilarious.

Am i a frucking unicate,muted oxymoron or maybe somewhere there ,exist more weirdows like me?


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Have a happy day ..all of you!!!
 
I cried once because I was on day 2 of opiate detox and my brother was popping dones right in front of my face......I waited till he left to cry, and then I gave in and took one myself...then no more crying :)
 
A few times when I was addicted to heroin one time I spilled the shot out of my last bag. That was horrible I cried for a long time.
 
kokomo said:
has anyone else did cry like a baby due to sobriety and lack of access to drugs (in hospitalization, rehab/detox, jail etc)?
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**I posted this before fully understanding the OP's question.due to sobriety and lack of access to drugs but then in paranths it said hospitilization so i decided to include my story.My drug was cutting and their was hospitilization too**

When I was 13-16 I cried more than any other time of my life.I am 20 years of age now.
At those times I didnt do drugs or know about them[cept for social stigmas and labels] but instead i would self harm in the form of cutting my left arm.Cutting was my drug.And believe it or not,it actually can be considered a a drug because it releases endorphines and such and when addicted cutters have periods where they need to stop then they do go through withdrawls.Only the withdrawls consist pretty much of only one thing,an increase in current rate of depression and/or increase in some/all other negative emotions.
Sometimes that would make me cry,not because of pain but because of how crummy I felt on the inside.
I couldnt cut whenever I wanted especially after people and family fgound out because they would always check me while I was sleepin or somethin or ask me.
SO I would go through withdrawls,believe it or not and I would get to the point where if I didnt cut then I was going to Off myself.
Then I tried killing myself with sleeping pills.I took a bottle containing 27 sleeping pills[suspected as trazadones] and went to sleep.I woke up sometime way early in the morning I think,as it was just getting light out and was suddenly scare4d out of my mind.
I tried to puke the pills up- but nothing would come,I cired a little and thena ccepted it and went back to sleep.
I awoke next in the hospitol in a very thick fog of haziness.
I couldnt really see anything and I couldnt move for some reason.
That's whne I heard the words "this is going to hurt but we need you to do your best to hold still" and then they stuck a cathader into my dick.
yeah,that really hurt and Im sure I shed a couple tears before I passed back out right away for some reason.
Then i really woke up.It had bein like 18 hours or something like that since I OD'ed.I remember waking up in the hospitol and thinking to myself "God I cant even kill myself the right way".
The pills I overdosed on were not trazadones like I thought.Keep in mind,this was before I knew my pills just by looking at them and their imprints like I usually do now.They turned out to be Diphenhydramine tablets!
Lucky me!!!! Someone up above was lookin out for me.

Since then I have changed dramaticaly.Addiction wise,emotional wise and most importantly belief wise.I am happy,even when I am sad.And that is all thanks to God.

It takes ALOT to make me cry ever since then.Sometimes I feel like I WANT to cry SO badly at times but the tears just won't come out.
Sometimes I wonder if I cried them all away during my younger teen years,lol.

*******To the OP,if you don't want my post here then just tell me and I will delete it.Cutting is LIKE a drug in many ways and has bein considered a kindof drug by some.***********
 
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i remember one time i spent all day finding the money to get a couple quartitos and instead of going through my noral guy i got a friend to go get thinking it would be quicker after two or 3 hours i was so pissed i was crying and throwing points all over my studio. needless to say when he finaly got there and he told me why he took so long. turns out he decided to stop at his apartment to do half my shit before he came over. i wasnt to pleased about that.
 
i bitched moaned and whimpered but as for crying
that add med strattera had me an emotional wreck, my boss would criticize me and id be crying like a bitch
not normal behavior for me,

that shit messed with my head . preytty goof,
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you couldnt bust a nut, it would just ooze, also wet dreams were commen

the ony plus side of it, is if you are not a morning person, you pop your dose before bed, and you are awake before 5 am every mornin

i thought it sucked dumps, but my buddy loves how it works for him
 
during opiate withdrawal, i would cry because of the most ridiculous things. like hearing a good song or listening to news about another suicide bombing. bam im on the verge of tears
 
I have never cried for drugs..... before crying for drugs i would just go hang out with friends

But i have cried over Pussy before... now i am older so none of that
 
kokomo said:
has anyone else did cry like a baby due to sobriety and lack of access to drugs (in hospitalization, rehab/detox, jail etc)?
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HELL TO THE MOTHERFUCKIN YEAYUH. I was weeping this morning from being sober for days due to lack of funds. I hate sobriety. I want something to get my head changed SO BAD it was all I could do but fucking cry.
 
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