It is a strange effect. And it is not memory. It is recall of the memory I think. Once I watch something again that I watched on a benzo but could not remember I all of a sudden remember that yeah I did see it. Interesting but troubling effect. Must keep the brain exercised. I think that is why you are still beyond sharp AT, you connect a lot of dots on a lot of topics and that is exercise for you. Keep reading and writing! ( I said it in DreamFlyers post in the recovery thread, you two are the only ones I know that can take large amounts of benzos and communicate clear) Writing style excluded that is. But you guys are strong.
I think I remember you also saying that even with 20 mgs of etizolam that you can only sleep a few hours. But bromaz you can sleep. So until you taper off I think the goal is to find a daytime benzo for you. Pyralzolam has been said to not be sedating. (until a person posts how it knocked them out lol, that would be me) So a daytime benzo for anxiety, and a nighttime one for sleep. Bromaz can be utilized.
I see pyrazolam domestic and expensive.. The benzo list has a million of them so there has to be useful ones. For daytime anxiety fluclotizolam is too sedating and short acting. Good for sleep.
Thanks f all good advice again mate.
It's a puzzle in need of solution, or sufficient adaptation.
So I'm working on that, Now! Because reason I frequent these places as openly often & completely as most anybody,
Because never have I seen another person online reporting anything touching my specific ultra extreme abnormal Lyme case & mental allergies, I've heard of comparable cases but these people typically go from Jet Pilot etc to a bedridden depressed statistic mostly but even then, I've never heard of the victims having near the same allergies as myself.
So it's rare, hence (less so now I'm better known on BL and everyone can at least see there is full congruity and apparent authenticity to my descriptions)..
It been a doubted, dismissed tale sometimes cos it's too rare and so specific, like can't make this shit up or.... can't be true!
One Wizard here even called me a flat liar because nobody could possibly be taking the amounts of LSD I was then.
He was wrong, I objected. We made peace easy enough too He left also.
Then the fact I believe I may have taken more true exstacy (DE/MA/DA) than another member possibly.
Plus like you say no matter, my mental acuity and sharpness seems somehow immunised from any real higher consciousness dimming and fluent language use, keeping sharp from massive Benzo states.
And the gargantuan amount LSD too, only made communicating speaking better writing too easier than riding bikes. By mindful application there too, just shows.
The point sorry
@JackARoe (lol shit it just slipped me haha) Stoned! Kava. New strong edibles earlier wasted me)
Oh. When mind applied....if something HAS to happen, it will.
So I think I've been really good so far.
Last 4 days now from 25-35 mg's day, 12.5, 20, 17.5 yesterday also 17.5 today.
I set it up so hoping 7.5 mg dose 1 hr ago suffices today, if went to 20 no bad too.
I said aim cap at 20, but atm I'm going under already on days.
So good signs there and I've always found a path yet somehow too.
Watch this space.
