Recently I've been getting really bad anxiety, so I bought some etizolam from a website I trust. I am pretty sure they are genuine from the look and feel of the packets, so I started taking 1mg a day. In the space of a few days this raised to 2mg, and by the end of the week I'd stopped taking it for the calming effects and was taking 4mg a day because it felt good. The past week has been a blur, I've said and done a lot of stupid things in front of people which has raised my anxiety levels and left me a lot worse off than I started. It had some horrible effects on my memory, to the point where I was repeating stories I was telling my friends several times throughout the day. I do this occasionally anyway, but never in the space of an hour, and I can always remember having told that person something previously when they point out that I've done this. This time however, I had no memory at all of whole conversations, and this really freaks me out. I only took these things for a week, and its been a couple of days since I stopped. I feel very strange, really depressed and tired. My memory is very poor, I keep finding myself in cycles of doing one task, forgetting what I'm doing and then starting another, remembering the previous one halfway through. For example, I'm halfway through working out whilst writing this, I have a job application form on the go in another browser tab and I keep remembering I haven't eaten yet.
I'm pretty much a nervous wreck. I went out for a drink with a friend yesterday and I felt so anxious in my surroundings it was almost unbearable. Due to my memory of the last week being so sketchy, and everyone at work knowing I've been taking this stuff, I feel very paranoid I'm being talked about etc. I feel like I have no friends left, which I know is irrational.
Has anyone else ever taken these in excess and know anything of the half life / withdrawal symptoms? I'm worried this is permanent.
I'm pretty much a nervous wreck. I went out for a drink with a friend yesterday and I felt so anxious in my surroundings it was almost unbearable. Due to my memory of the last week being so sketchy, and everyone at work knowing I've been taking this stuff, I feel very paranoid I'm being talked about etc. I feel like I have no friends left, which I know is irrational.
Has anyone else ever taken these in excess and know anything of the half life / withdrawal symptoms? I'm worried this is permanent.