Cheers for all the replies and advice, i got nicked and put on 24/7 suicide watch and released without charge, last night i went to my first AA meeting i know it wasn't going to be easy but alot easier if i stop before it gets worse, booked in with GP alcohol specialist,found AA to be quite good everyone was so nice got alot of numbers and info, got some meds from a gp this morning which if works out with my plan of keeping busy i will sober for a week for the first time, im on a laptop so hard to type (hate the things) but will give you an update in a week or so hopefully a good one
thank you all, yours yoyo