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Ego Loss on Methoxetamine

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I've been reading around the internet on reports and in the big Methoxetamine thread about people's experiences, but I seem to hear very little about people experiencing ego death. I always hear about the euphoric effects and all that stuff but less about the confusion and dissociation.

This is one of my favorite aspects of dissociatives.

I wanna hear specifically about people's experiences as far as feelings like "I was unaware of who/what I was" or "I got to the point where I wasn't even aware I'd taken a drug" etc.

Or for the most part are you pretty much able to hang onto your being and feel like you know whats going on around you.
 
So I guess if I'm looking an ego death experience I should probably look into a different chemical... ?
 
I guess if you're looking for an answer you should allow more than 3 hours. This is a forum, not a chat room.

But, i havn't heard anything about ego death with MXE either. I would expect that you could get into a hole state (like a K-Hole) with it, but i hear way less talk about a "hole" with MXE than with K, so i'd say K is your better bet for that (i've yet to manage a K-Hole, and my MXE is still in the mail).

I normally hear the word "ego death" used to describe experiences on typical psychedelics, rather than dissociatives.
 
Not had "Ego Death" with MXE only with true psychedelics.
Had a strange one with MXE of the sample a couple of weeks ago; both me and the fiancee felt like we were both made of small triangular bits (Toblerone size) and the bits became intermingled and for a short time we became one being.
one of the best "trips" I've ever had off any chem.
 
I got some kind of, at least partial, ego loss at 50mg. I can clearly recall: I had no idea who I was or what I was like as a person or indeed what a person was. I knew I used to be this identifiable collection of things but I couldn't remember what they were or how to go about retrieving them.

I haven't experienced ego loss on "true" psychedelics although maybe I've just never dosed high enough. This Methoxetamine experience was the closest I've felt to ego loss.

Psiclo, you put this in a different class to "true psychedelics" but I don't think such a classification reflects the real world very well. There are various effects of some drugs which are often called psychedelic effects and Methoxetamine exhibits many of them. I think it has the potential at the higher dosages for being profoundly psychedelic.
 
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Ego Loss

The only time ive experienced ego loss was at a music festival after eating 7 hits of acid and some 2C-E. Dont ask me why i ate the 2C-E to begin with i was dosed haha. But i have snorted ketamine once, and it was pretty close. The only difference was when i was on K, i didnt feel scared or paranoid at all. Its like it was normal. I guess thats why they give it to kids and animals to sedate them or whatever. When i was on the L i was scared outta my freakin mind. Never wanna repeat that again.

I'm getting some of this chem in the mail soon, however wont be able to "hole" or, whatever its called, on it because i only ordered like 70mgs of it. Plus i'm more interested in the fact that people keep saying its almost like an opiate. Some K mixed with some oxy sounds great. Hopefully ill get my fix :)
 
It is possible to enter a hole and experience ego death. Takes me around 110-130mg (plugged) to achieve this state and tbh I find it a little bit frightening.

Tends to begin with several different realities being 'lived' at the same time leading eventually to confusion over which one is real.

I personally like to teeter on the edge of this state at around 100mg without atually slipping into full ego loss but if its ego loss that you want I can assure you dose high enough and it will happen %)
 
yeah the holes ive been in are frightening too, lots of realitys, mashes me up real good lol
 
yeah I took about 85 mg and in a couple of hours when the 'slow down' started to happen I felt the hole trying to pull me in but it wasn't strong enough. I didn't have ego death, but more of an archetypal introspection where my ego was dissected through metaphors and then handed back to me. I am confident at higher doses an ego would be shattered. The euphoric effects of this at low doses are just great though. I used to have a major opiate addiction, and this gives me the effect I was always looking for in that at a low dose, and I never feel like re-dosing. Plus I don't care if I can't do it the next day, and I can fucking function just fine at low dose levels. Oh and it's cheap compared to pills....geezus I really hope this one get's to stay the fuck off the feds radar. Honestly I think this is the feeling I have been searching for with all these years....crazy it'd be in a RC..
 
175mg will put you in a very deep hole. Im not sure that i experienced ego loss. Just me in multiple realitys, so still had my ego i guess.
 
i eyeballed a line of this stuff after a night at the pub so was feeling pretty drunk and stupidly done too much i didn't have a clue waht was going on and forgot i'd even taken anything i thought i'd died i just didn't know where i was i never want to go through that again and will be the last time i touch it.
 
ketamine IV at high dose puts me in world of of my own where i am so dittached i have trouble associating reallity and knowing if i've actually taken a drug or if im just some kind of spirit floating around in a space. not the most fun thing in the world though i'm glad i've been there.
 
ok word of caution, I had been doing like 15-25 mgs almost daily of this for a week and although I don't feel any where near as shitty as an alcohol hangover my head feels pretty foggy and it's like there was an oil spill in my brain. No where near as bad as DXM but yeah this isn't completely consequence free as I had really wanted to believe. I hoped I had found weeds hardcore cousin, but I guess cannibas is the only drug for me that has no ill effect. Still though I am going to stock pile the shit out of it before it get's scheduled. Oh and last night I had a terrible headache, I don't know if it's from this or all the caffeine I had been drinking to keep up with my fucked up schedule. Also lack of sleep and eating shitty, so who knows probably a combination, but I am sure the MXE didn't help.
 
MXE has given me some of the most terrifyingly intense, epic and brutal holes i've ever experienced. more intense than K in my opinion
 
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MXE has given me some of the most terrifyingly intense, epic and brutal holes i've ever experienced. more intense than K in my opinion
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I agree with this.
have seen friends in much more of a state than they have ever been on k

my own personal experience is of taking off on my settee and flying over my life looking in and the sette just keeps getting higher and higher until i can see everything then i breakup into a starburst, then i remeber being in rooms, lots of different rooms, each with a different feeling or experience, yet felt strangely unemotional, it was strange, but didnt scare me i felt but connected.
no idea i wasin a hole,or on any form of chem until i found myself muttering 'F@cking hell' and started to wear off in waves.

a pal of mine a couple of days later was hospitalised with this. his own stupid fault for taking too much.
 
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he was drunk beforehand and eyeballed a stupid amount
was in a hole way longer than he should have been. unable to speak or move, eyeballs in the back of his head. began just to dribble sick from his mouth. had frantic phone calls back and forth with his flatmate, who i advised to phone an amulance after this got steadily worse over two hours.
he was kept in hospital for day and a half on drip.
oh, the flatmate was chrged with posession of an unkown substance as the police turned up with the ambulance.
even (if) when these charges are dropped, the fact he was cautioned will remain on his record which will have an affect on his career.

as i say..guys own fault. have to feel for flatmate.
 
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