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Ecstasy was the worst mistake of my life

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My sister has been hanging around the wrong people since she was little, so I wasn’t shocked when she started smoking and drinking at 11. Now the problem was that she has been on hard drugs since she was 13. I never really was too interested in substances, until I started drinking and smoking myself. I didn’t start my journey with ecstasy though I just occasionally popped some xans and smoked weed. But just a couple months ago she asked me if she should bring me some ecstasy the next time she goes out, to which I immediately said yes because I really didn’t give a shit anymore. I was in severe mental distress and dealing with depression so I didn’t even really ask her who she got it form since I kinda didn’t care if i was gonna get complications. I just took half a blue punisher, didn’t feel anything and took a whole one two days later.
Now i still didn’t feel much but I thought it wasn’t really that deep and i could still do other stuff if I didn’t like ecstasy. But the problem was that after 5 days I still hadn’t gotten out of the down phase or whatever its called. I didnt feel any joy for a good 10 days and was felling more depressed than ever.
My friend said that it could have been cut with meth and im just kinda wondering what could have caused this down anyone got an idea?
 
Drugs, buying and taking is a crap shoot. you just don't know unless they are tested. Most people do not take the time or effort to find out. As far as

Ecstasy was the worst mistake of my life, I do not believe in mistakes, failures or otherwise. true consequences for our actions may not be pleasant and even unwanted but there are no mistakes in life. Ask yourself, what was gained and in your opinion what was lost? What you do, what you experience in this state of being by which we identify ourselves is not and was not meant to exist for no other reason than to experience. You are not here for any other reason than to experience and share experiences. Your purpose in a nutshell is to be, and to be is your purpose. Experience is our identity that makes us unique from everyone else, your experience of ecstasy is valid and real, it was not a mistake, it makes you, you, celebrate you, because no one else measures up to your standards.​

 
Meth wouldn't cause such symptoms in particular. It sounds more classically empathogen, both to sort of miss out on the euphoria and to crash out for days or weeks after.

Meth has mostly a classical stimulant dopaminergic activity which would be more obvious in effect for most users, and would rarely cause a prolonged refractory period after single use.

I'm sorry this happened to you but beating yourself up about it being some critical existential mistake sounds excessive.

Many pills are dosed very high and i suppose a dose larger than advisable could cause complications even in a subjective low responder. It helps to have a grasp on the dose strength on the pills. In many cases, half a pill is really the standard sensible dose.

There is the possibility that your pills were contaminated with something to cause this disproportionate hangover. No idea what it could be though. I would guess it wouldn't really be a proper drug but rather some really shitty RC.
 
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Ecstasy Is One Of The Best Things That Has Happened To Me In My 49 Year Old Life. I Started At Age 19.
 
Celebrating 30 Years Of Ecstasy!!!
Age 49 - Age 19 = 30 Or XXX In Roman Numerals. I Love My DXM Salts. And I’m
Not Dead Or In Jail, Yet.
 
I Took LSD Many Times, Totaling Maybe 100 Trips. I Have Had It 2x Around 2019. I Got Busted With It Last Century.
 
dom:( said:
My sister has been hanging around the wrong people since she was little, so I wasn’t shocked when she started smoking and drinking at 11. Now the problem was that she has been on hard drugs since she was 13. I never really was too interested in substances, until I started drinking and smoking myself. I didn’t start my journey with ecstasy though I just occasionally popped some xans and smoked weed. But just a couple months ago she asked me if she should bring me some ecstasy the next time she goes out, to which I immediately said yes because I really didn’t give a shit anymore. I was in severe mental distress and dealing with depression so I didn’t even really ask her who she got it form since I kinda didn’t care if i was gonna get complications. I just took half a blue punisher, didn’t feel anything and took a whole one two days later.
Now i still didn’t feel much but I thought it wasn’t really that deep and i could still do other stuff if I didn’t like ecstasy. But the problem was that after 5 days I still hadn’t gotten out of the down phase or whatever its called. I didnt feel any joy for a good 10 days and was felling more depressed than ever.
My friend said that it could have been cut with meth and im just kinda wondering what could have caused this down anyone got an idea?
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Did you take care of yourself at all after taking that pill and a half?
 
Mjäll said:
Many pills are dosed very high and i suppose a dose larger than advisable could cause complications even in a subjective low responder. It helps to have a grasp on the dose strength on the pills. In many cases, half a pill is really the standard sensible dose.

There is the possibility that your pills were contaminated with something to cause this disproportionate hangover. No idea what it could be though. I would guess it wouldn't really be a proper drug but rather some really shitty RC.
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I'd add to this that dosage can be variable in pills so you don't actually know how much was taken.

dom:( said:
I was in severe mental distress and dealing with depression
But the problem was that after 5 days I still hadn’t gotten out of the down phase or whatever its called. I didnt feel any joy for a good 10 days and was felling more depressed than ever.
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with your background the down blue phase of MDMA is going to feel like it's amplifying what's already going on with your mental state, it might be your underlying condition rather than the MDMA.

stay away from MDMA, avoid other drugs that might impact your mental health e.g. cannabis/alcohol. Make sure your treating yourself well, get sleep, hydrate etc

if you're still feeling this bad after 10-14 days you might want to consider seeking some professional help, better treat what's going on than leave it to become a bigger problem
 
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