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TDS Eating Disorders Megathread

claire-- pavlovas aren't that bad actually. They're pretty much just egg whites and sugar, so you actually got a nice little bit of protein there.

Croissants, when available in large quantities, have proven to cause trouble for me as well. When I was much younger and in the worst part of my binge eating days I once polished off a dozen full-sized croissants with jam in an afternoon. I still don't like thinking of the number of calories that would have been.

But this was also at a time when I would just sit down with a bowl of chicken gravy and eat half a loaf of bread. Bad, bad times.
 
Well, I have been eating a lot these past few days (2000-2500 cals a day). My weight stopped dropping but it hasn't gone up, just maintaining. But I'm now in the eighties and really far below my goal weight, so mainting is not good enough....

I ran out of food today and I have no more money to go grocery shopping, called my mom today to beg her to send me some food and she dropped a few bags of groceries off at my apartment earlier today with a note... trying to get back on my parent's good terms so at least I can have some sort of a realtionship with them again, I just miss feeling like I have a family....

Anyway, all in all the week has actually been OK, I don't want to kill myself everytime I put something in my mouth (just sort of want to slap myself across the face). Plus my boy has been pushing me to eat more and telling me I'm way too thin, which helps a bit. :)
 
mia it really sounds like you're on the right track :)

Your boy is awesome for supporting you through this, and I know your parents will be waiting for you with open arms when you everything settles down <3

Stay strong honey, you know you're doing the right thing by eating right.
And please don't be negative on yourself for not gaining weight. It's still early days, and maintaining weight is so much better than losing weight. The weight gain will come in good time, as long as you stay healthy!

Best of luck hun, we all believe in you <3
 
Everything in moderation claire.
I know all too well from personal experience how hard it is to break the cycle. But try to eat something small and nutritious every few hours. Please try to refrain from the starve-binge-hate cycle <3
 
58kg, i know, may seem fat to u, claire, but ur taller than me (i guarantee it)
im 5"2 and only a couple of kg behind u (im on a med atm that makes u gain weight too!)
trust me, i can imagine u probly look about right for ur height
 
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I am 171cm, 5'6. 127 pounds. I feel terrible now.
I know that's not fat but my heart tells me otherwise.
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This is why I don't weigh myself unless I have to for medical purposes.... Numbers are such a stupid thing and don't mean anything. One of my close friends is 115 pounds, 5'2 and she is the TINIEST thing, wears a 0 and XXS in everything, you would never guess she weighs more than 95 pounds.

I've seen your pictures and you are a very beautiful and thin girl claire :) don't focus on the numbers, they will fuck you up. Most people would be happy and feel thin at your weight/height ratio, but those of use with eating disorders have completely different expectations for numbers, since as you know what we see in the mirror is not REAL... numbers don't correlate to anything more real. What's real is that I can tell looking at your recent pics you are beautiful and thin (and those in your life must as well, since I noticed a boy sent you flowers! :)) and you KNOW numbers won't make you feel any better. You've been lower than you are right now and did you really feel any better about yourself then? :(

I'm 5'5 89 lbs rigjt now and I can guarantee you that you look much prettier than I do right now, and I definitely don't feel any better about the way I look (and even though I know my boyfriend thinks I'm cute, he's definitely not sexually attracted to me for my body right now.... would probably prefer I looked like you.... ;))

n3ophy7e- thanks girlie <3 I know my mom will come around but my dad is a different story... even after all this time thinks the ED is bullshit. 8)

My boy has some idea about the ED, but it's not something we talk about explicitly. I really want to open up to him more about it (like specifically what I’m struggling with) but I don’t want to overload him or freak him out since it’s still so new…. :(
 
Thanks bella :)
When you gonna post some piccies!?
Yeah @ my thinnest I was a walking skeleton. I looked like I was dead.
Absolute lowest was about 85 pounds I believe. Disgusting.
Here's a pic of me at about 100 pounds (underweight for my height)
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I don't look very happy.. and the eyes are totally creepy, high high high
 
It is tragic, saddening, AND maddening to read the same cycle over and over and over.
I have been there. This thread reminds me to never to return to binge eating nor the negative thinking/behaviours that came with it.
If you are not in therapy, get there. It saved my life.
 
I didn't see it until you said something claire...but yeah its creepy.
You seem so well empty, like a empty doll.
I think I have one when I was at like 90 pds...I could never get lower than that. I look at it now and think its kinda gross.
But last night the bf commented on the ribs showing. Really something only he can see, and said "see that's why you need to eat."

10 pds can make quite a difference in how sick you look. But after all this chocolate of the holiday...I can see myself getting back on that treadmill until I screw up my knees again...
 
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Don't see how thin I am? Perhaps this is working against those who need to put the weight on. Rather than seeing it as negative effects, but sees it as "thinspiration".
Thats wrong.
Someone needs to help me decide what to do.
 
What do you need to decide hun? Send me a PM if you want, I won't be able to answer it til tomorrow morning (my time) but I'll try to help.
<3
 
Libby-- look at PT's arms and legs. In that photo she is WAY too skinny.

Still has that lovely smile though :)
 
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