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TDS Eating Disorders Megathread

I was 5'8 108 lbs. A really thin guy for sure. i'd always been a chubbier person, but then at hitting an age when you're obsessed with thoughts of girls, and their perceptions of you, I started to SEVERELY limit my eating. I've gotten over it since, but it still does linger inside me for sure. You might have that little voice in the back of your head forever, you just need to learn to suppress it.

First time i've ever actually admitted/shared that. Feels good.

My heart seriously goes out to anyone who is a victim of any of these terrible Disorders. if you ever need to talk about it PM me anytime.
 
BF was touching me, not sexually just lovingly and told me "You need to eat." He hardly sees me eat. And then I noticed I was eating pizza and there were 2 other ppl in the room...and I was bothered that they could be watching me...
 
the weekend and end of the week were better than the beginning. i still tweaked daily but forced myself to eat more and drink some juice. small steps, i think. :)
 
trash11 said:
I was 5'8 108 lbs. A really thin guy for sure. i'd always been a chubbier person, but then at hitting an age when you're obsessed with thoughts of girls, and their perceptions of you, I started to SEVERELY limit my eating. I've gotten over it since, but it still does linger inside me for sure. You might have that little voice in the back of your head forever, you just need to learn to suppress it.

First time i've ever actually admitted/shared that. Feels good.

My heart seriously goes out to anyone who is a victim of any of these terrible Disorders. if you ever need to talk about it PM me anytime.
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Hey trash, welcome to the thread.
It does feel good to share your experience huh *hugs* :)
How are you doing these days? Do you ever relapse? Or do you have a pretty good level of control over those niggling thoughts??

mrs_mia_wallace said:
the weekend and end of the week were better than the beginning. i still tweaked daily but forced myself to eat more and drink some juice. small steps, i think. :)
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It's perfectly fine to take it in small steps hun, as claire says "baby steps" :)
<3
 
Maybe now that I'm (trying to stay) sober, I can go back to spending food $ on food.

I topped out @ 140 lbs / 64 kg back when I had unlimited food & lifted weights 3x a week; I'm guessing now I'm down to 120 lbs / 54 kg .. Not quite right for 6'3 / 190 cm.

Don't really have any 'goals' for myself, hopefully staying clean&sober will improve my overall health and self-confidence.
 
Ive never had anorexia or bulimia

(i cant go without food and i cant bring myself to throw up)

but I'm a dieter

always on a diet
always working out
always counting calories

so i guess in a way Ive had an eating disorder
I never really admitted until it got bad
(to the point where i was almost anorexic)

i guess you could say I'm getting better.
I still count calories and work out but not as bad as i use to
 
EDNOS
Yopu may have ednos if you don't mneet the exact criteria for Anorexia or Bulemia and still display dysfunctional eating behaviour.
EDNOS - Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.
For example, my diagnosis changed from Anorexia Nervosa to EDNOS when my periods returned but I was still more than 15% underweight.
 
SF-- I don't really know what to say to you, but I was (and still kind of am) shocked. A good friend is 6'3" and something like 150 lbs, and is skinny as hell.

Good call though. Clean and sober will lead to an overall improvement in health. And you'll be able to put the money that you're saving into some tasty food!

I need to find a way to fax food. First I'd treat n3o and PT to a set of nice dinners, and then I'd be your personal chef SF.
 
Libby said:
EDNOS
Yopu may have ednos if you don't mneet the exact criteria for Anorexia or Bulemia and still display dysfunctional eating behaviour.
EDNOS - Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.
For example, my diagnosis changed from Anorexia Nervosa to EDNOS when my periods returned but I was still more than 15% underweight.
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huh
never though of that
guess i had..and kinda still have EDNOS?
 
i guess the psychatric line would be, at what point does your dieting stop you from being able to function normally?

i'm freaked out right now. i NEVER weigh myself because it just depresses me, but i get weighed once a month as a condition of my parents paying my car and medical insurance. i weighed myself today (get weighed tomorrow afternoon) and i'm thirteen pounds down from a four weeks and a couple days ago. fuck. this month has been not great but i didn't know it had gotten THAT bad, and now i'm below my lowest possible weight.
need to start at least maintaining. ugh, and i had felt so much better about myself because the last four days went actually ok. :(
 
SilverFeniks said:
I've always said, if I could have one thing from Star Trek, it'd be those awesome Replicators :D
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Quoted for MF truth! I'd still enjoy cooking, but it would be so handy for the 75% of the time when I'm just not motivated to make a healthy meal.
 
Tee hee! I do love me some leftovers though. It's like an Iron Chef challenge-- how can I make this meal into a new meal?

Although, unless I'm particularly motivated I usually just re-heat 'em. :\
 
Libby said:
I can't diagnose you, only a doctor can, but it sounds like a possibility.
Then again how many women in the world are dieters? I'm not sure where the line is drawn between dieter and eating disordered.
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no i know you cant but it seems very possible

i honestly wouldnt go to a doctor to diagnose me with this
i would feel too embarrased


and btw im not a woman ;)
 
I'm not sure if I have one. I should look it up. I think I just have food issues. I don't ever get hungry. What ppl say is hunger I interpret as nausea and don't want to eat. I'll eat if its in front of me, but I'm not going to any great lengths so I eat little. My mother sees this and suggests a multivitamin, but without food will make me sick. I'm underweight but not enough for anyone to notice or care, not that they would away. Although they have checked my thyroid a few times, cold, hair falling out, can't gain weight, other stuff. But never and ED. I cook for others, but have no desire to eat it. Watch the food channel but doesn't make me hungry. I don't to feel like people are watching me eat and I leave the table ASAP, but that could because my family has issues.
What'yd think, just a few food issues? Or what?
 
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