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dont worry pillthrill, i eat at least that much unless im severely depressed
its more u may want to look at changing ur diet a bit to more nutritious food
not that i can talk there either
 
Pillthrill, it's when you don't eat that eating becomes a problem. If you eat naturally, which you were, then your body normalises. It evens things out in the end and your diet will get better because your body will start craving the things it needs. Eat regularly and your body will cope with it. Starve and your body will hoard, you will gain fat tissue. Eat, make the effort to eat, and you will be better for it.
 
So I'm starting to taste living without following an ed. With all the massive changes that brings, I am struggling so.fucking.much. It's a constant battle just to eat. It would be so easy to just not. To just jump straight back into it.

But I've come so fucking far, I will not lose what I've gained.

It's a constant battle against dear e d, and I'm on medication that reduces my appetite too. It's so hard, but the best best sign is I want to go against it. I'm being normal because it's what I want most. It feels good to know that!

I do want this. But there are lots of times that I don't :( And it's flooringly scary to fight like I am.

Just wanted to say I'm so so glad this thread is still going and lots of people contribute to it. It means alot to me to have you guys here, and I'm sure I'm not alone. Thankyou all <3
 
Pillthrill said:
I look like a eat a lot.....and a lot of crap. uhhh :(
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I eat 6-7 times a day but would never put any of that stuff in my mouth.
Come to my house for dinner and look in my pantry. I'll feed you :)
 
That's not that much, but not quite as bad as I had thought. You just need more protein, and way less sugar.

I'll have to think about suggestions while I'm at work. Sounds like convenience is key for your diet-- I'm the opposite.
 
MidnightBaby said:
So I'm starting to taste living without following an ed. With all the massive changes that brings, I am struggling so.fucking.much. It's a constant battle just to eat. It would be so easy to just not. To just jump straight back into it.

But I've come so fucking far, I will not lose what I've gained.

It's a constant battle against dear e d, and I'm on medication that reduces my appetite too. It's so hard, but the best best sign is I want to go against it. I'm being normal because it's what I want most. It feels good to know that!

I do want this. But there are lots of times that I don't :( And it's flooringly scary to fight like I am.

Just wanted to say I'm so so glad this thread is still going and lots of people contribute to it. It means alot to me to have you guys here, and I'm sure I'm not alone. Thankyou all <3
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That's so awesome MB, I am so proud of you and the way you're dealing with the changes in your life. You're a great example of how we can all overcome our problems and your progress is an inspiration to us all. <3 <3 <3

Stay strong girl!! <3
 
Thanks so much n3o <3

progress is something that got pointed out to me recently - where was I a year ago, 2 yrs ago? 6 months ago? I would have given just about anything to live and feel like I do now, then. I'm kinda living my dream from then. But that dream is fucking hard! And I have new dreams now. Maybe in another year I'll be living them too :)

It doesn't stop you from feeling miserably sorry for yourself tho ha :(
 
It's good that you're aware of the path leading to another eating disorder PT. This should give you a better chance of NOT going down that road again.

Do you exercise at all? It really helps with body image and lifting emotions etc.
 
The time will come when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the others welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself,
to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored for another,
who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

- Derek Walcott
 
PT-- Look into a yoga class or something. The beginner ones are focused almost entirely on flexibility, but still give a bit of low-impact resistance. And it feels pretty damn good.
 
I used to do yoga. Really enjoyed it once I got over being sore for a bit, but now I just don't have the time. I hit the ground running at 6am and haven't stopped.
 
Yeah, I saw your 'day in pictures' thread. I can see why convenience is important: you've got a very full plate. Something that I found to help was to take a few hours on the weekend (usually Sunday afternoon in my case) to make a large batch or two of stew/soup/hearty pasta sauce, and boil a dozen eggs or so. I'll eat some for dinner, but the rest can be used for quick and easy food for a few days at least. Boiled eggs make for a good, quick protein hit-- if I don't have time to make one of my work meals I'll bring two boiled eggs and a little bit of salt with me. Not the best, but it's better than nothing.

And with your hectic life, you need more fuel than Mt. Dew and McD's :)
 
food.. where,,,

Ever since i became single my eating habit has went to the dogs, i get up in the morning and stick a fag in my month. It would be lunch time before i put on some toast, if lucky for dinner i would have some chicken in bread, i say lucky becuase onless i need somemore cigs i dont leave the house, friday nights is chippy night at a friends house were i would again have a chicken burgur, but during the week i live on bread, all the hassle you have to go though to make a big dinner, i just cant be bothered..:(
As for people who watch every thing they eat, what i say if you want to loss wieght, stick a mars bar up your ass and wave it in front of rottweiler8o
My cousin had a heart scare year or so ago, now he even wiegh,s his spuds before boiling them, he thinks he looks great because he's lost 5 stone, no back doors on me, i told him,, mate you look fucking terrible, if i were you i would see a doctor=D
 
PT: +1 for eating breakfast. Use those toaster pancake dealies to scoop some fat-free cottage cheese and replace the cigarette on the car drive with apple slices and you'll be up to +2.

Nuts are great! I love almonds especially. Walnuts are pretty groovy too. Nut butters are crazy good as well-- and would go well with toaster pancakes ;) Natural peanut butter is okay, but almond or even macadamia butter is a fun treat. Try it with some fibrous fruit, like apples, pears or dragonfruit. Mmmmm.
 
Great post Dave.

I LOVE pepitas (pumpkin seeds) and Brazil nuts too. And yes, the right nuts are very very good for you.

Fruit - i looove fruit. It's also a really nice alternative to something sweet, especially as desert if you have it with natural yoghurt. like, the very plain stuff. It's so nice to mix the sweet of the fruit with the bite of the natural yoghurt. I think so anyway! I eat Vaalia Low Fat Natural. Very healthy and soooo yummy.
:) :)
 
Thanks MB!

I've been on an apple kick lately. Between the organic Royal Galas that were recently on sale, and my parents' apple tree, I've been swimming in 'em lately. Mmmm.
 
Oh wow, homegrown apples! I would be in heaven!!
Royal Gala's are by far my favourite, I will only eat a different type of apple if there aren't any RG's available. Or more likely I just won't eat any apples at all haha.
I'm into green grapes at the moment (they've just come in season in Aus whooo!) and strawberries. 80c a punnet?! WHAAAT!! Load me up! =D
 
Green grapes are dangerous. Too delicious. I actually have to avoid them-- too easy to start binging.

I love how this has turned into the 'recovered(ing) eating disorder people waxing poetic about food' thread.

Here's a surprisingly tasty salad that has a decent amount of protein, takes 5 minutes to whip together, and is all in all awesome.

Dave's Crazy Japanese Breakfast Salad

Some mixed greens, I like 'herb mix', or mesclun would work well too
1 bell pepper
1/2 block of tofu, anywhere from medium to extra-firm, whatever your preference
A handful or two of mushrooms
2 eggs

~2 tsp mayo
~1 tsp lemon juice
~1 tbsp soy or preferably tamari
~1/2-1 tsp balsamic vinegar
~2-3 tbsp extra virgin olive oil, Udo's oil, or other good dressing oil

Dump the greens in a big bowl. Core the pepper and cut it into chunky bits. Roughly chop the mushrooms and lightly fry in a bit of oil (can do raw if you prefer, I don't).

While the mushrooms are frying, crumble the tofu on top of the greens, and mix the dressing ingredients together-- add the oil last. Once the mushrooms are done, dump them right on the salad, add a bit more oil to the pan, and fry the eggs. I like over-easy for this: the yolks mix with the dressing for extra deliciousness, but over-well would be fine too if that's your thing.

Throw the hot eggs onto the top of the salad, dump in the dressing, lightly break up the eggs, and toss. The eggs blend in with the tofu, the texture contrast between the protein and the veg are great, and the dressing is delish.

As a side note: the dressing is traditionally done with Ponzu instead of soy/lemon/balsamic, but since I'm veg I made this as a workaround. It tastes pretty well the same, and no fish were harmed.

This is a BIG salad, and makes for a solid meal. I like it for breakfast if I have a bit of extra time in the morning, but it works well as a quick lunch or even post-workout supper. If you're doing a lighter meal (like an inter-meal snack), then this recipe works just as well halved, or for two people.
 
Pillthrill-- food is good. Good food is better, but at this point all food is good. Nothing will make you gain weight faster than starving yourself. If eating makes you feel good, then relish it. Food is supposed to be comforting. For someone like me, it's too much of a comfort-- to the point where it's used as self-medication.

You seem like you're eating more, and trying to eat better these days. Which is a joy to hear. Try to keep healthy snack foods around-- cheese, baby cut carrots, mini cucumbers, yoghurt (plain is best), cottage cheese, fruit, etc.

That reminds me-- a tasty treat (for me at least) is a cup or two of nonfat cottage cheese mixed with some salsa. Tasty, plus you're getting some veg with a ton of protein. And it takes seconds to make and eat. Add some baby cut carrots or apple slices and you've got a mini-meal.
 
I've been Anorexic / Bulimic for the last 3 years ... however its only in the last month or so that i've actually realised that i am...that i'm not denying it but accepting it for what it is. I used to tell myself it was just a phase, and that as soon as i got down to the weight i wanted i would quit and maintain that weight...of course i never got to that weight (I've varied about 7kilos over the last year).

I used to be overweight, i hated it...then i found a way to lose weight easily...and now i couldn't dream of being overweight again. Just the thought of it makes me shudder.

I've noticed the only difference between me denying and accepting my disorder is that when i used to deny it i could see a future where i wouldn't be anxious about gaining weight every time i ate. Now most of the time i eat with the knowledge that i'll be purging most of this meal and every other meal i eat. Every time i eat, i can't help but check myself, to see whether i've gained weight since eating the last meal.

Food is the first thing i think of for most things now. I can't eat normally, i always overeat. Coming to this period where i have extremely important exams that will have a huge impact on my future in a month...i eat, overeat, then purge...and i can spend up to 2 or 3 hours doing that at a time. As soon as i start eating i decide theirs no point in having this, and decide to enjoy it...which ends with the inevitable.

I don't even remember the last time i ate without purging. It's too easy for me, and the sheer thought of having put weight on will scare me to the point of doing it.
I noticed i'd put 3 kilo's on yesterday, which led me to not eating...but the desire came back again. I know i'll lose the weight, if i don't, not having done it will make me feel so sick i eventually will.

I've thought about seeing a counselor about this, but i can't. I havn't told anyone about this, and my parents (who suspected it a couple of years back, but don't suspect it anymore) just attribute my massive amounts and constant amounts of eating to a fast metabolism...Theirs no way i could tell them either.

Drugs are a coping mechanism, and theirs no doubt they help...but since i've decided to stop using until after my exams, it's gotten worse. I try not to eat for as long as i can go, because i know as soon as i start it's not going to end. I've actually started cutting recently, because after a binge it seems to be the only thing that stops it from continuing.
 
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