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Strange that xanax has just been mentioned, I came in here to talk about exactly the same thing. Treated myself to some and it arrived today, I've only had it one other time before and I forgot how amazingly nice and sedating it is. After 2 days on crystal meth and not sleeping last night I'm going to crash now easily which I'm quite surprised about, gone from being wired to almost knocked out hah.

Was going to make another post but I'm falling asleep so just popping in to let anyone who cares know that Dan hasn't murdered me yet. And I'm still taking drugz. But not many. I'm boring and almost a proper grown up now (21 next month ooh). ;)

Night night scumbags, hope you're all fabulous <3
 
Xanax is definitely the Rolls Royce of benzos. I'm sure there was a glut of proper legit 2mg bars in the UK on DNMs a couple of years back, but they seem much harder to find now.
 
This combo is becoming a favourite of mine. 2 bags of heroin, a spliff or two all on top of a clonazolam. It gets me nodding nicely with a pretty complete amnesia of tonight by the time the morning arrivs
 
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Xanax is definitely the Rolls Royce of benzos. I'm sure there was a glut of proper legit 2mg bars in the UK on DNMs a couple of years back, but they seem much harder to find now.
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I agree although clonazopam has a big reputation with it's strength and long half life the quick heavy hit from xanax is something to behold. A mate of mine was getting them script from France. I'm now life time barred due to the little fuckers from a pub/venue where I've misssed many a good band.
 
2 hits of MPA several hours ago are still keeping me going with work at 8am. It's not looking good for a fresh start, I've got a flubromazolam solution but it'll keep me asleep till midday. Only a few hours of sleep it is for me methinks. :(
 
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Had toothache this morning, so Ive been naughty and dipped into my 'weak'end heroin supply. And when I say weak I mean it - I fired the fist bag and smoked the second 2 - i feel nice enough now but even with the minimum amount of meth I can have in my bloodstream at the lowest level it can be on a weekday im nowhere near a nod. Means I can leave my meth till lunchtime tho as I dont plan on having any more gear untill Sunday.

Im still too monged to be arsed with an eye opening morning sesh on the new playstation (only had it a couple of days and NBA 2K is sick as fuck - fantastic achievement for a sports game considering I dont even like basketball) so with the house to myself I think Im going to crank up the volume on the home theatre and stick the 2 Bastogne / Battle of the Bulge episodes from the 'Band Of Brothers' Blu - ray set (Episodes 6 + 7 'Bastogne' & 'The Breaking Point). A spliff has helped to increase the peace, and Im sure another one with a bong should be pretty nice as well

Happy friiday everyone. Im going to cheat and start todays friday thread with a copy and paste before the gear wears off
 
Watch out with those Xanax as they get a hold of you very easily.
Paid the price very recently when I decided to stop after an extended period of use.
Fuck me I was full on w/d's and I was only using a 1mg at night sometimes 2mg at the weekend.

It was the bars that got me.
Used to get these round versions that I really enjoyed and never had a probably coming off.
Got the bars for a change, double the price and I can see why.

Anyway take care as they will kick your arse bigtime.
I'll need to start a taper as stopping cold turkey fucking ruined me.
 
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Watch out with those Xanax as they get a hold of you very easily.
Paid the price very recently when I decided to stop after an extended period of use.
Fuck me I was full on w/d's and I was only using a 1mg at night sometimes 2mg at the weekend.

It was the bars that got me.
Used to get these round versions that I really enjoyed and never had a probably coming off.
Got the bars for a change, double the price and I can see why.

Anyway take care as they will kick your arse bigtime.
I'll need to start a taper as stopping cold turkey fucking ruined me.
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Welcome to Bluelight Humper. Most of us here are aware of how addictive the group of drugs that include Xanax (chemical name alprazolam) are and how physically harmful and dangerous it can be to stop taking them 'cold turkey' if you have been using them for extended periods of time at high doses. 1mg of Xanax would feel very potent to someone who had never taken it or any other tranquillising medicines before, so if you have been taking at least that much every day for a long time you will have difficulty when stoipping them.

The group of drugs that Xanax belongs to are called benzodiazepines and can be split broadly into 2 groups, the first being those drugs that have a short - medium duration of action (<8 hour) and those that have a long duration (>10 hours). Xanax belongs to the short - intermediate acting group and these sorts of drugs are notoriously more difficult to taper off than the long acting ones, as the amount in your bloodstream will fluctuate rapidly over the course of a day. Standard treatment will require the help of a health professional, who would probably swap the short acting Xanax to an equivalent dose of a long acting drug, usually Diazepam. Diazepam (depending on which source you use, 1mg of Alprazolam (Xanax) is equivalent to a dose of diazpeam between 10 and 20mg). Once your withdrawl symptoms have been stabilised on the longer acting drug, then it will be easier to taper off that drug, as diazepam, for instance, can have a halflife of 24 hours, giving the drug a chance to slowly but regularly reduce itself in your body, keeping your withdrawl symptoms to a minimum and keeping you physically safe,and it can be given in smaller increments than Xanax (you can get 2mg Diazepam tablets and it can come in liquid preparations as well)

If you believe you have a dependence on Xanax please see a Doctor - this drug cannot be stopped safely on its own without professional support. In the meantime, please visit http://www.benzo.org.uk/- the go to resource for those who have dependence problems on Xanax and other benzodiazepines. Alot of the websites content has been written by Professor Heather Ashton, a doctor who is considered one of the worlds leading experts on benzodiazepine dependence and its management.
 
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Thought I was in for a quiet weekend after last weekends rave. However a g of meth I'd written off just landed and I have no uni work to catch up on. No pipe but fortunately I'm a dab hand these days with the foil. Already smoked a point and wow I'm feeling buzzy =D

I'd say this is just racemic meth and not the d-meth we are blessed with exclusively in the UK. Ideal though as I do have a list of things to catch up on. Been sober completely since last weekend focusing on real life hobbies so this is an unexpected treat. Also still got some pills but think I'll just stick to a few smokes of this and a couple of drinks this evening. Possibly seeing a lady friend later <3 ideal surprise. Also getting a bit bored with cocaine so this really has worked out well :D
 
No pills for me man, I'm a retired MDMA head these days mostly. She'll probably take one. Still got 5 from last weekend bought 10 to help mates messy dealing finances only took 3 gave 2 away.

This meth is very different, I'm used to consuming d-methamphetamine which is the more hedonistic sexy meth as described by my vendor but that's £175 a gram, this was only £75 or something. Been waiting for it weeks. Also still got a .2 of DMT but I doubt they would mix well. This girl is so cool too, last time she stayed we took lines of ketamine and I chored a quarter off 100g slab of mint tasting pollom I was holding for a friend, we sat up chatting shite then fucked on ketamine which I'd never done before due to my usual overly enthusiastic style dosing :p

I've got the focus just now tidying up like a mad man, I'm meant to be cooking dinner aswell so I'm limiting it at .2 before she arrives then probably the same later. Damn it's really not the same on foil but the only bulb I have is so small I'll probably cut myself making a pipe. First weekend in a while with no cocaine too, think I am slowly but surely getting past the addiction :)
 
If you have/had a Cocaine problem, I would really suggest taking even more care with your Meth usage, Methamp will fuck you up just as much, if not more than Crack will.
No matter how much Crack you fiend through, a few hours after your last hit sobriety is nearing quickly. With Meth, however, the duration of residual stimulation makes it very, very easy to convince oneself to carry on.
"It's 3am, I can't sleep after my last hit at 6pm, I have to be up in 3 hours, may as well have another hit and stay up all night, rather than be a tired zombie" etc., etc.,.

Have fun, but stay safe.
<3
 
I first tried meth 5 years ago man. I've probably used it 12 times in 5 years. I'm well aware of it's dangers, I've tried heroin twice, flirted with IV cocaine a couple of times and freebase, but it's the snorting the powder that gets me, far too easy to delve into 24/7 sniffing without many people noticing.

Meth for me is more productive, I get alot done while high. It's more horny too for sure, although after a bell ringer you definitely experience some animalistic urges too. I find meth is the better all rounder just it doesn't appeal to me very often. Smoking/vaping seems particularly bad for the lungs compared to anything else I've tried. I do find it more fiendish than crack aswell, crack is compulsive as fuck and as long as your still under the influence even the crash you want more, but once that subsides you can put it to bed. I've managed to only smoke .2-.3 loads of times and either snort the rest or kept til the next day. I guess it helps being on seroquel, I can choose when to take my meds and be asleep 1 hour later.

Meth I just don't want to stop because I'm enjoying myself. I've only ever got paranoid on it the very first time I tried it.

Done .25 on the foil now. Frantically running round the house trying to mop the floors, looking at coursework, posting on BL, all with my cock in my hand xD
 
ectsasy is bullshit. so done with stims. partiucarly ones thnat make you gurn your face off and chat utter shite and make you unabe to sleep. Even the 'music appreciation' is bullshit cause everything sounds equally good on mandy. Hell, anyone seems good on Mandy.Tripping together is way more honestly bonding, and acid at least is real and has the good with the bad. Proper MD seems to make me trip out and be unable to comprehend anything if I take too much, this stuff i've got recently feels like MD and speed which makes youn feel like complete shit and unable to sleep for literally days after. At least heroin and benzos don't make you feel like shite for days

but the comedown gives you revalations. Shows you who you really are.I realized today that despite my mental self defnce of me being 'a nice guy really;. i'm not a nice guy. I am not a good person. I am a self indulgant twat who fucks over the people who love and like him. Anyone who was ever a friend, I was a twat too. And i'vde only just realized. yes more than often i was under the influence, but i still took the same drugs that fucked me up again and again.

I am a white middle class child. and I have been given every oppurtunity to do wsell. And i have fucked up at every chance. Why? cause i was a spolit cunt who didn't give a shit. again and agin i didn't realize what I had. true friends. a loving girlfried who stuck by me despite all my bullshit. I guess now the only thing to do is to recognize that at least i've realized that I have this side ands it's not a good thing and I need to do my best to keep it under control.

Also drinking and doing benzos on a comedown is a bad idea because although it takes it away you are still incredibly serotonin deplated and you don't realize and are now more uninhibted. Being serotonin deplated and unhibited is not good. Ride it out, at the most, smoke a bit of weed. At least you won't do things you regret.
 
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ectsasy is bullshit. so done with stims. partiucarly ones thnat make you gurn your face off and chat utter shite and make you unabe to sleep. Even the 'music appreciation' is bullshit cause everything sounds equally good on mandy. Hell, anyone seems good on Mandy.Tripping together is way more honestly bonding, and acid at least is real and has the good with the bad. Proper MD seems to make me trip out and be unable to comprehend anything if I take too much, this stuff i've got recently feels like MD and speed which makes youn feel like complete shit and unable to sleep for literally days after. At least heroin and benzos don't make you feel like shite for days

but the comedown gives you revalations. Shows you who you really are.I realized today that despite my mental self defnce of me being 'a nice guy really;. i'm not a nice guy. I am not a good person. I am a self indulgant twat who fucks over the people who love and like him. Anyone who was ever a friend, I was a twat too. And i'vde only just realized. yes more than often i was under the influence, but i still took the same drugs that fucked me up again and again.

I am a white middle class child. and I have been given every oppurtunity to do wsell. And i have fucked up at every chance. Why? cause i was a spolit cunt who didn't give a shit. again and agin i didn't realize what I had. true friends. a loving girlfried who stuck by me despite all my bullshit. I guess now the only thing to do is to recognize that at least i've realized that I have this side ands it's not a good thing and I need to do my best to keep it under control.

Also drinking and doing benzos on a comedown is a bad idea because although it takes it away you are still incredibly serotonin deplated and you don't realize and are now more uninhibted. Being serotonin deplated and unhibited is not good. Ride it out, at the most, smoke a bit of weed. At least you won't do things you regret.
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Hex, your decribing exactly how Ive felt myself for the last 10 years but at least I have some objectivity about the whole thing now Im big and ugly enough to do so. Your only as self indulgent as anyone who uses this site - most of us on here use drugs, often to excess and self indulgence is par for the course when your describing the genral behaviour cited by posters on here. Your no worse than an average drug user getting high as a way to self medicate in order to ease / control your depression.

Give us a PM if you want to have a rant - believe it or not alot of us have felt exactly the way you do at the moment but adjusting to the banality of real life after uni is a big transition and one thats going to take some time to settle down

Get in touch with us if your up to it, Im a very good listener and I dont want to lose my title as 'member with lowest esteem' which your threatening with all the anxieties your posting and sharing

Hope to hear from you soon.

Stee
 
Yeah I could relate to alot of that post myself! Hexegram we all have tough times, but don't give up. 3 weeks of trying your hardest to get fit and healthy mentally and physicaly again and you will be back with a vengence! Just scored a gram of dynamite coke. Totally clean and over 80%. 4 small lines like really small blew me away. Went and got pins, fuck crack this is so good I decided to IV it, have a load of diaz in my system from last night. All I can say is 75mg fuck me bellringer of the century. Never had owt like that from crack. I will be careful but fuck me that was lush
 
I went to see a drugs and alcohol counseller today and it was so refreshing to hear someone who wasn't judmental and seemed to understand. Most of society will see me as as a junkie and it was so nice to see someone who just saw me as a person with issues that could be gotten over over time and not some scumbag.
 
I'm pretty baked. Got into the hash oil tonight, very nice on top of some strong weed. Just rolling a bud through a puddle of it and putting it in the bong.

Got some strong tea on the go, and a few beers to drink with the rugby games:)
 
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I went to see a drugs and alcohol counseller today and it was so refreshing to hear someone who wasn't judmental and seemed to understand. Most of society will see me as as a junkie and it was so nice to see someone who just saw me as a person with issues that could be gotten over over time and not some scumbag.
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Nice, mate. Good to see you're getting help and getting better
 
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