Tell ya man, I was well for quiting this afternoon when this lovely milf gave me a smile and all I did was smile back - Not 'That' many years ago I'd have swapped numbers; a possibly a be engaging in vigorous cardio with a handful of dirty blonde hair right now - and she was so nice, and her smile so directed at me personally - I didn't even get an erection - never mind shuffle the deck at the earliest opportunity. I didn't sign on for this shit. Seeems to me like taking smake is kind of taking a big long brain wank.
Just to give a very brief history of this post - Any mod or someone who has access to it - before around 11pm I spent 2-3hr's nodding like fuck after maybe only a 0.15 of the
£60 a g gear. The £45 seemed to stop working, or taking a disproportionate amount to get you where you want to be. Or (and fuck it, it i've being doing enough coke) Indulging a lil bit of paranoia would see a paticular dealer - top notch dude, but he notices you bought a light and a dark a week, then it was that x1.5, then 2. Then the crack comes in and that shit is off the charts mate.... chasing and huffing flat to the matt damon. Can I can't afford £106 a day. Far from. Side note -Why do people say put brilio stuffed in a little booze miniture. I found it much more effective to smoke it of the foil with a 500ml bottle cut in half. I also find 'tooting' more effective this way untill it becomes le bettle, then chase that lil bro all over town till he rins out of steam,
Anyway - I had no coke today just 60 a g H and it Bamn, motherfucked me, way out of proportion to the £15 price point - which at the start seemed so immaterial based on how hella fucked I was getting, then the £45 g's truned from being powder, to rock hard rock (still great) to crumbly rock, to really crumbly rock. Cool my connect have been shifting me lower quality stuff to get me to bounce up to grams of £60g H and 60g Rock. Or is has he been just running low the £45 batch? I wonder how much dealers manage their customers useage?
I think it is the latter, I think he was running out and it's fuking difficult enough to keep your shit tight as the £60 g of H was 1.22.
As a person you has experienced INTENSE euphoria and INTENSE redosing with various RC's - as fucking nice as crack is It is - and it's nice. It fit's lovely into my little memory box of - dude, it's been 6hrs already and you havn't seen a hell of a lot outside of a square meter of foil.. the fuck you doing? Shut up dude your so fuking high right now! Dude it's been 3 weeks, your flat looks like an evil Blue Peter set from a parrallel universe. Shut up dude I'm so fucking hig right now'.... oh hospital.
Thats a pretty real box that has been metally carved for me so I won't be doing any crack again. Not buying it anyway. And as I'm a mid 30's relatively unfit fella and not a gorgeous slutty 20 something I can't imagine anyone buying it for me.
I had to kill that nod super quick as I had a £1000+ worth off stuff to stick on eBay before the the 12pm cut off. That was achieved by a massive/obscene line of real nice sulphate, well it was nice then and it is nice now, but lets see want 7am looks like - can't spell sulphate without 'hate' I also smoked a 1/2gram of methyleone in a spliff? Probably a massive waste to some but I don't really care for it and had 8 listings to make - fuck I forgot one - meh. I listed all the main stuff in 52mins.
I'm going to go smoke some of this strong H now. I mentioned that I'm pretty much of an idiot but not chronically so. I've really wanted a good run at what it felt like for a long time - and almost paradoxically I'm in a pretty sweet spot in my life. No sicknesses of the body or mind (none that get admitted here) all of the money spent is my own, I have no consumer debt bar my phone. I have been trying to remember to buy subs with ever order - and failing pretty bad - but I have 3 8mg suboxone. I also have a 10 day trip to the far east and I will have a lot on. I'll need my wits about me. I rem a lot of people in recovery saying that, it pretty much didn't matter your habit you were always on 8mg. And many felt they would of been just as grand on 2/4mg Is there a thread anywhere for how to transition to suboxone - I think that a fairly flat out - BUT - only 2 month tear on it shouldn't be paticularly harrowing. It's the PAWS - see I've had opiates in my life for some 2/3rd'sof it - from the big 100 tubs of paracetamol and codiene. To the first time I told my Gran I had a spliting head ache and she said the only thing I have are these and gave me 2 kapake. I don't think I'd have picked up buying - if fact I can say with almost 90% certainty that if my local chemit hadn't pulled codiene lintus of the shelves after selling me a bottle every week for 4 years. Anyway - here's hoping I don't go making a dick of myself again. If there was a link about how to transition over to Subs that would be class as fuck.