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EADD Heroin discussion v.20 -- You've come a long way baby

Yes, I also think they work well together. But it´s very addictive. Specially if you take it with Valium ..
 
ive fucked my benzo tolerance big time. Havnt been able t get any pharm grade since christmas so ive been lving on rc flubromazepam. Finally got my bi-annual stash of diazepm from my gp ysterdy (she wont put them on repeat but she lets me have 560mg in 5mg tablets every 6 months or so for prn). took 50mg off the bat, which did fuck all (the chemist gaveme boxes of the actavis 5mg which i usually rate) . By last weekend i was takng evening doses of 40 mg flubromazepm which is probably to blame. benzo tolerance break is looking essential, but wth no dolla, gear or weed its hard to leave them alone...
 
I find the weird thing with valium is the abuse of them kinda creeps up - so if i have some so-so gear i will take a blue and that will normally put me where i want to be then the next day regadless of th equality of the gear i will do it again - but to enjoy the buzz i have to fight the desire to sleep and just stay in that in between state which is a fight i normally lose and wake up an hour later and enjoy the buzz then or take another and/or more gear.
It always freaks me out when i check how many I have and its always way less than i thought - BUT i never do more than 5 days in a row as a benzo habit is something I definitely dont want
Fuck I'm at work now and smoked a lump an hour ago and can hardly keep my eyes open- might be a long toilet break - luckily nearly all my team are omn A/L so i wont be missed. Gettinf .5 for 20 now of 8/10 gear prob about 35-40% not the best but its cheap and does the trick, i HAVE NOW FOUND IT HARDER NOW THAN IT WAS IN THE DROUGHT TO FIND REALLY HIGH QUALITY (doh Caps lock) gear Iin the week or so as most shotters have the same sort of gear in terms of strength - give it another few months and i reckon the average % is going to go up and in relative terms prices go down as there is definitely alot more gear coming in to the country and market forces will drive the price down and quality up.... I hope.now repeating myself time to hit the bogs..
 
blondin said:
I find the weird thing with valium is the abuse of them kinda creeps up - so if i have some so-so gear i will take a blue and that will normally put me where i want to be then the next day regadless of th equality of the gear i will do it again - but to enjoy the buzz i have to fight the desire to sleep and just stay in that in between state which is a fight i normally lose and wake up an hour later and enjoy the buzz then or take another and/or more gear.
It always freaks me out when i check how many I have and its always way less than i thought - BUT i never do more than 5 days in a row as a benzo habit is something I definitely dont want
Fuck I'm at work now and smoked a lump an hour ago and can hardly keep my eyes open- might be a long toilet break - luckily nearly all my team are omn A/L so i wont be missed. Gettinf .5 for 20 now of 8/10 gear prob about 35-40% not the best but its cheap and does the trick, i HAVE NOW FOUND IT HARDER NOW THAN IT WAS IN THE DROUGHT TO FIND REALLY HIGH QUALITY (doh Caps lock) gear Iin the week or so as most shotters have the same sort of gear in terms of strength - give it another few months and i reckon the average % is going to go up and in relative terms prices go down as there is definitely alot more gear coming in to the country and market forces will drive the price down and quality up.... I hope.now repeating myself time to hit the bogs..
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I fucking hate nodding out at my desk at work (when i had an office) its too embaressing to even contemplate now but some mornings my eyes would need a crowbar to keeep them open. Its probably in the nations interest that i stay out of the labour market for the time being.
 
lol pissed myself when i saw this - i think it was farmaz who put it in' now I understand why paps follow me about, being a celeb n all.

Urban Dictionary: blondin
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due to the uk heroin drought a new scale has been adopted for measuring the strength of uk heroin. blondin being a celeb from drugs website ...
 
The Filth were busy in my town last Friday. At around 7am they put the doors in of 5 dealers and nicked them all. I,m not aware yet if they caught anyone with any substantial amount, i know a few only were caught with a few bags and some cash but nothing for them to be worried about. It pissed me off as my main guy i see travels into our town daily and stays mobile in his car driving around doing deliveries. I'd called him around midday & he said he'd be with me in 15mins but by 12.45 he still hadn't arrived so i tried calling back only to get through to his voicemail.
Found out later that he had also been nicked, whether they found anything on him i don't know but if they did then they would have found a lot of brown & white all bagged up ready for sale.
 
A house up the road from me got busted the other day. When they put the door through it smacked the 2 year old lad that was stood behind the door in the face. What did they get? One spliff. Needless the say, the lad's parents are gonna get some milage out of this...
 
Savage! Why did the wee lad attempt to resist his arrest by blocking the door.. he should have just opened it when they rang :(
 
Hay really on my last life line rite now. Im dealing with paws from dope withdrawal. Idk wat to do and I really just would appreciate anyone's words thats been through this because im freaking out. I was stuck on methadone for a year and like the regard I am I got sick of goin there everyday to get medicated so I left the methadone place and kicked the methadone with the dope... smart I kno ugh. But now I just wana get clean and just need help.im broke scared and everywhere I go to seek help the guys just try to get in my pants. Thanx to anyone that replays God Bless xx
 
Aw fuck, sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. If there's one consolation its that you've got off the methadone. In comparison coming off the gear ( dope) should be a walk in the park! Unfortunately it's never that easy. Are you able to stock up on otc codeine to do an extraction? How about getting some otc loperamide to help with the stomach cramps and shits? Its gonna be hard whatever you do so good luck and stay safe.
 
keep right on ash. you will get thru it and in the end wonder what you were fussing about. feeling shitty myself at the moment. dull dull dull dull with fuck all to look forward to spending too much time on my own as I always have done. sometimes I love it but at the moment it's doing my head in. sorry u want up lifting stuff, summer is coming and the birds are singing.
 
Stick with it Ash, it's a long slog, or so it seems ay the time but it's really not that bad. Depending on your habit that it. The way I look at it, some people are sick through no fault of their own, much worse to and they cope. We just pussy out because we've got an emergency stop button..

I wanted it so bad once I did it, granted life hit the skids for me for a number of reason and I got back on it but it can be done... those years clean were the happiest of my life <3 take it easy...

And Pink, if you fancy company for an hour or so, a coffee or owt stronger I venture over your way often enough. Not in a weird stalker way.. PM me if you do. I haven't killed anyway one yet anyway :D
 
nice one for that scotch. I really need to make more of an effort with life but I've been stuck in a work gear work gear routine for too long. I am a bit of a loner but everyone needs a bit of company. solitude is great but I must be more sociable.
 
Would be a pleasure Pink... :) Being more sociable is something I'm trying to work on. I even phoned a fellow Bluelighter just the other day and I never phone anyone, absolutely hate phone calls off of people I've known most of my life let alone relative strangers. Can be a bit of a pain when you're self employed and you have to phone actual strangers and ask them for work... 8)

Am just tucking into a bit of gear right now, seems better than usual. Bonus..
 
AshleyBabbsBarbieD said:
Hay really on my last life line rite now. Im dealing with paws from dope withdrawal. Idk wat to do and I really just would appreciate anyone's words thats been through this because im freaking out. I was stuck on methadone for a year and like the regard I am I got sick of goin there everyday to get medicated so I left the methadone place and kicked the methadone with the dope... smart I kno ugh. But now I just wana get clean and just need help.im broke scared and everywhere I go to seek help the guys just try to get in my pants. Thanx to anyone that replays God Bless xx
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I'm going through the PAWS aswell, though on the otherside of the ocean it's no less a hell I don't doubt. All I can say is try and find some new hobby to invest your time in, try and remember what it feels like to enjoy something for the sake of it rather than to chase a high, find satisfaction through accomplishing things even if they're insignificant bullshit like making a nice meal from scratch, winning a game of minesweeper or just having a normal conversation with someone who is not out to fuck you over. You've got to think about yourself overall, try and think of the future and grasp at any thoughts of hope you have. Even if you don't have any just make some, like travelling to another country where you're not surrounded by negativity. I plan to go travelling this summer and it's the only thing really getting me through the day, the thought that I can go somewhere and meet people without having to rely on a chemical to make me enjoy the pure fact that i'm alive.
 
it's the paws that scare me too. I know when I've done rattles before I go thru a really excitable energetic phase, then wear myself down , have lack of sleep, feel the "Is that it?" feeling and then get back on the ol d Heroin
 
I know, I´ve been experiencing this for the past week. Have quit using methadone after many years in high doses..
PAWS are simply horrible experience.
 
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