Very well put, SproutOnSmack. Very well put indeed.
My only regret while using gear was all the money I've wasted. I work non stop, yet I'm always broke and stressing over bills. But I have enjoyed my experience with heroin, I fucken love the stuff....
I would have loved to have just used gear for, say, ten years, and then quit. Then I could have looked back foundly on my years of madness.
My 20's was filled going to Punk gigs, drinking, taking speed, sniffing glue, acid, E's... And then my 30's were my heroin years, years of bliss. But now I'm making my way through my 40's and I'm stuck in the heroin rut. I'm still enjoying it though. But the habit can spiral out'a control so easily. I don't wanna end up as bad as I was before the drought hit....