I hate that of all the psychedelics I could have fallin in love with it had to be fucking cough syrup. Its insane seeing like 2/3 of the people who take it be like this shit is ass and completly understanding why they feel that way and loving DXM for that very reason. In fact, as a slow CYP2D6 metabolizer its even worse cuz morning after 300mgs the effects of blitzed sleep architecture and the complete stupidifying blockade occuring in my hippocampus last for a full 24 hours. No joke, I took 13 x 30mg pills at 7PM last Thursday and when I showed up to my shift Friday at 4 I still had dinner plate pupils and the ability to serendipitous fling my spatula in a trash can 5 feet away cuz fine motor skills be damned. Theres no shortage of ketamine, or lsd, or shrooms, or 2CB or any fucking drug thats isn't laughable to be taking after middleschool I got in theory get my hands on but i always come backt to this toxic, head on semi truck collision type drug.
Its objectively shit. I'm intentionally, GLEEFULLY poisensing myself. I was never one to get intense visuals on like anything so even at 600mg all I get is complete spatial disoreation, near blindness and light sensitivty cuz of the pupil dilation, comically bad motor skills, oppressive spontaneous sensations, all staged in the deep impossibly dark blackness of dissociatives. Ketamine? I hate it. Its boring. Would rather take a nap. DXM though? Some NMDA antagonism served with a side of sertonin toxicity and fiendish stimulation? Oh yeah thats the shit like wtf
I like to think of it as the antithesis to LSD. LSDs all bright and sublime, rejuvenating and beautiful and dxm is just a perversion of all that goodness. Instead of "mind expanding" is more akin to getting your brain hydraulic pressed from all 4 sides while being spun at mach 10 and I love it??!? On DXM I don't who I am or where I am and I can't see, and I can't think, and I can't walk, and I can't piss, and I feel horrible for the next two days and every time I have two consecitive days off and more and more often now even when I don't I jump to take it. Idk what to do, shouldn't this be self limiting? I can't talk about it with anyone because how can I tell someone I'm "addicted" to guzzling cough syrup? I minus well be addicted to slamming the front door on my pinkie which seems only marginally less believable. Ik this is probably disrespectful or whatever but I half wish to be a addicted to crack or heroin or something just so my pastime is more respectable and i dont have to feel like a fraud everytime reading about someone doing real shit here
Its objectively shit. I'm intentionally, GLEEFULLY poisensing myself. I was never one to get intense visuals on like anything so even at 600mg all I get is complete spatial disoreation, near blindness and light sensitivty cuz of the pupil dilation, comically bad motor skills, oppressive spontaneous sensations, all staged in the deep impossibly dark blackness of dissociatives. Ketamine? I hate it. Its boring. Would rather take a nap. DXM though? Some NMDA antagonism served with a side of sertonin toxicity and fiendish stimulation? Oh yeah thats the shit like wtf
I like to think of it as the antithesis to LSD. LSDs all bright and sublime, rejuvenating and beautiful and dxm is just a perversion of all that goodness. Instead of "mind expanding" is more akin to getting your brain hydraulic pressed from all 4 sides while being spun at mach 10 and I love it??!? On DXM I don't who I am or where I am and I can't see, and I can't think, and I can't walk, and I can't piss, and I feel horrible for the next two days and every time I have two consecitive days off and more and more often now even when I don't I jump to take it. Idk what to do, shouldn't this be self limiting? I can't talk about it with anyone because how can I tell someone I'm "addicted" to guzzling cough syrup? I minus well be addicted to slamming the front door on my pinkie which seems only marginally less believable. Ik this is probably disrespectful or whatever but I half wish to be a addicted to crack or heroin or something just so my pastime is more respectable and i dont have to feel like a fraud everytime reading about someone doing real shit here
