RobotRipping
Bluelighter
So i've been binging for weeks now on dexedrine, EPH, on psychs, other stims and whatever else i have around which is enough so i've been fucked up for quite a while. I've been on a 36 hour/day schedule, where i sleep 12-16 hours then stay up 36-40 or so hours and have been doing this for weeks.
So essentially i'm fucked. I'm scripted dexedrine for ADHD which it is very very helpful for. Problem is that i've abused the living shit out of it and my normal dose does not work effectively anymore, not even close to a normal dose will work in fact.
I need about 80mg at a time to not feel like shit. Script is for 100mg/day but i only want to take 40mg/day because i have insomnia and a bit of anxiety issues still lingering. (and TBH i still want left overs for once a month binges when i don't have any psychedelics)
Now here's the plan: Get 5g of dextromethorphan (DXM), you know the good shit in cough syrup. I will then start replacing DXM for dexedrine, so day 1 will be 300mg pure DXM and no dexedrine, day 2 will be 400mg dxm, no dexedrine, and so on and so on until dexedrine is no longer plaguing me with its nasty cravings. I can handle the DXM no problem, look at my name
i won't have any issues discontinuing DXM after 5 grams but will indeed end up in some 3rd-4th plateau trips to clean out the gutters from all this stupid stimulant abuse. I'm completely aware of the risks and dangers with using DXM and other dissociatives, proper dose, only using pure dxm, set/setting and all that.
Is this idea completely fucking retarded (no offense to any retarded people reading)? is it simply another justification to use even more drugs to fix drug related issues? for me to fail at and then go back to binging? wtf do i do if that's the case? Or will this actually/possibly? work? I can't keep going the way i am right now i'll either end up in complete psychosis or running myself out of meds and fucking up school which is not an option. So something has to change. I have 3 weeks to accomplish this task and get my shit in order without going psychotic or fucking myself over.
I just want a 3rd person perspective on this and whether this sounds like a ridiculous drug addict plan or if there is some legitimacy to approaching my dexedrine dependence and addiction with an NMDA antagonist like DXM, as there is some evidence to its efficacy in treating such issues and i am more than well experienced with DXM. I'd prefer advice that is objective and critical of the plan itself and not my incredibly horrible lifestyle habits and such.
I can also go with iboga instead but i feel it's a more risky option and yeah i can quit cold turkey, but it in general does not work out well for me. I've tried tapering but that seems to cause more misery than even cold turkey. After i quit, if this plan indeed works or not, my girlfriend will be holding my meds for me as i am no longer in control and realize this.
So essentially i'm fucked. I'm scripted dexedrine for ADHD which it is very very helpful for. Problem is that i've abused the living shit out of it and my normal dose does not work effectively anymore, not even close to a normal dose will work in fact.
I need about 80mg at a time to not feel like shit. Script is for 100mg/day but i only want to take 40mg/day because i have insomnia and a bit of anxiety issues still lingering. (and TBH i still want left overs for once a month binges when i don't have any psychedelics)
Now here's the plan: Get 5g of dextromethorphan (DXM), you know the good shit in cough syrup. I will then start replacing DXM for dexedrine, so day 1 will be 300mg pure DXM and no dexedrine, day 2 will be 400mg dxm, no dexedrine, and so on and so on until dexedrine is no longer plaguing me with its nasty cravings. I can handle the DXM no problem, look at my name

Is this idea completely fucking retarded (no offense to any retarded people reading)? is it simply another justification to use even more drugs to fix drug related issues? for me to fail at and then go back to binging? wtf do i do if that's the case? Or will this actually/possibly? work? I can't keep going the way i am right now i'll either end up in complete psychosis or running myself out of meds and fucking up school which is not an option. So something has to change. I have 3 weeks to accomplish this task and get my shit in order without going psychotic or fucking myself over.
I just want a 3rd person perspective on this and whether this sounds like a ridiculous drug addict plan or if there is some legitimacy to approaching my dexedrine dependence and addiction with an NMDA antagonist like DXM, as there is some evidence to its efficacy in treating such issues and i am more than well experienced with DXM. I'd prefer advice that is objective and critical of the plan itself and not my incredibly horrible lifestyle habits and such.
I can also go with iboga instead but i feel it's a more risky option and yeah i can quit cold turkey, but it in general does not work out well for me. I've tried tapering but that seems to cause more misery than even cold turkey. After i quit, if this plan indeed works or not, my girlfriend will be holding my meds for me as i am no longer in control and realize this.