I'm not sure what you're looking for, last I checked dxm can't roll back time and give you your 3 years back.
And dude gimme a break you're only 19, saying your life is off track and ruined is like a beauty queen getting a pimple and being worried no one will ever find her attractive again.
So get some pimples, meet a beauty queen, share a bottle of Robotussin and life will be back to normal!