Xan
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 20, 2009
- Messages
- 73
This whole month, Jan 1st-Jan 20th, there were only a few rare days when I was not on 300mg DXM. Before that I was doing about 300mg every other day in the form of cough gels. I now, for about a week, little more, little less, not sure, have been doing 300/550/600/900mg every day. I've been trying to bring it down to every other day, but it's been so helpful in reducing my anxiety, my stress, my depression and my feelings. I love the numbness. I have been taking 1mg Klonopin and 37.5MG Effexor XR for a little more/less than a week now prescribed by my psychiatrist too, with some ativan mixed in.
I'm struggling today to not dose with another 600mg DXM, I've been able to, with great, GREAT difficulty, hide the effects of the dxm from loved ones/ones close to me, including my girlfriend of over a year. I have pushed the effects they have noticed off on the klonopin/walking around the house in the middle of the night on nightmares. I've taken Seroquel 50mg when I want to sleep/trip to end because i have school/work or school+work the next day. I'm not sure on my situation, am I going to be okay? Am I healthy? Will this kill myself? I'm just in a lot of confusion/bad situation/kind of scared right now.
(Due to certain circumstances, read: financial, I cannot/will not see another doctor to do blood work/physical check ups/etc, that type of thing, and seeing as I have few means of transportation other than asking loved ones, I'd have to reveal to them my predicament and I can't do that, so, basically, my typing probably seems a little confused right now, I cannot see a doctor for tests/other stuff).
I'm struggling today to not dose with another 600mg DXM, I've been able to, with great, GREAT difficulty, hide the effects of the dxm from loved ones/ones close to me, including my girlfriend of over a year. I have pushed the effects they have noticed off on the klonopin/walking around the house in the middle of the night on nightmares. I've taken Seroquel 50mg when I want to sleep/trip to end because i have school/work or school+work the next day. I'm not sure on my situation, am I going to be okay? Am I healthy? Will this kill myself? I'm just in a lot of confusion/bad situation/kind of scared right now.
(Due to certain circumstances, read: financial, I cannot/will not see another doctor to do blood work/physical check ups/etc, that type of thing, and seeing as I have few means of transportation other than asking loved ones, I'd have to reveal to them my predicament and I can't do that, so, basically, my typing probably seems a little confused right now, I cannot see a doctor for tests/other stuff).