wut up bluelighters ill be da bigger man n realize i was wrong.... I was under the impression i was smoking formaldhyde or embalmbing fluid which is really terrible for you, but upon a drug test today which tested positive for pcp i realized what i have been smoking is not so much embalming fluid but mint leaves dipped in pcp,
granted embalming fluid does smell nasty n somewhat similar and im sure some assholes(not the ones i get my shit from thankfully) cud cut their pcp with it, but i started to come to terms that yea embalming fluid is a common misconception as in people dont even know what they are geting and they think is embalming fluid or w/e(being that embalming fluid is usually pink in color anyway and pcp cud be like any where from clearish to yellowish tan brown syrup looking w/e) but we are actually smoking pcp....
I shud of realized this as my cousin whose family operates funeral homes had people who managed to get there hands on the embalming fluid and tried to smoke it(dipping their bogies in it) and either got like fucked up weird highs or not even high at all you know but i was type young and never actually smoked what she was getting... But yeah what im trying to say is that i was mislead to believe that the bd(stands for bag dust) was actually some form of cut embalming fluid and not actual pcp...
Me being hard headed and prolly dusted at the time lol argued with a lot of you as well as mods swearing i knew what shit was but i mean yeah its far from it... So i now know what i smoking is pcp and granted some people get diluted forms of it(i tend to get it from 1 or 2 individuals who get da goooood shit n not no bullshit), but i just kind of wanted to come agree with you guys and stop being such a devils advocate on the matter in which i was a bit misinformed on...
So you know i kind of wanna thank u guys for showin me the light(the blue one that is lol), and im glad i got off the misconception i was smoking embalming fluid and im sooooo glad i aint neva run up in my cuzins funeral home and took none of that shit cause its sooo bad. But yea anyway i was kind of a dick and shit and i know you guys want to help me here and inform me so my bad if i was a bit arrogant and shit you know, but i go thru a bunch of shit and i dont got it all up stairs(but who da fuck cares lol) so you know it's nice to be on good terms wit you guys...
I had previously gotten a drug test upon being locked up which tested positive for the chemical compound pcp, and today it just confirmed that i have been smoking and loooooooove pcp lol.... I know even if it's not as bad as formaldye and w/e it cud have some strong affects mentally, but i find it to clear my mind and help me forget a lot of shit(i have ptsd and pcp actually helps with selective amenisia in the sense where u can somewhat let go of past things u kno), and while some people do believe pcp induces pschosis and aggresssion i find that granted i do not mix it with weed(which makes u really bug out and see shit lol) its didactic and theriputical granted not abused n shit...
Welll i mean it really does help me over all and it actually keeps me more sane lol... Once again i'd like to apologize for my arrogance and rude behaviour but u gotta figure im dealing with a lot of shit so bare with me lol, i like these forums and would like to be an accepted part of the family and not just someone everybody hates lol..
Ill agree i cud be wrong at times as everyone is really u kno, you wont always be right, but we cud always better ourselves you feel me and id just like to thank you bluelighters for helping get over the misconception of what i was doing....
Sooo yea meng thanks guys even if no one replies i appreciate everyone trying to get thru my thick skull lol