In a very real way, various benzos have changed my life. In a great way. I don't abuse them (well, not often) because they seem to be much more useful as a tool, a utilitarian drug. I was suffering massive anxiety and depression, mainly circumstantial. See, I was having a hard time holding down a job, I wasn't seeing my friends, wasn't going out... Just staying at home, getting unhealthy and progressively compounding my mental state. My GP prescribed me Xanax and I had a tool for the panic attacks, I didn't have to worry about going out and maybe having a panic attack because I had the Xanax there is case. Like an asthmatic with a Ventolin inhaler in their bag. I could go to job interviews, I could stop being such a hermit, I was finally getting sleep and sometimes I could completely numb myself when I just couldn't deal with the day any more. Alprazolam, diazepam, temazepam, oxazepam, nitrazepam, clonazepam... I've had a few, hahaha.
MDMA has never been what I could call totally enjoyable for me, not while I'm high, but afterwards it is. It feels like it's a really important drug. I don't really like the feel of rushing or peaking on high dose MDMA, I don't like chewing my face off and not knowing what's going on, and yet... I still really like MDMA. Heh, weird. I think it's probably the break from the social disconnectedness of day to day life, the collapse of boundaries, to be able to honestly reach out and touch somebody in such an open way that's really refreshing when we spend so much time being so closed off. Hmm.
Of course, LSD and mushrooms have been lifechanging in their own way, just so mind opening and spiritual. There's nothing like it.
Cannabis has been helping me ditch an opiate habit (so I guess the opies have changed my life too, in that I crave, want and need them) and it was also one of the first illicit drugs I used, young teenage curiosity and the easy availability of weed coming together there quite nicely, hahaha. So it will always have a place in my heart as being some of my first footsteps into the world of altered states.