I'm 19... several months ago I allowed them to find my ketamine because I wanted to find out their feelings and I was in one of those "open" moods. Both in past have seemed fairly anti-drug types (oddly enough they buy me booze...), but they've also admitted to at least trying weed in college and they're (mostly) rational. They're both great people, and I
really want to trip with them. I'm close with my mom, but I've never really been deeply open with my dad (classical oedipus

). He's not a simple person, and I really want to know him better. In particular, I'd like to find out his attitudes and feelings towards masculinity to help me better understand my own. He's been a huge part of my life, but when I try to understand him... he seems more golem-like than ever.
Anyway... ketamine was a bad choice of drug to show. I'd picked it 'cause my dad works with it and knows it's not particularly harmful, but at first they thought it was coke! Even after I told them it was K, they were still flipping out. At that point I decided only to reveal using weed, mushrooms, and K instead of the whole goddamn list. I'm well informed about the drugs I do, those are relatively safe drugs, and I come off as a knowledgeable speaker so no real punishment occurred. I was in particularly poor emotional circumstances at the time, which made them initially think that the use was a result of that, but the fact that I had been doing drugs for two previous years was adequate answer. I told them I'd quit, and I feel bad about not doing so, but I have cut down (mostly as a result of school).
It's a situation that I'm not happy with, but I'm not in a position to rectify it right now. Once I get out of school, and a solid job, I'll reapproach it.
We used to joke a lot at the dinner table about drugs, now when I visit my younger brother and I only joke about them rarely (and in an ironic way). Looks of dismay still pop up on my parents faces. :-/
Edit: Whoops, missing a word.