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Something prescribed by doctors to those who want to, but struggle to stop drinking themselves and have tried with their own will power but find it extremely difficult.
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Something prescribed by doctors to those who want to, but struggle to stop drinking themselves and have tried with their own will power but find it extremely difficult.
Cherry, you should be extremely proud of yourself in what you have achieved already; a period of sobriety, honesty with those around you and getting help with the medication n other services. It does seriously sound like a tough fucking time, and you really just have to take it one day at a time. The fact that you work around that which you are trying to clear from your mind must just add to the challenge, n shit you're doing a hell of a lot better than many could. 
I definitely think there's going to be an adjusting period though; days dragging and seeming weird, n social situations or lack there of throwin up more issues. Take one step at a time though, and remember that support is always available from those who know ya, on here, n various other places. Stick with it all anyhoo... %)
I think I need a break from various things at some point in the near future, but i'm not sure how it's gona work out. My mind feels kinda drained from regular drinking, n drinking opportunities seem to continually present themselves, whether I want them to or not. My memory doesn't feel great at the moment... I kinda feel quite out of focus and unable to concentrate, which kinda worries me when it comes to work/exams in the near future. Hopefully nicer weather will let me zoom around on my bike a bit more, and do some decent reading outside. Definitely feeling a spell of sobriety calling...![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I definitely think there's going to be an adjusting period though; days dragging and seeming weird, n social situations or lack there of throwin up more issues. Take one step at a time though, and remember that support is always available from those who know ya, on here, n various other places. Stick with it all anyhoo... %)
I think I need a break from various things at some point in the near future, but i'm not sure how it's gona work out. My mind feels kinda drained from regular drinking, n drinking opportunities seem to continually present themselves, whether I want them to or not. My memory doesn't feel great at the moment... I kinda feel quite out of focus and unable to concentrate, which kinda worries me when it comes to work/exams in the near future. Hopefully nicer weather will let me zoom around on my bike a bit more, and do some decent reading outside. Definitely feeling a spell of sobriety calling...
Shambles
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Congrats on actually finding some real MD, DC - well worth breaking a sabbatical for 
Funny, I seem to remember saying something similar last weekend.
Truth is I caved in like a house of cards on Monday afternoon and have had a couple of drinks most days since.
However, what I will say is this: after the paranoia and general anxiety I felt after my 2 day drinking/pills jag last weekend, I was dreading work, but it turned out I'd built a load of shit up in my head into far more than it was. Why? Because the after effects of the booze/drugs/no sleep/etc, left me feeling confused, vulnerable and dejected.
In actual fact, everything was sound and I've actually had a great week and am actually looking forward to Monday morning for once. What I think I've realised is that it's not the booze itself that's the proble, it's my attitude towards it. Yeah, I know I sound like your Mum and Dad but it's so true. Just lay off the binge drinking for a while, get some exercise and stick to a few quiet ones with your mates rather than full on nights out for a bit and it'll do you the world of good, trust me.
TheSpade
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Has been my attitude to boozing for over a year now but things have somehow went pear shaped. Even when I have been going out on nights out I've been taking it easy and it's been great, can remember everything, don't make a cunt of myself, no hangover next day but this week I seemed to throw that all out the window and go a bit mental. Didn't plan to, just sort of happened.
I much prefer booze when I'm just having one or two and actually drinking for the taste instead of drinking to get drunk.
Shambles
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I've cut back on my drinking massively this week. Have only drunk alcohol three nights, I think. Even then it's been mostly very moderate drinking. Am sipping on a nice bottle of shiraz-cab sav at the moment but part of the reason for that is cos I opened it the other day and only drank a coupla glasses so don't want it to go off. Admittedly I've spent large parts of this week down a k-hole which may have made my abstainance easier :D
TheSpade
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I'm trying to cut out the drinking mid week at home (which is a shame as I really enjoy having a cold cider in the evening or with my dinner) because the units add up all to quickly especially if I get pissed at the weekend. But if I stop the mid week drinking I can see me going mad for it at the weekend. Can't win.
Defo stopping this mad binge drinking shit that's happened this week. Twenty five years old this year and acting like I'm bloody 17 the states I've been in.
Defo stopping this mad binge drinking shit that's happened this week. Twenty five years old this year and acting like I'm bloody 17 the states I've been in.
The Liberal Media
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Drank 7 units all week, up till yesterday, and then it just went kaput. 
Inso
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I can relate to that. Before I got into drugs a few years back I was naturally very anxious and lacking in social ability, would worry over the smallest stupid things and generally was a bit of a mess to be honest. Then I started on the drink/drugs in a big way and I felt truly happy for the first time in my life, didn't go more than I think maybe one or two consecutive days sober for two solid years.
I fell ill a few months back which is still ongoing and as a result I can't tolerate any intoxicants at all, even caffeine is too much. So I had to go sober all of a sudden and the first few weeks were quite hard, got all anxious and depressed about everything, nothing was fun anymore, almost like how I was before. It took a while but I have finally got over this and now feel fairly comfortable being straight all the time. Three full months without the slightest hint of any form of drug now. I think I had become FAR too reliant on drugs/alcohol to be happy and I'm quite thankful that I was forced to give it all up because there's no way in hell I would have done this on my own.
Go go sobbatical...altho what I'd do for a case of beer, an 8th and a bag of pills right now, seems like a distant memory these days!
Good luck cherry and anyone else attempting to give up their poision of choice, the initial period is the hardest it only gets easier from there.
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felix
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*checks something*
fuck me, these new 530ml cans of draught guinness are 2.2 units each. and it's only 4.1%.
that's not good.
Shambles
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The units system seems to have been created in the 70s when people only drank warm, watery ale and supped sherry glasses of Lambrini. Could do with updating a lil.
tambourine-man
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Wine units used to be measured in 125ml glasses, and at 13% ABV, you'd be looking at about 1.7 units. These days, they're measured at around 175ml glasses which are about 2.2 units at 13% ABV. A 750ml bottle at 13% ABV is around about 9.75 units.
Easy way to work out your units:
ml x ABV%
------------- = units
1000
so...
175ml x 13 = 2275
then...
2275 / 1000 = 2.125 units
cherrycolouredfunk
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I fell off the wagon. Not horrendously, I'm still kind of being dragged along on a rope at a speed of my own choice. I kind of expected it, teething problems. I knew it wasn't going to be easy. Feeling the anxiety and de-realisation things come back quite badly last week scared me, a lot.
I stopped taking the anti-drink meds as I was experiencing some pretty awful side effects. I also resented having my own free will taken away from me.
My urge to drink has changed though. I have only drank two and a half glasses of wine Friday night, a pint bought for me by my boss after my shift work last night and two pints of cider tonight. I'd usually put more away than that in one night. It took me 4 hours to finish two and a half glasses of wine on Friday, and I didn't even finish the bottle. I seem to have managed to change and calm my drinking habits and get out of a cycle I was trapped in. Which was my aim. No desire to drink during the week. Only on weekends. I do not want to stop social drinking as I would find that crippling, I just need to find a balance
I'm hopeful yet.
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Inso
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Thats good, have to find a method that works for you. Some people need total abstinence from the problem substance while others find it much easier if there is a level of occasional use still there. I think its much easier to cut down on something rather than quit completely, the latter to me feels like letting the drug win, keeping usage to a sensible level is far more satisfying.
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tambourine-man
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Don't forget to take your calculator.
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