Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

[TheSpade]

Once upon a time I thought it was work that kept me in line.

Work makes me want to go out and get pissed / fucked out my face because it's so tedious and mind numbing. I feel like I need to let off some steam and go a bit mental just to feel like I'm still alive and not some robot on auto pilot doing menial tasks all week at a place which I don't want to be.

When I was unemployed I was happy as a pig in shit and I wasn't drinking much either nor getting tempted by furry rugs. Bloody work!

I think I need to stop drinking almost every night, only 3 or 4 units most week nights and then a bit more on the weekend but still doesn't seem very wise. Thing is alcohol is about the only drink I enjoy the taste of and want to drink often.

 

[Inso]

That's true there Spade, having an extremely tedious job in the week made me want to get fucking smashed even more on the weekends I must say. While unemployed although I still did the same it wasn't such a big thing and I didn't tend to go quite so mental, although that was probably more to do with having far less money while jobless now that I think lol.

Nothing beats that feeling walking out of work on friday evening to the pub to get things started though, such a feeling of accomplishment and the weekend feels so earned.

 

[TheSpade]

True Friday evenings once works finished are euphoric! First thing I do is go home and crack open a bottle (but that's generally the first thing I do every night ).

Having more free time when I was unemployed meant I could enjoy myself and do as I pleased more often so going mental and getting pissed wasn't such a big deal.

 

[Inso]

I hate having nothing to do all day, nowhere to be, like now because Ive been really ill for months. Going to work can be a drag but the free time is so much more fun as a result. I just like having that contrast between the two, makes me feel much more alive, moping around the house is starting to drive me mad, so repetitive.

 

[TheSpade]

I spend more time at home now I work than I did when I didn't!

I was always doing something whilst unemployed, always out the house. Now I work, come home and can't be arsed to do much bar at the weekends and then all I do is drink.

 

[fastandbulbous]

I hate having nothing to do all day

There's always something that needs to be done (houses don't clean themselves, cat litters aren't self changing etc), it's the motivation that's the problem...

However they didn't have the internet then..

Aye all we had was a counting abacus,, pencil & paper and some promises about how this new fangled electricity was going to change our lives

all I had was a book called Legal Highs

The Adam Gottlieb work of fiction? I remember going through that book investigating each supposed legal high & about half of them were either drugs that only a tiny few would consider likable (like atropine containing plants) or just plain wrong (adrenochrome semicarbazone)

I'd like to kick the cigs to but I think I'll give myself a bit more time. Not quite ready for that one.

One day/thing at a time is a wise descision. As I told my folks when they were trying to give up smoking, there are only two drugs so re-enforcing that rats will inject themselves (by pressing a lever in a Skinner box to get a reward, not rats looking like extras from Trainspotting ) repeatedly to the point of toxicity & death and they are cocaine & nicotine and as can be seen by reading about coke using celebs, it's an utter bastid to give up, especially when smoked. As such, a short relapse is no reason to give up on giving up. Trying to pack in both at the same time is making things extremely difficult for yourself

Bit of a bitch the 40+ thing ain't it F&B ... however handy for concentrating the mind eh

What little I've got left after more than 2 decades of giving it a hard time. I actually found turning 30 to be more traumatic than 40 (probably senility making the going less painful! )

 

[Shambles]

I could NEVER be sabbatical with drugs but then again I am a young'un.

Tsk! Bloody kids, eh? You just don't seem to have quite got the hang of this here thread yet somehow, Disco... or at least haven't broken enough bits to need it so far

God I love it when your masterful with your mod stick hubs

Hell yeah! Everyone enjoys a lil light domination (although a lil light to moderate DOMination looks inreasingly appealing as the days get keep on getting longer and sunnier :D) sometimes. Must admit, it feels mighty fine to whip out and flex my special mod-muscle sometimes, Kate. Doesn't get to see a lot of action, and even when it does it's with little skill or subtlety, but great pleasure :D

It's one of the things I like most about BL - the wide range of ages and backgrounds... you get to "meet" people here who would probably in RL never give each other a passing glance.

I completely agree, Kate and - somewhat coincidentally - said the very self same thing just the other day to a fella IRL that I would probably never have given a passing glance to if it weren't for an odd happenstance some time ago. I actually find it easier somehow to talk - even to the few BLers that I've met in the flesh. Not cos they're hard to talk to, just that I'm not so good at talking to anyone in the flesh. The modicum of anonymity that tinterwebz provide makes it easier to unleash the inner Shambles is all

Incidentally, I advised the fella concerned to get himself a 'puter and come play where the Kool Kidz do, of course :D

There's always something that needs to be done (houses don't clean themselves, cat litters aren't self changing etc), it's the motivation that's the problem...

Ain't that just the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth :D:D

My sort of semi-sabbatical starts today. Only cos my *ahem* minor peevee binge is finally ending. Probably a Good Thing for all concerned though. I'm very much the in the cycling scenario of heavy (ab)use of any individual substance group. "Chronic, chaotic, polydrug abuse" is how it's phrased on my medical file. Can't argue with the facts of the matter, but "cycling" is nice - may mention that to my drug counsellor sometime :D

I've got maybe a couple of doses of the Perv left which will insist on being consumed today, I guess, but definitely winding down and actually quite looking forward to a semi-sabbatical. May not be quite so keen later when the battery is fully drained, but really do feel kinda cleansed after my manic week. Usually I'd associate the type of calm, clear-headedness and useful insights (to me anyway) that I've had this week with psyches rather than stims, but inbetween the bouts of manic semi-psychosis I've had some wonderful moments of clarity. Who knows, maybe it's even confused, enlightened or killed off the relevant mind/body psychology/chemistry into a more useful form? Just for a lil while at least

 

[Treacle]

I'm off the G for the foreseeable future. I didn't drink or have any benzos between monday and yesterday. All I had was my tapering dose of phenibut once a day, as I managed to develop a dependence on it after using it to come off G. I've got loads of stuff done in the last few days that I normally wouldn't have done. Once the phenibut taper is over in a couple of days, there will be no more G, drinking a few times a week, and using as little benzos as possible to manage my anxiety, along with CBT. Being sober is strangely fun. I've felt much more clear headed this week than I have for years.

 

[brokenbrain]

Ok,can you describe your personal phenibut taper?I used it to not much success last year,and it was in caps,not weighed out.The drug scares me not least because of the huge amounts involved..2g!?!
I suppose if I could dose G for an amount of time and come off it properly instead of turning into a fucking drunken benzo head things could go better for me.
2 weeks ago I managed a few days without taking anything at all and did feel better in myself.8 hours real undrugged sleep is an amazing thing.

 

[Treacle]

I'll reply to that in the GBL thread.

 

[cherrycolouredfunk]

I'm off the G for the foreseeable future. I didn't drink or have any benzos between monday and yesterday. All I had was my tapering dose of phenibut once a day, as I managed to develop a dependence on it after using it to come off G. I've got loads of stuff done in the last few days that I normally wouldn't have done. Once the phenibut taper is over in a couple of days, there will be no more G, drinking a few times a week, and using as little benzos as possible to manage my anxiety, along with CBT. Being sober is strangely fun. I've felt much more clear headed this week than I have for years.

I'm going to type this up in a contractual format and have you sign it

I'm off the G for the foreseeable future

That is the most positive thing I've heard you say in a long time, and this time it actually seems like you MEAN it and it's made me smile.

Sabbatical for me......hmmm.

 

[Shambles]

That's excellent news, Treac :D

Sounds like you may have found that lil chink in the addiction wall and are taking the oppurtunity while it's there. It's great to hear you're doing so well and I'm glad that it's working out well for you so far - long may that continue

 

[discopupils]

Ah soon I am being made to cut down on my drug use by my kind-of-ex-kind-of-current-manfriend. Which is hypocritical as he has also bought me a gram of MDMA.

But still. Strange that I'm cutting down just days after I swore I'd never be sabbatical

 

[koneko]

Lasted out to day 5 what can I say, shining example and all that eh ....

In the F&B analogy more of a quick piss in the bushes than a full day's alightment off the bus at a palatial service station's ladies loos. Wonder if I can get back on the bus again?

I'm not going to make any excuses... though have many in mind

Still yum, may as well enjoy while I'm here right 8)

 

[masaz]

Aye always time for a quick stop off, just make sure the bus don't leave without you

Considering one myself but I know I'd never get back on.

 

[tambourine-man]

I've felt much more clear headed this week than I have for years.

Even medium-term, regular G use (as in, a week or so or use) can produce impaired cognition.

The sooner you leave that shit behind, the better.

 

[Treacle]

^Oh, I've noticed. I haven't done it for longer than 2-3 days, without a break, in the last year-ish. 2-3 days is still enough to notice the problems, however.

 

[wibble]

Well it's been a whole week without weed I think, not been to bad.

 

[koneko]

^
That's pretty good going wibble - how's your sleep been off the green?

No point in me going on and on about this at the moment, but I failed to stick to my sabbatical all weekend. Never planned to do this and I kinda knew if I hit the pub on Friday I might slip. Fine it was Friday, but that didn't excuse Saturday or Sunday...

Slightly disappointed in myself.

swanhaggisman sent me this sabbatical quote ... "Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Very appropriate

 

[wibble]

I don't have a problem sleeping without it, but i get cravings, think because I get bored.