Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

[The Kid]

Fell off the sabbatical quite nicely today with a lovely bottle of St Emillion Grand Cru with lunch.

 

[fastandbulbous]

^ As long as you're not getting pissed, I'd treat a wine with food as more of a quck step off the wagon for a second rather than falling off (a bit like a toilet stop!).

Last weekend was more of a falling from an open door of a speeding wagon than any sort of slight lapse, but remarkably, I've found it fairly easy to re-alight after the weekend. If I could consistently keep it just to weekends I'd be as happy as a proverbial porcine in excrement.

PS Whoremoaning - a bit less of the geriatic references (esp just after a post of mine! )

 

[masaz]

we mean it with the utmost respect

lol @ speeding wagon

edit: is anyone getting substance-related dreams now they're off them? for the past few weeks i've been dreaming of getting utterly arseholed, and smoking since i realised i'd quit, and then feeling really guilty til i wake up. it's pretty bad

 

[Bella Figura]

PS Whoremoaning - a bit less of the geriatic references (esp just after a post of mine! )

You're only as old as you feel inside But duly noted

 

[The Kid]

^ As long as you're not getting pissed, I'd treat a wine with food as more of a quck step off the wagon for a second rather than falling off (a bit like a toilet stop!).

Hahah, I like that description. Unfortunately i'm heading to Switzerland tomorrow for 4 nights of snowboarding lunacy, which will should involve large amounts of beer, jaegermeister, pills and hopefully some chang. :D

 

[masaz]

tell you what, i'll go in your place, me not being on a drug sabbatical and all

 

[The Kid]

tell you what, i'll go in your place, me not being on a drug sabbatical and all

Nah, just come along as well. I'll make sure you don't drink, and we can share the persians. Sorted!

 

[fastandbulbous]

You're only as old as you feel inside But duly noted

Don't worry, I make up for it by acting like a 12 year old, so it all balances in the end! As for how old I feel, it can be anywhere from 5 year old to 125 years old (think Dustin Hoffmans character in Little Big Man ) depending upon what I've done the day before

 

[masaz]

Nah, just come along as well. I'll make sure you don't drink, and we can share the persians. Sorted!

hurrah! :D

 

[fastandbulbous]

Unfortunately i'm heading to Switzerland tomorrow for 4 nights of snowboarding lunacy

Unfortunately? If only all my disasters had that sort of unfortunate results. I assume by snowboarding you mean as in skiing, but with one wide ski and not some sort of cocaine piggery that even John Belushi would have thought twice about doing?

 

[discopupils]

I could NEVER be sabbatical with drugs but then again I am a young'un.

 

[The Kid]

Unfortunately? If only all my disasters had that sort of unfortunate results. I assume by snowboarding you mean as in skiing, but with one wide ski and not some sort of cocaine piggery that even John Belushi would have thought twice about doing?

Hahah, that conjures up all sorts of imagery!

 

[koneko]

Bickering pruned at the early stages. Positive thoughts, support, encouragment and advice only for a change please, people

God I love it when your masterful with your mod stick hubs

Tell me about it, I'm 45 and am much more aware of the potential for damage from my 'exploits'. Must say though, my break recently was very helpful in getting hideous deprerssion sorted and even though I've somewhat halted my drug holiday (although just cannabis on any sort of regular basis), I'd highly recommend such action every now and again as being totally clear headed was a high in itself (one I was rather loathed to end, if I'm honest, but someone was most inconsiderate & invited me to a birthday party... )

Bit of a bitch the 40+ thing ain't it F&B ... however handy for concentrating the mind eh

Agree about the clear headed thing... almost feel "fucked" by the strange nature of it It's the transition period that always hurts me - breaking on through to the other side, like... is a strange and unsavoury experience at the best of times.

Currently in that mode - not fucked and not straight. Still having CEV, and a few open too!.. Not quite fully in reality yet... but travelling there on a bumpy old Boeing though turbulence with it's engines threatening to stop any time now.

Scary

I truely appreciate BL's ability to provide me with wisdom and lessons learned from others, especially those a lot older and experienced than I

Having an almost non-existant relationship with my family, this place provides me with much needed food for thought. Corny i know, but still, gotta love the elders and the perspectives they provide

Aye enough of the old folk speak whore... do you really want me as your EADD mum?! ... Age means bugger all in this game..... Young discopupils has more knowledge about RC's than I ever will have. When I was his age I knew fuck all but inhaled, vaped and swallowed all, no questions asked

However they didn't have the internet then.. all I had was a book called Legal Highs, a love of surreal art and the NME...

the problem is i can never get around to doing it

The trick ... the working up to it process is a haul in itself. Nothing quite like a few health or life scares to propel you into it though. Hope you never have them love

Had a rather mad drug weekend, and been feeling drained and knackered since, although at least i'm semi cheery. I've kinda been taking it pretty easy this past month, but I want to continue that way for a while longer... the stimulants have definitely made my chest feel a bit weird again, although quite mildly really.

Hopefully with spring coming I can go on some good walks or bike rides; something to distract myself from the temptations of relaxing fuckedness. Best of luck to all who're trying similar cut-downs...

Cheers Riklet. Look after yourself and don't fuck your chest, it has a long time of abuse to look forward to... needs gentle loving care!

I could NEVER be sabbatical with drugs but then again I am a young'un.

And why are you fucked out of your face and not in college and in here! *wags maternal finger* haha, you enjoy yourself babes and take it easy in between times eh

Day 4 and it's weird. Physically feeling okish and sleeping not too bad for me. Mentally I have this craving bitch screaming at me all the time... amazing how that bit of your brain just goes on and on... do it, do it.

Hmmm.... there's only one way to shut it up to. Lets see how long I last eh. Have promised myself one sabbatical from the sabbatical over the next month.... one trip out of the bus to visit the ladies as F&B put it... better make sure it's some trip too. Just knowing I've allowed myself that is keeping me going.

 

[Bella Figura]

I appreciate most contributions to BL not just the elders Kate I did almost grow up on BL though, lurking on here when I was around 15 I find it weird when there's people younger than me lurking around/posting :D

And as for the EADD mum, well... a weed smoking mum would be fun, but I'd be a very bad influence :D

 

[koneko]

I appreciate most contributions to BL not just the elders Kate I did almost grow up on BL though, lurking on here when I was around 15 I find it weird when there's people younger than me lurking around/posting :D

And as for the EADD mum, well... a weed smoking mum would be fun, but I'd be a very bad influence :D

It's one of the things I like most about BL - the wide range of ages and backgrounds... you get to "meet" people here who would probably in RL never give each other a passing glance.

I found it a bit of a shock when discopupils told me he was 17 first had him down as a she and though he was much older...

Agree, our ages mean nothing really, though I can't help getting all maternal sometimes... is just the way I am

And I'd confiscate your weed whore... it not being good for you like 8) However, I'd bake you special cakes for your birthday

 

[Ghostface]

Interesting thread.

I can't define my willpower. Once upon a time I thought it was work that kept me in line. Now a student again in London I still have that control so I have passed quite the test that I had set for myself and I was very curious before my course started in January as to how things would work out.

Time will tell I guess.

 

[JB]

I've had enough of coke, again, this time I mean it. I think.

It's been a few weeks since I've done any, pointless waste of time and money. Sad thing I knew this a long time ago and it can be nice now and again, but I know I can never leave it at that.

I'd like to kick the cigs to but I think I'll give myself a bit more time. Not quite ready for that one.

 

[koneko]

Interesting thread.

I can't define my willpower. Once upon a time I thought it was work that kept me in line. Now a student again in London I still have that control so I have passed quite the test that I had set for myself and I was very curious before my course started in January as to how things would work out.

Time will tell I guess.

Hey Ghost nice of you to drop by Like you work's one of my "red-flag" warning signs, and to a certain extent helps me to... well give it a rest and go on sabbatical! Here's hoping the telling of time tells you good things Off course being a student again, it must be tempting to behave like one again!

I've had enough of coke, again, this time I mean it. I think.

It's been a few weeks since I've done any, pointless waste of time and money. Sad thing I knew this a long time ago and it can be nice now and again, but I know I can never leave it at that.

I'd like to kick the cigs to but I think I'll give myself a bit more time. Not quite ready for that one.

Hello too Johny ... it appears to be the nature of the drug love affair me thinks, not being able to leave it at that and the call of the more, more, more beast within us I'm now too scared to touch coke - cannot trust myself to leave it at one session, past lessons and whatnot pity

Hope you can "manage" it to your liking and still enjoy it -not lose the magic

I tend to smoke more cigs on these sabbaticals than I ever do when taking drugs... just move the habit-gene around to other, less satisfying things I guess.

 

[JB]

Yep that's is exactly my problem. If I'm not doing one thing it's another. Grrrrr.

Just about finding other ways to direct my energy I guess.

 

[Inso]

we mean it with the utmost respect

lol @ speeding wagon

edit: is anyone getting substance-related dreams now they're off them? for the past few weeks i've been dreaming of getting utterly arseholed, and smoking since i realised i'd quit, and then feeling really guilty til i wake up. it's pretty bad

I've been dreaming about weed so much in the past month or so that I haven't had any, been to my dealer about 6 times in my dreams, rolled up, smoked, etc. Hell I've even had two seperate dreams where I'm in Amsterdam coffee shops with the menu of strains in front of me. Oh how I crave the sticky green lady, soon we will be together again.

In hindsight I'm glad this sabbatical (never heard that word before this thread lol) was forced upon me, was really horrid to being with but I'm adjusting to sobriety nicely and its doing my lungs and mental well being the world of good. God I miss getting wrecked with my mates though...