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drug dreams... how long they last?

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My3sons

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I had the mother of all drug dreams last night. My skin is still crawling. It even had my old dead boyfriend in it. He was murdered copping is Asbury a few yrs ago. I went on mmt Nov 4th and just started with the drug dreams the past two weeks. I don't always remember them this clearly but this one really got me. I loaded up the needle, can still picture the perfect amber color, and was ready to shoot but asked myself do you really want to do this, then woke up in a sweat.
Meanwhile, i felt threatened that he was going to take it from me for himself in the dream. He honestly was a pos woman beater that i just couldn't get away from. How long do these nightmares last?
 
These dreams are pretty normal. They will become fewer and farther between the more time you have in recovery. I've been sober for a couple of years and will have the random using dream - it usually happens when I'm under a lot of stress. Try not to let them ruin your day. I say that because I've woken up from them feeling like an absolute failure the next day because the dream was so realistic I thought I actually relapsed lol. On another note, I find it ironic that your deceased ex boyfriend was in your dream. When I have those dreams, my deceased ex is also in mine - those dreams are the only time I ever think of the guy. He died from cancer that was brought on by his using, and watching what he went through gave me the motivation and desire to quit myself. I guess he is the face of my addiction to me lol (he was sadistically abusive when high/drunk).
 
I woke up to another one this am. I am always just about to shoot up and then i wake up. I never actually get to do it in the dreams. Something always holds me up. I did a little research and know it's normal to have them but man they can really get into your head! Yes, the deceased was a real piece of work. I met him right after I got separated and followed him down a path to hell! I dont blame him bc I am a grown woman and own my own shit! I hate when people refuse to hold themselves accountable. I had been married for 10 yrs to a very controling man but a good man! Just got to be to much and i am pretty sure he cheated so i left and went for the polar opposite of the husband! I went a little crazy after being couped up for so many yrs plus i was also dealing with the death of my little brother and making rash decisions. What a mistake it was to be with the deceased. My life spiraled out of control and i lost everything. I did get clean after he was murdered but ended up relapsing. This time i am doing mmt and have to stick to the plan. My ex has a very tight leash on me and monitors my urine tests and will be having me start with hair testing in a few months. So i have no choice but stay clean or lose my kids. Which is not an option! Just wish the dreams would stop!
 
It's going on four years for me and I still get these dreams every so often. I think it was a couple months ago when I was talking to my friend over the phone. She mentioned she was getting ready to go cop. So it was no big surprise that night I had a dream we were going to get high together. But like you, something always happens that prevents it from happening. It puts me in a bad place emotionally sometimes but I try to put it out of my mind. I believe subconsciously, you know you can't do it and it plays out in your dreams. Don't let this make you feel guilty. I promise you it gets better! <3
 
I think it can be lifelong. My mom told me that she still sometimes has dreams about smoking, despite not having had a cigarette for 20+ years
 
I have been having using dreams quite often for the last few months. Cutting back on weed has made them almost unbearable at times. Nothing makes me fien worse than waking up right before I was about to shoot up in one of my dreams.
 
For some odd reason, the only drug dreams I have involve cocaine and despite having a history with the drug in both powder and rock form, it has been YEARS since I've indulged. I was sober for 3 years once and still had the dreams.
 
I've been free from everything for over a year and still have them.
Weirdly for me out of every drug I would take and was addicted to, I only still get dreams about pot.

Rolling up, smoking, being with friends and them passing me a joint. I always wake up for a brief moment feeling happy/nostalgic only to realise it's no more and I become depressed as fuck.

I appreciate sobriety and mentally/emotionally feel alot more stable for it. Though sometimes it can be hard.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Glad to hear that. Using dreams always irk me!
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Good to see you're still around CH :)

Just found my login credentials and figured I'd continue posting, being sober for going on 2 years now :)

As per the dreams, They've greatly reduced, occasionally I still get a dream about booting up but the ''feeling'' etc, that comes along with them really begins to diminish as time goes on. Time really can heal all wounds friend :) Best wishes and a healthy recovery+sober living!

It really does get easier.
 
I had another heroin dream last night. Same kind of dream. I was looking for rigs in my room and it took forever to find a emergency stash I hid long aqo. I finally got everything ready had the needle about to go in and bam I woke up....... Not a great way to start a day.
 
It's been 2.5 years since I had a dope habit.

Strangely I didn't get heroin dreams for the first 3 months off it. But as soon as things started getting stressful IRL the dreams came back, always teasing you and never satisfying the craving, you wake up feeling like shit.

It's best to just dismiss them as dreams, don't play into it.

You have a choice.

The longer you wait between using, the less frequently the dreams occur.

Now if I do find myself desperately searching or coming across smack in a dream, I wake up and it's no big deal - I can get on with my day. It really is a once in a blue moon type thing now that my life is on track and I'm a happier human being. Don't fuse with the dream. You've conditioned yourself to react a certain way when you're unhappy or stressed, that's all that is.

If I dreamt about a friend who passed away, I'm not going to spend all day mourning them - you make a mental note, you have coping mechanisms, and get on with YOU.
 
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