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Bluelighter
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- Oct 26, 2002
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I havent dropped a pill for 5 weeks now. Before that it was about 2 months. To be honest, i dont really have any big plans or any huge expectations for a drug binge either on new years Eve, or Field Day that im going to. I am now moving more to the scene of settleing down with a nice bottle of wine over a nice dinner - at a cool funky club/bar/resturant.
The reason that im posting is because im getting frustrated. Lately I have standing in line or walking past people at pubs and here someone say:
" ....so how many are you taking, you pinging or what???"
its happening everywhere. every tom dick and harry is doing it, and im not sure why im so upset but i am. It used to be something that made me individualistic and something that made me feel different. The ironic thing is that i am almost at the conclusion that im not taking drugs anymore because i dont want to be put in the same category as the average sheep followingn 18 - 22 year old idiot on the streeet. People seem to be more open about it, and the acceptance in the teen to 20 year old bracket (which im in) seems to see it as standard almost.
I almost take pride in saying to someone whos peaking off their tree - ''no mate, i dont take pills."
I can remeber the days where you would struggle to find someone who knew someone who did it. Let alone trying to source them out. Now it seems that everyone you meet either does do pills, or has a friend that does. Whats caused the explosion in social acceptance here?. I do think that the commercial radio stations such as Nova and also 2dayFM, with their increase support of dance music has contributed to this.
Does anyone else feel the same about this. Have i lost the magic that the drug provides, or has the scene just changed? Or is this a natural progession of the scene, whatever that is..or is it that im getting old?
And heres a really difficult question - is there anything wrong with feeling the way i feel about this? I actually almost hate teen pill poppers. I look at them with disgust sometimes, they seem to have little clue about things.
The reason that im posting is because im getting frustrated. Lately I have standing in line or walking past people at pubs and here someone say:
" ....so how many are you taking, you pinging or what???"
its happening everywhere. every tom dick and harry is doing it, and im not sure why im so upset but i am. It used to be something that made me individualistic and something that made me feel different. The ironic thing is that i am almost at the conclusion that im not taking drugs anymore because i dont want to be put in the same category as the average sheep followingn 18 - 22 year old idiot on the streeet. People seem to be more open about it, and the acceptance in the teen to 20 year old bracket (which im in) seems to see it as standard almost.
I almost take pride in saying to someone whos peaking off their tree - ''no mate, i dont take pills."
I can remeber the days where you would struggle to find someone who knew someone who did it. Let alone trying to source them out. Now it seems that everyone you meet either does do pills, or has a friend that does. Whats caused the explosion in social acceptance here?. I do think that the commercial radio stations such as Nova and also 2dayFM, with their increase support of dance music has contributed to this.
Does anyone else feel the same about this. Have i lost the magic that the drug provides, or has the scene just changed? Or is this a natural progession of the scene, whatever that is..or is it that im getting old?
And heres a really difficult question - is there anything wrong with feeling the way i feel about this? I actually almost hate teen pill poppers. I look at them with disgust sometimes, they seem to have little clue about things.