the desperation in us addicts. I had a balloon full of pills I put in my rectum to be proper, as I feared I was going to jail, andi couldn't push it out when I got home, I tried an enema, by squirting 10 full cups of water in my rectum trying to get it out, I sprayed watery shit all over my toilet, the smell was unbearable and not human, so desperate I was picking up my own waste digging through it with my hands to find the balloon..which I did..but it was the most disgusting feeling in the world doing that, and the dirtiest I felt.. I had to sanitize the whole area afterwards..i dropped pills in the toilet plenty of times, I had them on my lip, and it fell in the hole, couldn't dig it out, tried flushing, it flew right past my hand down the drain..this was years ago, now if I drop it in tolet or down sink, I cut my losses.