Doing much better for a change!

I just saw my psychiatrist the other day (the 29th) and he doubled my dose of nortriptyline, and lowered my abilify (which I found out can be worse for bipolar people) down to 5mgs from 10mg, however I just quit it all together because I don't like it. I was also put on Flurazepam (or Dalmane as some call it). It has helped me with sleep incredibly as I'm a horrible insomniac. I usually don't sleep much but this medication makes me want to lay down and try and I have been sleeping since I started using it. Note supposedly 30mgs of flurazepam is equal to 10-15mgs of valium, but I have no idea if this is completely true. I tried taking 60mgs of the flurazepam when I first got it - on top of 4mgs of klonopin and I felt pretty sedated which is odd since I can take 30-50mgs of klonopin alone without feeling a thing Horrible tolerance unfortunately, I've been on benzo's for over 5 years now and I'm only 21 this year, so I started very young. I have GAD and panic attacks though, plus OCD, ADD, and bipolar. So I think I'll be on benzo's the rest of my life like the doctors have told me. Anyway this is a happy post because I'm doing much better than I have been, plus I have stuff to look forward to this week and I'll update on it once I find out what happens. One thing is a personal goal I'm hoping to achieve and the other is I'm waiting to receive my 2c's and new scale! Ahh... I can't wait!

-Andy

 

thanks for your support in the forums, it's greatly appreciated.
shawn

 

Don't speak about needle fixation unless you are serious because it sure seemed conveniently placed where I would see it and take the bait. You will be schooled if I see anymore because I want some real fuckers like me to share vids, etc. I get angry just thinking that you would even come off serious. No vids, no details, and no resoponse to me tells me you're either my troll, or you know better than to bullshit me on this. Skilled, filled, and drtilled, I push into my craving vein so I could unleash the mix up my warm and wet vein. I love opening up for the needle and injection into that penetrated hole feels fuckling sicly good. I love wathcng that shit go inside.

I even like the vein liked and massaged (cunnilingus) after the spike was all up in it. Feels so fucking good. Knowng I just filled that cunt and it's being massaged and licked once it closes. I llve feeling the blood ooze out of that hole, loose and well penetrated. I love feeling the dose spread my fuckin' veins as it moves slolwy.

Just don't fuck aroung with me about this because many have done it and I don't ever fall for that shit. Anyone can say they into the needle, but I expect proof and a way with words that would enhance it. Sucks that een IV users seem so damn ashamed and puss out just because it's taboo. If you prefer the needle, then either accept it or quit the ROA. I have no shame in my game, so I endulge myself in it. Seeing that shot on film is such a turn on because I can only shoot my type of IV use. Raw. I upload just for it to be seen whther or not liked.

 

I get very perverse and twisted on this subject and only wanted tyou to see the real needle user who enjoys taking the needle and pushing off into my body. Feed that mother fucker. Don't worry about responding back. I jave disabled pm's.

 

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