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Doing MDMA on my own tonight?

Suploris

Suploris

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Hi everyone,

First a little bit of background: I'm 24 years old, female, relatively experienced user. Have used MDMA around 7 times now, always with 6 - 8 week breaks. I also have quite a lot of experience using other drugs recreationally.

At the moment it's been one month since I last used MDMA. I am currently working through some issues, mostly to do with confidence and self-esteem, and as we all know MDMA can definitely help with those. I have a lot of free time and a free house currently so I was wondering whether it would be a good idea from a therapeutic perspective to use MDMA on my own tonight. I'm talking about a 50 - 70 mg dose (1/4 or 1/3 of a tested Nintendo pill).

The question is, would it actually be beneficial or will I just spend the whole time wishing there was someone there to share my experiences with?
Secondly, does anyone know how much serotonin is used with a 50-70mg dose of MDMA? Because if for example 80% is used up anyway then there isn't really a point in keeping my dose that low.

Thanks in advance guys!

Edit: forgot to mention my next time doing MDMA will be 3 months from now.
 
Suploris you can't roll on your own!

Its like slaying a majestic unicorn on christmas surrounded by small children :(


Using that small of a dose won't get you in the right mood, we don't do pill IDs here but its good to hear that you tested your pill anyway, 150mg is usually enough for a real nice time, to be honest I think you will not get where you want to be with a dose that small and anything higher you will be wishing that you were surrounded by people and you may fall into a lonely time which you won't enjoy. :(


50mg will not use that much of your serotonin levels so your brain will not fry badly the next day etc, but to put a number on it we simply can't because thats really advanced brain chemistry that THE GOVERNMENT will not fund.


Long story short I say up the dose and get some friends around especially if you have the place to yourself and you aren't going to roll for another 3 months.


PLUR <3
 
Iv rolled on my own indoors and enjoyed it.

You should go for it, if you take that smaller dose, I almost guarantee you'll take some more though as you won't roll too hard.

Sure it's better to be with others, but being by yourself can still be enjoyable.
 
I love it (if i dont have better option i.e with my partner)
watch porn and chatroom/skype
 
a nice mellow solo roll is a really great thing IMO/E, I will usually try to find some recorded live sets from whatever type of music you like, and just listen while smoking pot for a few hours.
 
DJRolling said:
a nice mellow solo roll is a really great thing IMO/E, I will usually try to find some recorded live sets from whatever type of music you like, and just listen while smoking pot for a few hours.
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Live sets can be awesome, even better on acid, you feel like you're there lol
 
Paulo_di_canio said:
Live sets can be awesome, even better on acid, you feel like you're there lol
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yeah it's great, a personal favorite of mine is a really good 2 set show that sound tribe did in florida with a nice light show you can find it on youtube the sound quality is great and it's from the middle of the crowd so you can see people but they aren't in the way.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KjB7yky_gas

there's the first set if anyone is interested is amazing, part two will be listed on the right no doubt.
 
I can't ever do MD by myself, if I was with my SO then sure! but otherwise I need lots of people around in a rave on an ocean of love lol
 
Not everybody likes to watch porn and Skype- she's interested in a therapeutic session more than a chance to take it for recreational reasons. Telling her that her reasons for taking e or her way of doing it won't work is not helpful at all.

OP- I would Google therapeutic sessions on MDMA to see how doctors and psychologists lay it out :) Set and setting of course matter, but in a therapeutic setting maybe just turn the lights down, have a pen and paper and some art supplies if desired, quiet calm music, and skip the over-stimulating stuff we seek out when doing it recreationally. Go in with your specific goal, and maybe write a journal entry about it before dropping. Maybe write down specific questions you'd like to find answers for (Why do I feel so down on myself all the time? Is it possible that these feelings are entirely mine, and that the people around me genuinely enjoy my company? That kind of thing, but personalized to your situation). Low dosing is advised since it's incredibly distracting to take a full dose- sometimes you're just way too high to focus! Start with a low dose and increase it if you feel the need or if you don't cross the threshhold into feeling anything. For the future, I recommend reading Psychedelic Healing by Neil Goldstein, a book on the subject of psychedelics used therapeutically :) Good luck in your journey, I hope you find what you're looking for!
 
Music is a must but a great movie ain't too bad either. The 2 latest Harry Potter movies are awesome when F/U. I really think JK Rowling must have done some LSD at some point. LOL
 
Thanks so much for replying everyone!

I decided not to roll on my own last night. However, now I've seen some great replies concerning more therapeutic sessions of MDMA so i'm planning to roll on my own sometime during the weekend, when I won't have to worry about putting on loud music or whatever when I feel like it.

I agree that MDMA is largely a social drug, but what you sometimes have to remember that the most important person in life is you, and that sometimes it's ok to go through experiences alone.

Will let you know how it was once I've rolled on my own!
 
Hooray Suploris good for you :)

Glad you at least saved your serotonin for a time when you think you really need it/plan on using it for 'me time' thats really great!

Suploris said:
but what you sometimes have to remember that the most important person in life is you, and that sometimes it's ok to go through experiences alone.
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It just got real deep in here hahaha but very happy for you let us know how it goes. <3
 
I haven't rolled by myself, I've had I guess therapeutic sessions on it, that weren't planned for that, it is best in conversation where you and somebody else can dig into it and you surprise yourself at what you are able to come out with. That said I've never found it very introspective so I'd think that rolling solo, without the conversation to provoke it, probably wouldn't do much for you. If I wanted to do what you are wanting to do with MDMA, I'd be reaching for the LSD...
 
If i was going for theraputic in the sence ppl are taking here id go with 2cb
But i find my way quite therpotic too
 
I rolled last week, now I wasn't alone but I was the only one rolling. I was going through some stuff at the time and I found that it really helped me. I noticed after the experience I wasn't nearly as chatty and social as I normally am on MD, I normally run around trying to meet as many people as possible and make new friends, this time I really kept to myself and just thought about what was going on in my life.

I found this to be quite therapeutic and I was in a very strange setting compared to where I normally roll (I was watching a big fireworks show in downtown Vancouver then just walked around with some friends for a good hour or two), so I feel if you did this on your own in a more therapeutic setting or with a really close friend you don't mind telling personal stuff to I'd say go for it.

Hope this helps you. :)

PLUR
 
Thanks Mr MDxx, your experience also helped me. I hope I can open myself to others by the use of MD.

Mr.MDxx said:
I rolled last week, now I wasn't alone but I was the only one rolling. I was going through some stuff at the time and I found that it really helped me. I noticed after the experience I wasn't nearly as chatty and social as I normally am on MD, I normally run around trying to meet as many people as possible and make new friends, this time I really kept to myself and just thought about what was going on in my life.

I found this to be quite therapeutic and I was in a very strange setting compared to where I normally roll (I was watching a big fireworks show in downtown Vancouver then just walked around with some friends for a good hour or two), so I feel if you did this on your own in a more therapeutic setting or with a really close friend you don't mind telling personal stuff to I'd say go for it.

Hope this helps you. :)

PLUR
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The only time I did MDMA was when I was by myself and it went fine, I was probably listening to music for three or four hours straight. Whatever you do don't take to much, that's where I made the mistake and I took eight 100mg pills over 4 days (2 each day), and they were 80% MDMA. I was having panic attacks and depression for about 2 months after, but I would of been fine if I just took one dose, because I was fine up until the last dose and I woke up and that's when it all started.
 
daiki said:
Thanks Mr MDxx, your experience also helped me. I hope I can open myself to others by the use of MD.
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No worries. :)

Just remember this, only invite/do it with people you don't mind telling some secrets too, they might be happy ones or dark ones... Cause I find myself to be sometimes too honest/open on MDMA. :)
 
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