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Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 30, 2006
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25yr old male / 165lbs / 2mg clonazepam daily (anxiety)
previously used: mushrooms, coke, mdma, dxm (current fave), 2ci, 2ct2, 5meoDMT
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3mg DOI oral
[100mg DOI dissolved in 100ml vodka ... put 3ml in my ice tea. nice weekday night cozy with gf. wasn't expecting anything special at 3mg]
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23:45 - dose the 3mgs
01:15 - queasy, rise in pulse, cold shakes. feel like i'm being 'drained'.
02:00 - brutal body load ... ice bath + electric chair. body feels like a shell - totally sapped. pissing like a horse.
02:30 - cramming greasy diner food ... very 'retro' feel ... everything seems schizo and annoying / jarring (ala hunter thompson ... i've never really related to his state of mind before). i'm stuttering and my thought patterns / moods are sporadic. everything is pretty negative and dark.
03:00 - the 'darkness' becomes too overwhelming and i take an mg of clon. i tried to tame the beast but it was honestly kicking my noob ass. there were times when i felt on top, but there were definitely some 'cry for mama' moments too. so i chickened out in the end since i don't want an onslaught of anxiety.
04:45 - the clon allows me to probe a little deeper without freaking out. still getting a serious 'retro' feel ... maybe this is closer to mesc or lsd than anything else i've done, cuz i don't usually feel any connection to old psych stuff (even tho i like it).
06:30 - still shaking. glad i had benzos on hand. whew.
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this was way more than i was prepared for ... i feel thoroughly trounced.
the body load was disgusting ... comparable to the 2cs that i've tried ... jittery and cold x 10! add to this the onset ... so slow and painful like a creeping death ... yech!
unlike the clarity to thought and speech that i found the 2cs to lend, this fragmented my brain and basically turned me into an itchy schizo. i could see the classic psych signs, and kind of felt the warm base of the spine buzz, but this was in no way lovey or hippy. dark and unrelenting ... jagged and scattered. way too ugly for me.
my body was saying: NO (the whole time)
my brain was saying: WAIT (i've almost got control ... *slips away*)
well ... it's going to take some serious practice to ride this one. and the way the body side went, idk if it's worth the effort. but there's something nice about the challenge it presents lol ... so evil.
previously used: mushrooms, coke, mdma, dxm (current fave), 2ci, 2ct2, 5meoDMT
----------
3mg DOI oral
[100mg DOI dissolved in 100ml vodka ... put 3ml in my ice tea. nice weekday night cozy with gf. wasn't expecting anything special at 3mg]
---------
23:45 - dose the 3mgs
01:15 - queasy, rise in pulse, cold shakes. feel like i'm being 'drained'.
02:00 - brutal body load ... ice bath + electric chair. body feels like a shell - totally sapped. pissing like a horse.
02:30 - cramming greasy diner food ... very 'retro' feel ... everything seems schizo and annoying / jarring (ala hunter thompson ... i've never really related to his state of mind before). i'm stuttering and my thought patterns / moods are sporadic. everything is pretty negative and dark.
03:00 - the 'darkness' becomes too overwhelming and i take an mg of clon. i tried to tame the beast but it was honestly kicking my noob ass. there were times when i felt on top, but there were definitely some 'cry for mama' moments too. so i chickened out in the end since i don't want an onslaught of anxiety.
04:45 - the clon allows me to probe a little deeper without freaking out. still getting a serious 'retro' feel ... maybe this is closer to mesc or lsd than anything else i've done, cuz i don't usually feel any connection to old psych stuff (even tho i like it).
06:30 - still shaking. glad i had benzos on hand. whew.
--------
this was way more than i was prepared for ... i feel thoroughly trounced.
the body load was disgusting ... comparable to the 2cs that i've tried ... jittery and cold x 10! add to this the onset ... so slow and painful like a creeping death ... yech!
unlike the clarity to thought and speech that i found the 2cs to lend, this fragmented my brain and basically turned me into an itchy schizo. i could see the classic psych signs, and kind of felt the warm base of the spine buzz, but this was in no way lovey or hippy. dark and unrelenting ... jagged and scattered. way too ugly for me.
my body was saying: NO (the whole time)
my brain was saying: WAIT (i've almost got control ... *slips away*)
well ... it's going to take some serious practice to ride this one. and the way the body side went, idk if it's worth the effort. but there's something nice about the challenge it presents lol ... so evil.

. i haven't had much experience yet tho. my choice was limited due to availability ... but i'd heard good things about DOI and decided to give it a shot.