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Does anybody else find it hard to hold down a job being a drug user

Zopiclone bandit said:
The worst @F.U.B.A.R. was when I worked at a 24/7 garage selling petrol etc.
My mate had cooked some K & I had 2 grams off him, I decided to cut a line just before we locked up & sadly it really kicked in so fast, I knew I was gonna be fucked.

For some reason it hit me so quickly & hard I began to loose track of time etc & felt I may "hole" off it, I had to walk back & began to panic I may not make it & I knew I had to walk with the woman I was working the shift with. I remember locking up with her but everything was going in frames & her talking sounded like "WWWEEEE HHHAAAAVVVEEE TTTOOO LLLOOOCCCKKK UUUUPPPP"

I remember the shutter coming down & the next thing I remember is we are half way into town, we had walked a good 20 mins 7 she was talking to me, I have no idea how i made it into town with her or WTF I had been saying, she was so odd with me for the rest of the months I worked there, still to this day I have NO IDEA what I said or how I behaved as we walked down the street, how I made it that far is a miracle to say the least.

Lesson here is DON'T do Ketamine as you leave work kids, it isn't a good idea.

When I worked for Virgin in a call centre I made friends with a cool guy, he used to do gear years before but got clean, cut a long story short I scored for him & he hadn't used in years, he ended up going on the nod after lunch when we had a smoke, he was sent home as his head was down on the PC & totally out of it.
He also had some Salvia off me as he liked acid, he was so mad at me the next day, his missus rang me up going mad too asking WTF had I given him, he had a full on Salvia breakthrough trip & got way more than he expected, I did try to warn him it was potent but he felt he knew better.
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Haha, dissociatives and work just do not mix.

I used to work in a filling station when I was 17. This place was in the middle of nowhere and consisted of a shed with a few petrol pumps outside. All of the youngsters in the area worked there at some point. We were all taking the fuckin piss. After every shift I went home with 60 fags, an endless supply of munchies and more often than not, a tenner out of the till. Everyone else was also doing the same. I was also selling weed under the counter and the local smackheads used to drop by, fill up and fuck off. Not my problem.

This went on for ages until one day I turned up for work and there was a note saying "you're all sacked".

I filled my boots....
 
You cant be bringing your anger and nastiness to work, then taking lots of sickie too, you're just giving them reason to give you the arse.
the people at work arent your friends, nor are they the enemy; bur you have to be polite and courteous. I'd suggest from there just shut up, use work as place of routine, sobriety and stop taking sickies as managers/ supervisor are told to count and look for patterns.

In regards to the drinking - yeah, I trigger on cheap Grog too, Im borderline Bipolar, - I'd recommend a GPr/ counselling to deal, even if just a means to vent and deal with your depression, as I reckon you are in potential danger of spiralling to a dangerous place.
 
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F.U.B.A.R. said:
Haha, dissociatives and work just do not mix.

I used to work in a filling station when I was 17. This place was in the middle of nowhere and consisted of a shed with a few petrol pumps outside. All of the youngsters in the area worked there at some point. We were all taking the fuckin piss. After every shift I went home with 60 fags, an endless supply of munchies and more often than not, a tenner out of the till. Everyone else was also doing the same. I was also selling weed under the counter and the local smackheads used to drop by, fill up and fuck off. Not my problem.

This went on for ages until one day I turned up for work and there was a note saying "you're all sacked".

I filled my boots....
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Only one time did I sniff ketamine while at work as a dustman.

Just once! Lol.

Going in tripping, eeing nuts, high on skunk and lager was manageable just mentally testing at times.

Being a dustman was so cool though, here back then (1998-2004 on off), as we were mostly free to drink beer all day, smoke skunk solidly.

Music in the lorry.

Fresh morning country air.

Home by 1 pm on a good round, 6.30 start. Paid til 4.30.


Shops are the best places to sell weed all day too lol.
I knew people to do that.

But FUBAR would you believe, knowing what you do of my demographical drug use, I have never smoked, nor once toked on a cigiarette.

Never smoked a roll up even, nor once wished.

I used cannabis without ever touching tobacco 1997-2000 then only for joints 2000-2005, then Lyme made me instantly deathly allergic to tobacco smoke.

Ever since I cannot go into a house where tobacco smoke is in the air. Even fir 5 seconds or one breath.

Outdoors I have to keep a distance.

Until 2005, everywhere I went was smoke. All social places.

No longer visitable.

That alone really changes your life. Add 99% item allergy rate and it's a real Rubiks cube.

I've done so well working through that 17 years on.

But tell me lol, another single "Western" poly drug user, weed smoker, over 300 grams MDMA and prob half g LSD, coke, crack, heroin, v heavy Ketamine use for 2.5 years (3-5 grams uncut weekly in addit to psychedelics) exists who also never once smoked tobacco by itself, on purpose.

I have pronciples. 😂
 
Zopiclone bandit said:
The worst @F.U.B.A.R. was when I worked at a 24/7 garage selling petrol etc.
My mate had cooked some K & I had 2 grams off him, I decided to cut a line just before we locked up & sadly it really kicked in so fast, I knew I was gonna be fucked.

For some reason it hit me so quickly & hard I began to loose track of time etc & felt I may "hole" off it, I had to walk back & began to panic I may not make it & I knew I had to walk with the woman I was working the shift with. I remember locking up with her but everything was going in frames & her talking sounded like "WWWEEEE HHHAAAAVVVEEE TTTOOO LLLOOOCCCKKK UUUUPPPP"

I remember the shutter coming down & the next thing I remember is we are half way into town, we had walked a good 20 mins 7 she was talking to me, I have no idea how i made it into town with her or WTF I had been saying, she was so odd with me for the rest of the months I worked there, still to this day I have NO IDEA what I said or how I behaved as we walked down the street, how I made it that far is a miracle to say the least.

Lesson here is DON'T do Ketamine as you leave work kids, it isn't a good idea.

When I worked for Virgin in a call centre I made friends with a cool guy, he used to do gear years before but got clean, cut a long story short I scored for him & he hadn't used in years, he ended up going on the nod after lunch when we had a smoke, he was sent home as his head was down on the PC & totally out of it.
He also had some Salvia off me as he liked acid, he was so mad at me the next day, his missus rang me up going mad too asking WTF had I given him, he had a full on Salvia breakthrough trip & got way more than he expected, I did try to warn him it was potent but he felt he knew better.
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Yes ket and work, bad combo all round.

I worked at my nearby Tescos too. When I left, Jan 2002, they had rudely reduced my agreed Uni xmas break employment period in a callous way...new (biiiitch) boss.

I was pissed about this. It was underhand but small print permits the bastards.


NYE session on, amazing coke we scored plus big batch Buddha Exstacy pills, except they were MDA though, v strong trippy. Prob 150 mg's up.

I was due 2nd January 6 am.

From NYE I took those pills 11 days straight. 54 total, but so strong ones, 2 for a "night".

Took 11 one day.

I worked 7 full shifts in store in those 11 days.

Never got twigged, and tbh I didn't give a F at the time either.


And yep, Salvia extracts are frightening! You want a padded cell for that shit ideally, nobody else around too for 10 minutes as they often freak out too lol even when you don't.


You cannot remember yourself at all on a strong S extract.
 
AutoTripper said:
Yes ket and work, bad combo all round.

I worked at my nearby Tescos too. When I left, Jan 2002, they had rudely reduced my agreed Uni xmas break employment period in a callous way...new (biiiitch) boss.

I was pissed about this. It was underhand but small print permits the bastards.


NYE session on, amazing coke we scored plus big batch Buddha Exstacy pills, except they were MDA though, v strong trippy. Prob 150 mg's up.

I was due 2nd January 6 am.

From NYE I took those pills 11 days straight. 54 total, but so strong ones, 2 for a "night".

Took 11 one day.

I worked 7 full shifts in store in those 11 days.

Never got twigged, and tbh I didn't give a F at the time either.


And yep, Salvia extracts are frightening! You want a padded cell for that shit ideally, nobody else around too for 10 minutes as they often freak out too lol even when you don't.


You cannot remember yourself at all on a strong S extract.
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Haha... I took those MDA Buddha's. They were going around Florida for a while 2001 or so and were great presses.
 
somnilicious said:
Haha... I took those MDA Buddha's. They were going around Florida for a while and were great presses.
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Good days for Exstacy, MDA 2000-2005.

Better than 96-99, prob a match for early 90's depending ofc.

2000 Winter, sensational Smiley Faces flooded UK.

Just amazing! MDMA.

Ferraris were always special too IME.
 
AutoTripper said:
Good days for Exstacy, MDA 2000-2005.

Better than 96-99, prob a match for early 90's depending ofc.

2000 Winter, sensational Smiley Faces flooded UK.

Just amazing! MDMA.

Ferraris were always special too IME.
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Yep... Had all the smiley colors during that time as well. Never had the Ferrari's.. at least I don't think...lol .. so many other car prints though. My years for MDXX we're 98-2002. My favorites were tan DG's which was Dulce Gavano or whatever but we just called them damn good. Also triple dropped some blue cloud 9's when a cop pulled up on us in a parking lot at 4am while my friend and some girl were looking for a bag of smack she said she dropped. My friend was pretty pissed cause they were his but what did he want me to do?...lol... Puked and proceeded to roll my tits off. One of my best rolls.

I miss the days when you could buy dutch presses for a tenner here in Florida. Now you can't even find MDMA.

In interest of the topic I was serving at a big restaurant chain when the pandemic hit and went to work one day bombed on heroin and Xanax when my manager grabbed me and told me I couldn't work looking like that. I insisted but to no avail. They liked me so much that instead of firing me they put me on leave and I was able to get even more money from unemployment and pandemic assistance than what I was making at work. My manager even gave me a ride home 20mins away...lol. I was apologizing and popping Xanax in the back seat... God I'm glad to be back on methadone.
 
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somnilicious said:
Yep... Had all the smiley colors during that time as well. Never had the Ferrari's.. at least I don't think...lol .. so many other car prints though. My years for MDXX we're 98-2002. My favorites were tan DG's which was Dulce Gavano or whatever but we just called them damn good. Also triple dropped some blue cloud 9's when a cop pulled up on us in a parking lot at 4am while my friend and some girl were looking for a bag of smack she said she dropped. My friend was pretty pissed cause they were his but what did he want me to do?...lol... Puked and proceeded to roll my tits off. One of my best rolls.

I miss the days when you could buy dutch presses for a tenner here in Florida. Now you can't even find MDMA.

In interest of the topic I was serving at a big restaurant chain when the pandemic hit and went to work one day bombed on heroin and Xanax when my manager grabbed me and told me I couldn't work looking like that. I insisted but to no avail. They liked me so much that instead of firing me they put me on leave and I was able to get even more money from unemployment and pandemic assistance than what I was making at work. My manager even gave me a ride home 20mins away...lol. I was apologizing and popping Xanax in the back seat... God I'm glad to be back on methadone.
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Mercedes, Rolls Royce too.

All the Audi "TT's" I ever had disappointed though.

Small, saffrole perfume BB's for Bentley too.

Just incredible exstacy pills.

Blue ones also. Same deal.

I have two Dutch presses which I trust to be about 220 mg each called and shaped like head of Bowser from Mario kart which I am too sensible to take because it would be a sufferance and fight for life probably with how my nervous and immune system is now back then no thinking twice.

Ecstasy in any form or dose could be very dangerous for me now probably fatal.

But also it would take something away from my cognition and memory and the level to which I have developed my language use particularly word recall which is so essential to the overall flow of language.

I bought them because I know how amazing just a single MDMA experience can be for dissolving PTSD but I just don't think it's safe at all.
 
AutoTripper said:
Mercedes, Rolls Royce too.

All the Audi "TT's" I ever had disappointed though.

Small, saffrole perfume BB's for Bentley too.

Just incredible exstacy pills.

Blue ones also. Same deal.

I have two Dutch presses which I trust to be about 220 mg each called and shaped like head of Bowser from Mario kart which I am too sensible to take because it would be a sufferance and fight for life probably with how my nervous and immune system is now back then no thinking twice.

Ecstasy in any form or dose could be very dangerous for me now probably fatal.

But also it would take something away from my cognition and memory and the level to which I have developed my language use particularly word recall which is so essential to the overall flow of language.

I bought them because I know how amazing just a single MDMA experience can be for dissolving PTSD but I just don't think it's safe at all.
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Yeah... I'd like to roll but I wouldn't want to deal with the cognitive decline either. I didn't notice it back then but I'm definitely aware that I have suffered over the years from my prodigious drug use these days. I also said I would never roll again after suffering through several years of LTC that saw me suffering many a daily panic attack amongst all the regular symptoms that one suffers during LTC from ecstacy use. It was horrible and I never want to chance experiencing it again because it changed the trajectory of my life forever. One of the main reasons I began my opiate addiction.
 
You can often get away with most things for some time, but the day of reckoning may be closer for many than one may think. When you are working with other people and have to interact with them routinely, people do pick up on small things. Even things like a subtle slurring of your speech, as minor as it seems, people do pick up on things rather often. And this is not to mention performance related issues when in the throes of a significant drug habit that again, may be collateral damage in the end. And yes...what the job happens to be is relative, of course.

One thing I know for sure is that many drug users are often hyper-vigilant in terms of monitoring their body language, speech, presentation, etc., in an attempt to conceal the fact that they are actively using. And of course this in no secret...
 
somnilicious said:
Yeah... I'd like to roll but I wouldn't want to deal with the cognitive decline either. I didn't notice it back then but I'm definitely aware that I have suffered over the years from my prodigious drug use these days. I also said I would never roll again after suffering through several years of LTC that saw me suffering many a daily panic attack amongst all the regular symptoms that one suffers during LTC from ecstacy use. It was horrible and I never want to chance experiencing it again because it changed the trajectory of my life forever. One of the main reasons I began my opiate addiction.
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My feeling is different there then to your own.

I totally scrapped my brain by 2003 then carried on with an insane quantity of exstacy resulting in a true neurosis and speech disorder for many years I had to totally restructure my mind and thought patterns and retrain my way of using language and speaking it was a very long term thorough project I undertook.

Surprisingly massive use of LSD has been a miraculously helpful tool with this task and over time I have not just restored my ability to speak but pretty much perfected it in terms of easy flow of communication and word selection articulate fluent imaginative expression without any effort or actually even thought or hesitation ever.


It was very distressing and traumatic to experience the drastic change from being one moment perfectly adept with language and communication too being unable to speak a sentence much of the time. Back then.

It really isolated me and was exacerbated heavily when Lyme disease kicked in in 2005 which affects cognition brain anxiety etc as well


Physical allergies overtime became the real problem an unusual case of respiratory mucus preventing my vocal cords from functioning but I have completely overcome this by learning to manage allergies and additional approaches to the physical side of it.


At the same time I have completely revamped the way that I use language specifically speaking to the point where it's like I have installed multiple firewalls run through every possible scenario in a mental practice so that now speaking has become as natural and effortless as riding a bike, So that until the day I die I cannot envisage mean failing to perform what has been made the simplest task ever.

But are used very heavy LSD use proactively and mindfully as well as writing overtime to achieve this work.


The idea I would take one dose of MDMA and instantly notice that I had sacrificed any degree of this level of easy speech and writing ability is enough to determine even if there were no allergy risks.


I feel like I got Scott away from that so I would be mad to sacrifice all I have worked towards since.

LSD never jeopardises this for me more the opposite.
 
AutoTripper said:
My feeling is different there then to your own.

I totally scrapped my brain by 2003 then carried on with an insane quantity of exstacy resulting in a true neurosis and speech disorder for many years I had to totally restructure my mind and thought patterns and retrain my way of using language and speaking it was a very long term thorough project I undertook.

Surprisingly massive use of LSD has been a miraculously helpful tool with this task and over time I have not just restored my ability to speak but pretty much perfected it in terms of easy flow of communication and word selection articulate fluent imaginative expression without any effort or actually even thought or hesitation ever.


It was very distressing and traumatic to experience the drastic change from being one moment perfectly adept with language and communication too being unable to speak a sentence much of the time. Back then.

It really isolated me and was exacerbated heavily when Lyme disease kicked in in 2005 which affects cognition brain anxiety etc as well


Physical allergies overtime became the real problem an unusual case of respiratory mucus preventing my vocal cords from functioning but I have completely overcome this by learning to manage allergies and additional approaches to the physical side of it.


At the same time I have completely revamped the way that I use language specifically speaking to the point where it's like I have installed multiple firewalls run through every possible scenario in a mental practice so that now speaking has become as natural and effortless as riding a bike, So that until the day I die I cannot envisage mean failing to perform what has been made the simplest task ever.

But are used very heavy LSD use proactively and mindfully as well as writing overtime to achieve this work.


The idea I would take one dose of MDMA and instantly notice that I had sacrificed any degree of this level of easy speech and writing ability is enough to determine even if there were no allergy risks.


I feel like I got Scott away from that so I would be mad to sacrifice all I have worked towards since.

LSD never jeopardises this for me more the opposite.
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I really don't see how how we differ so much in feeling. Our stories are remarkably similar minus the Lyme disease. When I say I'd like to roll I really just mean it was nice when it was many moons ago but no longer and when I say I have suffered greatly from my drug use I have recovered with a plum but I notice the negative affects of certain substances much more these days. My substance list a go go is much like your own being LSD, cannabis and kava cept I also depend on methadone and likely maybe always will.
 
I never had a problem finding a job-- especially as a cook. Restaurants tend to have a high turnover rate, so they're always looking for help.

In my extremely heavy drinking days I did have problems keeping a job. I was a maintenance drinker, meaning that if I was awake I was drinking. Never got shit-faced at work, but eventually they'd smell it on me (repeatedly) and I'd be under scrutiny. I usually quit before I got fired. I'd have a new gig in the next day or two.

Opiates/opioids never caused me any problems at work. In fact, I was an exemplary employee: showed up early, high energy, positive attitude....unless (of course) I'd run out. Then I had to call in sick. I'm doing well at work on kratom these days (I don't run out).

My meth addiction was relatively brief, so it didn't affect work much. I'm sure it would have if I'd kept at it.

Never liked cannabis on the job, for one reason only: for me, weed slows down time. When I'm at work, I don't want that.


Work is the curse of the drinking class.
 
I've worked for the same place on and off for years for a family friend... and am lucky that theyre very understanding. I wish I could say I've never turned up to work high but when I've had to have time off for hospital admissions and whatever they've been really cool about it and give me as much time as I need and take me back on again when I'm ready. I've been sacked from other places before though for like having a kip/nodding in the warehouse lol
 
I honestly don't. I don't use drugs the days I work and I limit it to once a week on my days off.

In fact, work minimises my drug use. When all of my clients got covid at the exact same time and I had 2 weeks off work, I ended up binging and overamping one week and using 4 days out of 7 the next week as well.

So actually for me, work keeps me on the straight and narrow and I value it too highly to jeapordise that.
 
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