DOC. SemiExp. Kandy K’s/Psychubus’ 3 Day DOC Trip, Caught on Video Tape (work of art)

[Psychubus]

Crossposted at Lycaeum: http://forums.lycaeum.org/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic&f=6&t=001406

** Because there is a maximum number of images per post, I have split this report into consecutive posts, one after the other. Please scroll all the way down to the bottom to read my innermost private feelings and thoughts on this DOC, and as always, enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: PLEASE DO NOT ATTEMPT ANYTHING THIS PERSON DOES, ONLY THE MESSIAH CAN WALK ON WATER. IF YOU TRY THIS ART FORM, YOU WILL FAIL AND DIE, LOL.

Introduction:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJ-SSErfps0 Introduction to this video series
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sg2g8_LgRzw Overview of busy Roppongi intersection
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdmStesgZ9o　Brief introduction of where I work and where I used to work
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9LolT9R8dg Introduction to Taka’s stand
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXJ6peT31jY Explanation of the chemicals ingested the previous week lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEEUVLfhXPk Funny story about my work as a hostess
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbFpPrUVeYk My tattered image as Roppongi’s #1 worst junkie hostess
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UhPThVmHi_c Dosing DOC in a bank with indifferent people walking by
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1iW-CHEUXos Waiting for after-hours to begin

1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R27oURDB6Y4　I share my UFO experience in January 24, 2006.

The fairy tale begins with 1/24/06
A shooting star collapsing from a supernova stream
In a constellation of blue vein galaxy.
For a brief moment
--The infinite universe.
Puzzle pieces of perception reassess,
Allowing a glimpse of the Red Phoenix in a UFO coalition
Drowning in a retina lake of the moon.
The Eye of the Tiger

2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVYXEBKYHJM A spiritual discussion involving Taka

I meet with Taka for spiritual practice
To show him the art of the I Ching oracle
With heavy concentration, a pulsation drills
In my skull, it's a skill,
As a trio of silver dollars slips from the crevice of my mind
On a floor rotting away from time
An energy forces me backwards,
Pushing me to the brink
Of insanity.

From the corner of Taka’s third eye
He captures a glimmer of Hikari
Like a witch, flying on a broomstick
Accuses me of conducting magic
Friday the 13th, what does it say
To be born on this day?

Occasion for departing words arrives
I can see where your style comes from now--
The Tiger is with you, he sighs.

3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHb7vxtou-4 I Ching psychosis

I Ching Hexagram Number 25 -- Innocence (The Unexpected)
Under heaven thunder rolls:
All things attain the natural state of innocence.
Thus the kings of old,
Rich in virtue, and in harmony with the time,
Fostered and nourished all beings.

"He who departs from innocence, what does he come to? Heaven's will and blessing do not go with his deeds." –Confucius

4. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=71yQcyVqMeU WAHAHHAAHAH! I GOT IT BITCH!

YES
I HAVE THE POWER ON D-O-C

 

[Psychubus]

9. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4gaLZ48iuM Dosing more DOC

I wish I could push back time
And replay that pantomime
Of you and me hooked on misery
What a dream team, when love is free
So free, it liberates the minds of men
What is this music that reminds me
Of the reminiscence of heroin?
Someone out there struggling for one last breath
As you lay there crying, dreaming of death
I stood over you laughing, laughing in bliss
I lost my way in the vortex, laughing in bliss
An eternal kiss from a prince
Granted me deliverance from the pits of this hell
This is not the life I imagined for myself

A red rose grows from a freshly powdered nose
A crown of thorns so that I can be born
Thank you
For giving me my life back

junglefeverbeaver: they put a crown of thorns on his head, and really, its like a metaphor.. that the things that we consider to be fit for the lifestyle of kings, like a crown/riches/jewelry... its not the real treasure. its only going to hurt you spiritually in the long run. so thats why you gotta sacrifice YOURSELF to save the sins of mankind. its why you gotta carry the burden of the world on your shoulders, and re-pay your karmic debts in order to achieve deliverance
junglefeverbeaver: its the meaning of religious sacrifice

10. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CO25DhIjXm0 I am faced with the threat of violence from an ex co-worker

On my quest to another jungle club
I was confronted with a challenge
Jeno and I, a duel to the death
Threatened me with his physical prowess
I bared my fangs and let out a growl
Jut like a tiger on the prowl
Pointed my gun, not imaginary but emissary
And ~*BANG*~
I blast a hole through your gaping skull
So fucking what.
Defense mechanism

It's a mask, a shield, it’s an enigma
That peacocks and butterflies have beautiful fractals in their wings
Both to scare predators and lure partners
It is an oxymoron
That the reality of the psyche mind
Is that everything is borderline

11. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcptl47_eBM The difference between what I do and “real tripping”

Perception itself is a double entendre
Its holds value in being that which is creative
And in being unremittingly observant
Its duo-meaning is the only non-paradox in this life
But maybe everything else is a paradox
Because perception exists.
It all comes back to perspective,
It all comes back
To ego.

12. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0Cxx2N7pps Dosing DOC a 3rd time

I can see it in the kids here
They are slowly becoming crazier and crazier
Kids of today rejecting traditional society values
And realizing a higher spirituality that brings the masses together
There is a war between the youth of today
And the adults of yesterday
Where is all this heading?
Where is all this heading?

13. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyjYSYBF4LA Art of life

It is the youth’s pleasure to deliver the treasure
Songs of sorrow, seeds of tomorrow
And on and on and on…
For life is an endless fractal
Like a flower, its petal spiral
And bloom forever

 

[Psychubus]

14. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hhcl8y9P0c This illusion/delusion fantasy that I am living in

Society
It makes us afraid to be who we really are
To live in this world means
You must pretend to be something you are not
In order to get through the day
Such is the way of human nature
Deception

15. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XgQFj1B15Gk Pointing out the irony of this life

The corporate world reigns its terror
It allows billions of beings to suffer
All in the name of getting ahead.
At what expense did I have to get
This piece of plastic SHIT you call a cellular,
If it meant making countless others suffer?
I pick one up and roar into its ear
"CAN YOU HEAR ME?!?!?!??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!"

16. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw3uubg3DeI Carrying the earth on my shoulders

The key element in schizophrenics
Is that they have opened the doors of perception
And can no longer navigate.
Now, it is our turn to take control.
To maneuver the rules, but barely borderline
To live a day of passion;
Alternative lifestyle.
Like Atlas and the Messiah, we must
Lift the burden of the world on our shoulders.

17. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lWGs2wrpIc Dosing DOC the last time

So, like a wanderer I journeyed aimlessly
From one train stop to the next
Not lost, but seeking the right guidance.
And led by a trickle of the river
I flowed with the masses
From one pit stop to the next
The people guiding my road and way
Place faith in the universe
To bring you back home one day.

I Ching Hexagram Number 2
The Receptive brings about sublime success,
Furthering through the perseverance of a mare.
If the superior man undertakes something and tries to lead,
He goes astray;
But if he follows, he finds guidance.
It is favorable to find friends in the west and south,
To forego friends in the east and north.
Quiet perseverance brings good fortune.

On the battleground
I see the people crying out for help
Caught amidst the struggle
Cause they only got themselves.
--Why didn't I help them?
I should have... reached out.

Tokyo
There’s lots of work to be done in this city
Lots and lots of reverse

 

[Psychubus]

18. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GnvOjo0Idj0 Coinciding events inside a bus

Synchronicity, it’s all too real
When we play a game of chess
And the future begins to unfold
Every piece holds a glimpse
Of a story to be told

I sent a mental signal of help
A telepathic letter from psychic mistress
To blood relative in distress.
If you are picking up these messages
Scratch behind your ear…
Now.
His hand swept to the river of his neck
It was borderline
--Not lost,
But to seek the right guidance.
He is almost at the turning point in his life.

That’s right…
And when you feel that itch...
Claw.

19. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_0aE1iAfTY Schizing out

A deafening erosion of far-away silence
Shatters into hysteric explosion
I am losing everything
In truth.

20. I Ching Question: Where is life going?
Answer: http://www.eclecticenergies.com/iching/consultation.php?lns=888688
HHT
HHT
HHT
TTT
HHT
HHT
The earth's condition is receptive devotion.
Thus the superior man who has breadth of character
Carries the outer world.

Just as there is only one heaven, so too there is only one earth. In the hexagram of heaven the doubling of the trigram implies duration in time, but in the hexagram of earth the doubling connotes the solidity and extension in space by virtue of which the earth is able to carry and preserve all things that live and move on it. The earth in its devotion carries all things, good and evil, without exception. In the same way the superior man gives to his character breadth, purity, and sustaining power, so that he is able both to support and to bear with people and things.

Enthusiasm. It furthers one to install helpers
And to set armies marching.

21. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0q5qCfvfEKo I Ching Question: How stupid can you get/Where is all this stupidity going?
Answer: http://www.eclecticenergies.com/iching/consultation.php?lns=777778
HTT
HTT
HTT
HTT
HTT
HHT
I Ching Hexagram Number 43
Break-through. One must resolutely make the matter known
At the court of the king.
It must be announced truthfully. Danger.
It is necessary to notify one's own city.
It does not further to resort to arms.
It furthers one to undertake something.
Even if only one inferior man is occupying a ruling position in a city, he is able to oppress superior men. Even a single passion still lurking in the heart has power to obscure reason. Passion and reason cannot exist side by side - therefore fight without quarter is necessary if the good is to prevail.
The lake has risen up to heaven:
The image of Break-through.
Thus the superior man
Dispenses riches downward
And refrains from resting on his virtue.
When the water of a lake has risen up to heaven, there is reason to fear a cloudburst. Taking this as a warning, the superior man forestalls a violent collapse. If a man were to pile up riches for himself alone, without considering others, he would certainly experience a collapse. For all gathering is followed by dispersion. Therefore the superior man begins to distribute while he is accumulating. In the same way, in developing his character he takes care not to become hardened in obstinacy but to remain receptive to impressions by help of strict and continuous self-examination.

22. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngdddnTDcB8 Going to the net cafe
junglefeverbeaver: AHAHAHAHAHAHA NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
junglefeverbeaver: I ASKED IT IF IM A WITCH
junglefeverbeaver: LOOK WHAT I GOT, #8
junglefeverbeaver: Holding Together brings good fortune.
Inquire of the oracle once again
Whether you possess sublimity, constancy, and perseverance;
Then there is no blame.
Those who are uncertain gradually join.
Whoever comes too late
Meets with misfortune.
junglefeverbeaver: HHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
junglefeverbeaver: I AHVE THE POWER


scalar: Oh, one of my friends in MD has had severe neurological complications all his and always been on a shit-ton of meds for them and the other day I did an I Ching saying only his name, "Adam." I got hexagram #18... no changing lines. *sigh*
junglefeverbeaver: whats number 18
scalar: I told him about it, and now I think I've hooked him on I Ching.
junglefeverbeaver: AHAHAHAHAHAHAH. "fuck google, i want i ching maps"
scalar: Work on what has been spoiled (Decay).
scalar: I Ching maps would rock so hard.
junglefeverbeaver: lol im dangerous. ive made everybody around me crazy


junglefeverbeaver: i asked the i ching what my strongest personality trait/flaw is. i got 14. possession in great measure. AHAHAHAHAHAH
junglefeverbeaver: I GOTTA THA POWAH


punk1 (2006/05/17 15:03:54): lol i asked the i ching if your going to have your own religion and i got 49. revolution (molting) changing to 17. following


punk1: im going to ask it now if i am supposed to follow your guidance
junglefeverbeaver: HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
junglefeverbeaver: oo tell me what u get
punk1: ok doing it now
punk1: NO
punk1: NOOOOOOO
junglefeverbeaver: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
punk1: no wait holdf opnm
junglefeverbeaver: WHAT
punk1: this isnt real
junglefeverbeaver: HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA
junglefeverbeaver: what did ou get
punk1: wait let me read it first incase its not what i think it is
punk1: 14. Possession in Great Measure
junglefeverbeaver: HAAHAHHHAHHAHAAHHAAHHAHA YOU GOT WHAT I GOT
junglefeverbeaver: I AM A WITCH
junglefeverbeaver: I KNEW IT
punk1: no u r...what the fuck's going on
punk1: im losing my mind
junglefeverbeaver: LOLLLLLLL

23. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIiBt7yO-t8 My life is trash LOL

Junglefeverbeaver: ITS ALL BULLSHIT
Junglefeverbeaver: ITS ALL A FARE
Junglefeverbeaver: FARCE
Junglefeverbeaver: AHHHHHHHHHH AYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYA
Matt Smyth: lol calm down Kas
Matt Smyth: i understand
Junglefeverbeaver: ITS HARD FOR ME TO WHEN ITS ALL IN YOUR FACE HAHAHAHAH
Junglefeverbeaver: THSI IS WHY I LOVE TOKYO
Junglefeverbeaver: ITS MAKING ME CRAZY
Matt Smyth: lol
Junglefeverbeaver: DRIVING ME TO THE BRINK OF INSANITY
Junglefeverbeaver: i fuckign LOVE IT!!!


Junglefeverbeaver: EVEN IF THEY DO BIG FUCKING DEAL
Junglefeverbeaver: I SWEAR TO GOD I DONT CARE
Junglefeverbeaver: IM JUST GONNA TAKE A FUCKING PISS
Orange1: i told matt the prank thing as a fricken joke
Junglefeverbeaver: OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREETS
Junglefeverbeaver: OF TOKYO
Junglefeverbeaver: AHAAHAHHAAHAHHAAHAHAHAAH
Orange1: cuz he borught iut uo
Junglefeverbeaver: IM GONNA DO IT
Orange1: i dindt know about the keywords
Junglefeverbeaver: NO BRB
Junglefeverbeaver: BRB


scalar: You'll read about it when my report is finished, but I called my parents outside of the sento in who the fuck knows where and told them about my exploit.
junglefeverbeaver: LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLll
junglefeverbeaver: AHAHAHAHA WHY
scalar: Because I told them I would be home that morning, and I couldn't come home on the train because of my aura.
junglefeverbeaver: HAHHHHAHAAHAHAHAAHAAHA

24. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7achLLVxTo My cameraman finally decides to say hi, decked out in my eyeliner. HES GOT THE POWER TOO, WAHAHA!

THEEEEEEEEEEEEEE END. Expect another video in a few weeks!

 

[evilacidbaron]

Hey, I'm in Shanghai and know some people in Japan. I tried to pm you but can't cos I'm mostly a lurker and haven't reached "bluelighter" status. But maybe you can pm me. I have an interesting story for you but I'm not going to air it here.

 

[HoffmansApostle]

I know I am new around here and I don't want to purposely piss people off, but this thread looked more like a twelve year old's diary than a report on DOC. I am not here to disrespect your "art", but this is not art. Its a scrap book of some uninspiring, stale poems with (from what I can gather) images taken from other peoples web pages. (Please forgive me if you were the original author of these pictures, as some of them are very interesting and well drawn)
Those video clips are just plain embarrassing to serious psychedelic users though. I don't want to say anymore because I will sound like a cold-hearted old bastard, but those clips are a complete joke and you have a lot of growing up to do.

I am guessing that you are "junglefeverbeaver" in the chat scripts. Amazing, rich, deep thought there, the people you talk to seem like morons as well. PLEASE stop taking drugs. It is immature people like you that ruin it for the rest of us. You're only helping DOC (and closely related substances) to be scheduled even sooner.

(Moderators, not trying to seem aggressive just to start a flame war but it is drug [ab]users like this that make me sad about the scene!)

 

[Psychubus]

^^^^You again?!?! howcome the only people that continually criticize me anymore on the internet are greenlighters who just registered with almost no posts, or people whom I never even heard of? And yet, they seem to know all sorts of info about me, which really gives room for thought…

NOTE TO STALKER: IF YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH ME, JUST TELL ME. YOU DONT HAVE TO CREATE FAKE ALIASES TO ACT LIKE YOU GOT SOME "TEAM" ROOTING FOR YOUR CAUSE. LOL.

this guy who just follows me around for the purpose of digging up and publizing crap about me, simply because they’re too miserable. HAAHAHHAHAHSDFLAKFJS. its too pathetic, really

edit: Furthermore, if you cant see how this creative work is in fact, a more accurate portrayal of how tripping really is INSIDE the mind, you must be new at taking drugs period.

 

[c00kiemonster]

I agree hoffmann and Psychubus STFU, im no greenlighter!

 

[Psychubus]

oh dear

;__________;

i have been pwned

 

[exploding_erotica]

Yes, I am a greenlighter, but I'm not new to drugs. I find your your trip reports and your videos to be a form of self-propaganda. "I have the power" "I am the tiger" do you ever get enough of yourself? You portray yourself as this soon to be leader that's going to have a "following", but the fact is that YOU'RE the follower: a follower of the I Ching. You seem to base your actions and your life around following the answers of the I Ching. Can you not make decisions for yourself? Do forgive me, if I am incorrect. Another question: how is your portrayal more accurate than anyone else's? Just because you've decided to make videos on your so-called trips and adding pictures to your written trip reports, doesn't constitute them as more accurate. As far as we know, you could be a wanna-be actress trying to get exposure.
On a last note, practice what you preach: don't make such quick assumptions about people who are criticizing you. I'm not a stalker nor a greenlighter who might be new at taking drugs.

 

[Psychubus]

Yes, I am a greenlighter, but I'm not new to drugs. I find your your trip reports and your videos to be a form of self-propaganda. "I have the power" "I am the tiger" do you ever get enough of yourself? You portray yourself as this soon to be leader that's going to have a "following", but the fact is that YOU'RE the follower: a follower of the I Ching. You seem to base your actions and your life around following the answers of the I Ching. Can you not make decisions for yourself? Do forgive me, if I am incorrect. Another question: how is your portrayal more accurate than anyone else's? Just because you've decided to make videos on your so-called trips and adding pictures to your written trip reports, doesn't constitute them as more accurate. As far as we know, you could be a wanna-be actress trying to get exposure.
On a last note, practice what you preach: don't make such quick assumptions about people who are criticizing you. I'm not a stalker nor a greenlighter who might be new at taking drugs.

AHAHAHAHAHA, whats funny is that i was referring to hoffman, yet you came back and replied to me as exploding erotica, a name i just accused you of being today. Case and point. STOP FOLLOWING ME AROUND MAT

 

[exploding_erotica]

And I was referring to your response to Hoffman. As you see, Hoffman and I are both online at the same time, so I don't see how we can be the same person.

Are you so vain thinking that only a stalker would be criticizing you or that there is actually more than one person that dislikes your usage of posts to advertise yourself?

 

[Splatt]

I'm not following you around. Dont flatter yourself.
I think you're just in denial because you got negative feedback on something you worked on for so long. Why the fuck would I bother. Get a grip.. please.

I don't have anything to do with you anymore.

 

[Hypnic_JerK]

For me one of the best moments in tripping is when I see or hear something that rings true across multiple planes of existance and from all points of view and it is just like a shining moment of oneness. There are times when I say and do things outside myself that are real and came not from the little me, but from the cosmic consciousness within.

I got that feeling when you threw the ching on "can I get any more stupid"

I mean, that was just perfect- I know you were joking but it rings true- why else would you have asked that question, high on DOC, in a public bank, to a fortune telling device. It is a joke made outside yourself for a cosmic audience.

It seems clear to me that you have plumbed the depths of inner truth, found all there is to find, and maybe too quick because you're still so desperate in the search for more.
You reside in a bank getting high when you could step up into the "real world" and start enjoying the fruits of life in sync with society.

I dont mean anything mean by this I am just putting it how i see it. Its like, when you're taking DOC as an after work calm-me-down do you realy need to get any more enlightened? Is it maybe time to look within for happiness and contentedness? Do you think that maybe holding down a normal life is the type of meditation you need? Is the pain of love and life, growth and decay the real trip you're looking for?

 

[Psychubus]

Ah, thanks yeah, I only started in the bank because its right outside of where Takas stand is, its where I always hang out on the weekdays after I finish work. I tried to take more outside in the city where you can actually SEE tokyo, but there is too much outside noise and you actually cant hear a word of what I am saying. I will try again though.

As for what I am currently doing with life, the way I see it, I'm still young, so I should be able to step into borderline boundaries, so I can distinguish what the mistakes are and learn from it. Many people actually get lost when they acquire power in society and dont use it wisely, and they end up just becoming one of the masses. But this happens because they have no experience in life, thus they are too easily influenced by money, possessions, sex, or other material pleasures. It takes somebody of very strong will and character to do anything positive for society, and the way to do that is to actually practice all you can until you learn to control it.

 

[HoffmansApostle]

I am definitely, without question not a stalker, and even if I was I would find someone who isn't a kid to stalk.

 

[Psychubus]

okay, so quit bothering me already. lmao.

 

[exploding_erotica]

Do I not get a response?
Or you accusing me to be someone else your way of evading my questions?

 

[Psychubus]

I'm actually avoiding your questions because I can clearly see you're a troll who wants to try and spam up my thread. But in fact, I am quite flattered that you spend so much effort on me, lol. You keep me in your heart, baby.

 

[Blowmonkey]

I'm actually avoiding your questions because I can clearly see you're a troll

Pot calling the kettle black. 8) Stop polluting this forum with your inane crap.