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I consumed 3mg of this stuff last week, dissolved in 3ml cheap vodka. I dosed at 9:00 AM in the morning. I had fasted since about 8:00 PM the night before. I was at home alone, well, with my dogs. My wife was at work she got home later on.
After dosing I proceeded to get some work done around the house. This sort of thing is common for me, especially on slower hitting psychedelics. I don't like to sit around and get my self all tensed up anticipating my trip, so I usually try to get something productive done until the drug hits. By 10:00 AM I was definitely feeling effects. Colors were very heightened and my concentration/focus was off at bit.
By 10:30 it was getting to be too much to get work done, so I decided to smoke a bowl, put some music on lay back for a while. The dogs layed next to me and wanted attention but I wasn't going to give them much attention. I was more into just laying back and enjoying the build up of the visuals. They were respectful of this.
Around noon the visuals were fully developed, and quite nice. Mentally however, I was only around a ++, and it didn't seem very deep at all. I pretty much felt like my usual self, like my ego was 100% intact, except that my mind was definetly racing in weird ways. For comparison, just 12mg of 2c-e or a low dose of cacti would get me thinking deeply or seriously about something, i.e. about some shit in my life, at least a little bit. But so far 3mg of DOC hadn't really gotten me thinking deeply or seriously about anything at all. At this point figured I just needed more time to come up.
There was a lot of stimulation and was getting restless so I left the house around 12:30 or so and went for a walk. It could not have been better weather, no clouds at all in the sky, temperatures in the upper 60's. I walked to a park, meditated in some secluded spots. All in all I was out for about 4 hours. The visuals remained strong for the entire period, though it was hard for them to compete with the very bright sunlight. The mental effects never really came on like I was hoping for though. I felt mostly like my usual self, there was no introspection, no self-analysis, nor any sort of really deep thought, and I never got to more than ++. There was during a few moments something in the head space remniscant of a DOM trip I had a long long time ago, that quite frankly made me feel like I could have been on the edge of something fierce and powerful, but whatever it was it never manifested. I don't know if it was just my mind latching on to a powerful memory or whether there was some real potential there. Over all I was dissapointed in the effects, but figured a higher dose would have to be tried in the future. I reminded my self starting with a lower dose of a research chemical is the wiser thing to do.
The walking did help with the stimulating effects, and while meditating I was quite able to relax my body very deeply. I had serious cotton mouth during the entire trip though, and couldn't seem to keep my self hydrated. The more fluid I drank, the more I peed. I also had no appetite all day. When I got I home from the walk, around 3:30, I smoked another bowl. The visual and mental effects were fading.
My wife got home around 6:30 PM. Conversation with her was minimally affected by drug, as I pretty much felt like my self. The stimulation was still going strong, and while I could relax my body if I wanted to, I really didn't enjoy constantly having to do so. Around 9:30 PM I at some fruit, and didn't find it easy to eat at all. My appetite was still very suppressed, despite that I could feel my body begging for food energy. I never got this sort of appetite suppression from any of the 2c's.
Sleep came at about 3:00 AM. Mild after affects the next day.
I don't know what to say. Perhaps there is some 'break through' with this substance that I need to reach that I will find at a higher dose. If not, or if its too hard on my body at that dose, this stuff will likely end up in my reject pile. I don't expect psychedelic phenethylamines to smash my ego like shrooms or LSD might, but I at least expect them to get me caught up in some sort of introspection and self-analysis. 3mg of DOC didn't even do that.
After dosing I proceeded to get some work done around the house. This sort of thing is common for me, especially on slower hitting psychedelics. I don't like to sit around and get my self all tensed up anticipating my trip, so I usually try to get something productive done until the drug hits. By 10:00 AM I was definitely feeling effects. Colors were very heightened and my concentration/focus was off at bit.
By 10:30 it was getting to be too much to get work done, so I decided to smoke a bowl, put some music on lay back for a while. The dogs layed next to me and wanted attention but I wasn't going to give them much attention. I was more into just laying back and enjoying the build up of the visuals. They were respectful of this.
Around noon the visuals were fully developed, and quite nice. Mentally however, I was only around a ++, and it didn't seem very deep at all. I pretty much felt like my usual self, like my ego was 100% intact, except that my mind was definetly racing in weird ways. For comparison, just 12mg of 2c-e or a low dose of cacti would get me thinking deeply or seriously about something, i.e. about some shit in my life, at least a little bit. But so far 3mg of DOC hadn't really gotten me thinking deeply or seriously about anything at all. At this point figured I just needed more time to come up.
There was a lot of stimulation and was getting restless so I left the house around 12:30 or so and went for a walk. It could not have been better weather, no clouds at all in the sky, temperatures in the upper 60's. I walked to a park, meditated in some secluded spots. All in all I was out for about 4 hours. The visuals remained strong for the entire period, though it was hard for them to compete with the very bright sunlight. The mental effects never really came on like I was hoping for though. I felt mostly like my usual self, there was no introspection, no self-analysis, nor any sort of really deep thought, and I never got to more than ++. There was during a few moments something in the head space remniscant of a DOM trip I had a long long time ago, that quite frankly made me feel like I could have been on the edge of something fierce and powerful, but whatever it was it never manifested. I don't know if it was just my mind latching on to a powerful memory or whether there was some real potential there. Over all I was dissapointed in the effects, but figured a higher dose would have to be tried in the future. I reminded my self starting with a lower dose of a research chemical is the wiser thing to do.
The walking did help with the stimulating effects, and while meditating I was quite able to relax my body very deeply. I had serious cotton mouth during the entire trip though, and couldn't seem to keep my self hydrated. The more fluid I drank, the more I peed. I also had no appetite all day. When I got I home from the walk, around 3:30, I smoked another bowl. The visual and mental effects were fading.
My wife got home around 6:30 PM. Conversation with her was minimally affected by drug, as I pretty much felt like my self. The stimulation was still going strong, and while I could relax my body if I wanted to, I really didn't enjoy constantly having to do so. Around 9:30 PM I at some fruit, and didn't find it easy to eat at all. My appetite was still very suppressed, despite that I could feel my body begging for food energy. I never got this sort of appetite suppression from any of the 2c's.
Sleep came at about 3:00 AM. Mild after affects the next day.
I don't know what to say. Perhaps there is some 'break through' with this substance that I need to reach that I will find at a higher dose. If not, or if its too hard on my body at that dose, this stuff will likely end up in my reject pile. I don't expect psychedelic phenethylamines to smash my ego like shrooms or LSD might, but I at least expect them to get me caught up in some sort of introspection and self-analysis. 3mg of DOC didn't even do that.
Namaste