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Do you regret taking drugs?

I don't not-regret taking drugs, especially the heavy stuff. I've had many opportunities to see the death & degradation they leave in their wake—if I've survived this many years of addiction more-or-less unscathed, it's mostly down to luck & circumstance, I know. And, after all, strung-out is really no way to live, even if you do manage to meet the bare minimum required to be "functional."

At the same time, I can't really look back on my life & say "Jeez, if only I hadn't been 'peer-pressured' into trying _____ ! Then addiction would never have been able to 'hijack my brain' and I would've lived happily-ever-after...!" I'd been interested in drugs as long as I can remember & I always loved to escape my mind by plunging into sensation, so it felt kind of natural to start them.

Of course, I fully believed at the beginning that I was too smart/disciplined/etc. to get fully addicted.... I mean— it is all a function of willpower at some level, isn't it? So why wouldn't you be able to keep from getting addicted if your willpower's been decent in the past? No "disease model" of addiction can deny the role of free will in shaping our choices... but somehow it's still so tricky.

My current dealer was a major heroin/crack addict before his last prison term. He smoked up all his profits in about 18 months & ended up in a desperate state, living in his unregistered car without a driver's license or "papers" of any kind. Eventually, the police got him on a buy/bust and he ended up serving 3+ years in the BOP & then being deported to Tijuana on an ICE cargo jet.

Sure enough, he crossed the border in no time & headed straight up the coast for Seattle, back to rebuild his small business where the government left off destroying it. He's been dealing almost 5 years since then, but amazingly enough, he never went back to smoking heroin—even though he's got ounces of tar on him 24/7..! If that's not a testament to human will, I don't know what is....
 
I regret banging speed. I have touched neither speed nor needles for 30 years, but still suffer the fallout. I have had anxiety and depression issues and I am still suffering with confidence issues (prior to using speed in this way, I was a very confident person and was starting out as an actor). I also have severe insomnia and fibromyalgia, which I also attribute to injecting speed for a few years.

Funnily enough, I was later addicted to heroin, but do not feel that it damaged me in the same way.
 
I regret stayin on my dexedrine script - i really do. I wish i hadn't ever got hooked onto this amphetamine daeth-toll.

Everything else was kosher as fuck. I was fantasising about marijuana & LSD 2 years before i could get hands on it. (and without those ingredients i never woulda found techno, rasta, ambient music, noise music. All that good shit)

So it's a moot question in my life. I was borned for LSD like i was 2 horned.
 
I only regret taking the prescribed ones....usually of the psyche variety.

Everything else was an experience or it improved my life or being in some way or manner. Even if it was just hedonistic fun.
The drug war however has impacted my life for sure.


I don't miss drinking. I can't say I regret that I ever was an alcoholic cause I had some fun and interesting times back then too, but I regret how idiotic I could be on alcohol, which is why I prefer anything else over it now.
 
DeathIndustrial88 said:
I only regret taking the prescribed ones....usually of the psyche variety.

Everything else was an experience or it improved my life or being in some way or manner. Even if it was just hedonistic fun.
The drug war however has impacted my life for sure.


I don't miss drinking. I can't say I regret that I ever was an alcoholic cause I had some fun and interesting times back then too, but I regret how idiotic I could be on alcohol, which is why I prefer anything else over it now.
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Drug War impacted your life?? Have some sugar, youre delirious!! :p
 
There's no point to regret.What done is done.Life goes on(for now).Yes,if this bitter cup could pass me,than my life would be different,but is no point to regret.I have quitt many times....so it is possible to quitt again and never turn back....to take once-twice a year some mushrooms and ocassionaly smoke some weed.I hope that this day will come.Life is struggle-with or without drugs
 
I wish I never tried any drugs whatsoever including alcohol and weed. I like many here have no off switch and quickly fell in love and wanted to try all drugs, which I subsequently did and of course led to problems

But the single worst and most damaging drugs were dissocisitives (mxe and K) becauze they caused me organ damage. I regret them more than crack or IV heroin.
 
Some of em, not all. For example this horrible, nasty as fk DXM syrup that made me puke everytime I tried it. Also, iv cocaine was a pandoras box I shud have never opened. Some supposedly acid tabs that were clearly nbome that made me bad trip real bad. Apart from that, nay. It's all good with the rest.
 
I wish to God I could go back to the first time I tried slamming and take it back. I read so many comments saying not to do it, but I was so sure I could control it, the way I kept everything else under control. But like all the comments said, it sucked me in to a spiral that I can't get out of. I also regret starting methadone. I should have tapered myself off because the methadone dependence is so much worse than the opiates.
And absolutely, if I could get off everything without any negative effects I would do it in a heartbeat.
 
msgabber said:
I wish to God I could go back to the first time I tried slamming and take it back. I read so many comments saying not to do it, but I was so sure I could control it, the way I kept everything else under control. But like all the comments said, it sucked me in to a spiral that I can't get out of. I also regret starting methadone. I should have tapered myself off because the methadone dependence is so much worse than the opiates.
And absolutely, if I could get off everything without any negative effects I would do it in a heartbeat.
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U just scared the shit out of me. I'm on methadone for the first time now. Been on it for 1 year. I have a dependence of only 2.5 mg per day but I have been trying to get off it for about 6 months and can see it's going to be hard.
 
Booze. I am totally clean now hope for the life of me I don't pick up or else if I am honest life will get shittier here quicker than I can imagine.

Someone as damaged as me who started as young just seems to live better without any drugs I guess including reefer. No medical condition here that is calling for it thankfully.

I can't even take psychedelics right today so I shouldn't try.

Doesn't get me down I have fun plans just still dealing with the aftermath of my narcotic use mostly including ethanol.

Psychs never tore down my life like other drugs though but with a psyche like mine they aren't safe really.
 
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I regret taking them so young not having a fully developed decision maker upstairs in the noggin I guess.

Brain never got a fair chance to use any responsibly.

If I take some again in my right mind it will be psychedelics for sure but I fear slipping into cannabis and alcohol on them and having a less than therapeutic lapse which would be entirely my alcoholic fault if that happens.

I do want to take a psychedelic soon honestly but I cannot think I can do it without only sourcing like one tab or a small, small amount at a time not safe to have much at all in my possession I have scarily come to learn against my better judgment and research.
 
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