I think there is something inherently addicting about these NDMA dissociatives, DXM was my first hallucinogen, and I was still in high school, but I would do a 2nd plat/3rd plat trip every other night for...a month and a half? I hated my life and it was the ultimate escape. Who gives a fuck what my parents or teachers though when I can fly to saturn and form creatures out of it's gases and watch them fight and evolve?
I just received 1g of MXE, and I could feel the addictive potential. I kept thinking during my trial run of it "This is like DXM, but no nausea. This might be my personal crack, I cannot believe how I feel, it has been years, I am utterly swept away" and I could, I could let myself be swept away in a river of MXE but I know how much of a terrible idea that is. Abusing dissociatives has always took the worst toll on my body, but not mind. I'm 6'1" and when I was binging on DXM, I weighed 120lbs, and was vomiting multiple times daily.
I still however love dissociatives, with all my mind.