fruitsmoothie
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(not sure if right forum, the post may be a bit chaotic and my english is a bit weird at times, sorry ;p)
Been talking to doctor google for days and seems like I'm textbook schizotypal ;/ although hopefully mild
Seeing my GP on wednesday, this is a list of symptoms+notes I made:
- can't form a new relationship - my interpersonal skills are fail; I've few friends left and I just recently realized I haven't really made any new ones since high school that I'm still in contact with (i'm 31); I did meet some really great people during last few years, but I feel so out of sync with everybody I simply withdraw from social contact and slowly disappear from people's lives
- "Incorrect interpretations of events. Individuals with schizotypal personality disorder often have difficulty seeing the correct cause and effect of situations and how they affect others. For instance, the schizotypal may misread a simple non-verbal communication cue, such as a frown, as someone being displeased with them, when in reality it may have nothing to do with them." ---> this happens all the time, one innocent gesture from someone can set off a train of paranoid thoughts in my head
- social anxiety - I can interact with people when necessary but I generally avoid it; knowing people better doesn't seem to help much, I'm still anxious/akward talking to them; it is a little better when there's just me and them, but as long as there's anyone around - no way
- ruminating - replaying some old arguments with people (or even making them up), thinking about unpleasant events from the past that have no bearing on any current events in my life - it happens a lot and all it does is make me angry (at basically nothing) with clenched fist/jaw and shit
- i can't have an ongoing conversation with ANYBODY but my closest friends, i get 'bored' and uncomfortable after a couple of minutes tops.
- i am generally considered a weird-ass (i actually believe this is good, but not when you are a nutcase at the same time ;p)
- i drift from one aimless activity to another
symptoms i've seen mentioned that I might not be having:
- weird clothes - this is mentioned everywhere, not sure about this one; i like fancy colors (red, bright blue/yellow) and I like mixing styles so maybe i do dress peculiar? dunno
- odd beliefs or magical thinking - not sure here either; i do sometimes have this feeling that a mysterious force is responsible for an event (especially on MXE ;p) but I am not really pre-occupied with anything supernatural
I also suffer from some depression/general anxiety symptoms (which according to google, is not uncommon in schizotypals):
anxiety
irritability (really bad)
apathy, fatigue->lack of concentration (same)
decreased level of activity
guilt
nausea (EVERY morning)
early waking (EVERY morning)
insomnia (major, I sleep well one night a week tops)
suicidal thoughts (every so often, i shake'em quickly though)
excessive sweating (for no reason)
So what do you think? If you have schizotypal personality disorder please reveal yourself ;p anything you can share/add/comment on is appreciated.
thanx
Been talking to doctor google for days and seems like I'm textbook schizotypal ;/ although hopefully mild
Seeing my GP on wednesday, this is a list of symptoms+notes I made:
- can't form a new relationship - my interpersonal skills are fail; I've few friends left and I just recently realized I haven't really made any new ones since high school that I'm still in contact with (i'm 31); I did meet some really great people during last few years, but I feel so out of sync with everybody I simply withdraw from social contact and slowly disappear from people's lives
- "Incorrect interpretations of events. Individuals with schizotypal personality disorder often have difficulty seeing the correct cause and effect of situations and how they affect others. For instance, the schizotypal may misread a simple non-verbal communication cue, such as a frown, as someone being displeased with them, when in reality it may have nothing to do with them." ---> this happens all the time, one innocent gesture from someone can set off a train of paranoid thoughts in my head
- social anxiety - I can interact with people when necessary but I generally avoid it; knowing people better doesn't seem to help much, I'm still anxious/akward talking to them; it is a little better when there's just me and them, but as long as there's anyone around - no way
- ruminating - replaying some old arguments with people (or even making them up), thinking about unpleasant events from the past that have no bearing on any current events in my life - it happens a lot and all it does is make me angry (at basically nothing) with clenched fist/jaw and shit
- i can't have an ongoing conversation with ANYBODY but my closest friends, i get 'bored' and uncomfortable after a couple of minutes tops.
- i am generally considered a weird-ass (i actually believe this is good, but not when you are a nutcase at the same time ;p)
- i drift from one aimless activity to another
symptoms i've seen mentioned that I might not be having:
- weird clothes - this is mentioned everywhere, not sure about this one; i like fancy colors (red, bright blue/yellow) and I like mixing styles so maybe i do dress peculiar? dunno
- odd beliefs or magical thinking - not sure here either; i do sometimes have this feeling that a mysterious force is responsible for an event (especially on MXE ;p) but I am not really pre-occupied with anything supernatural
I also suffer from some depression/general anxiety symptoms (which according to google, is not uncommon in schizotypals):
anxiety
irritability (really bad)
apathy, fatigue->lack of concentration (same)
decreased level of activity
guilt
nausea (EVERY morning)
early waking (EVERY morning)
insomnia (major, I sleep well one night a week tops)
suicidal thoughts (every so often, i shake'em quickly though)
excessive sweating (for no reason)
So what do you think? If you have schizotypal personality disorder please reveal yourself ;p anything you can share/add/comment on is appreciated.
thanx
