Si-kadelic
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Dec 1, 2014
- Messages
- 11
I don't remember the lift off stage, there was a lack of fractals and geometry at the start. I remember being floating totally disconnected from my body, in another realm, space and time were infinite and we're bending beyond what I knew as possible. I remember an overwhelming sense of dread and fear. There was a pervasive feeling of pure evil all around me. I recall thinking that I wanted this to end, I wanted it to just stop. I instantly knew this was not going to happen anytime soon. I felt a sense of acceptance over my destiny and gave into the feeling. I was catapulted through a realm of serpents and reptiles, the snakes were everywhere. They were trying to tempt me to follow them them into a dark, pure black abyss. They kept changing form to try tempt me with them, one nanosecond they were seductive, there was something almost sexual going on but I wasn't reciprocative to this and this seemed to anger the serpents and they took on a more frightening form, then back to seductive, then scary again, this happened many times in milliseconds!
I felt I was lost inside the journey, like I would never find my way out alone and would have to follow the serpents or be stuck where I was forever. At this point I had a memory from my first DMT trip, it was to follow the light. I then sensed myself being escorted / guided through this stage by 3, what I can only describe as guardians, one on either shoulder and one out in front.
The lead guardian was telling me to follow her. She felt female, the 2 at my sides felt male (I think). They were pleased to see me again, I don't know how it was a feeling of again but they definately knew who I was and they were frantically communicating this to me. The 2 male entities were trying to calm me, reassure me that it was all ok, not to be frightened, release myself, lose my ego and surrender to them, trust them!
All the time this was happening, there was "something" happening over to my right, a pure black vortex. At the entrance to the vortex, there was "creatures" that were reptilian in form. I felt a sense of pure evil from them but the vortex looked alluring for some reason. I had to remind myself of loved ones to remain focused and not be drawn in. Then the lead female guardian started communicating with the creatures. She was telling them to go easy on me, they felt mischeivous yet malevolent. It was like they were playing a game with me, almost as if it was part of a test. The creatures were so excited by all this, frenzied, chattering amongst themselves, they seemed amused by their game. The lead guardian told them I wasn't ready, that I had a light within me. I felt like she said I was a good spirit, the creatures seemed angry then that they couldn't play their game. I culdn't help feeling that if I went with the creatures into the black abyss, that it would be a one way trip. There would be no return from that realm. It was scary as hell. Then me and the guardians seemed to progress a little further away from the abyss and the creatures. It was a feeling of leaving that dimension / level and moving onto the next one. I could still see the last one but I was definately progressing to somewhere else.
The next stage was without doubt the weirdest shit I've ever experienced. I was floating upright in infinite space, galaxies looked tiny, they were everywhere all around me but I never seemed able to look behind me. Only forwards and the periphery of my side vision. The guardians at my side were still there but not visible but I could feel them comforting me, reassuring me yet again, that the goal was within reach, the knowledge was almost about to be bestowed on me. The female lead guardian has either gone or transformed into a reptillian form. The reptile was definately female, it appeared right at the side of what felt like my face but I was no longer me, I was something else. The reptile then leaped inside of my consciousness / soul / spirit, whatever you want to call it. It could feel it inside me, searching my psyche to see if I was pure enough for what was to come. This was a terrifying feeling, it was inside and beside me at the same time. It kept trying to scare me outwardly and checking me out inwardly to sense my reaction. It was like if I let my ego get involved, I would have been even more scared. I had to release my ego, leave it behind me, expel it from my consciousness as it felt like totally un-needed, baggage that would restrict me. The reptile could be felt in every part of my spirit. The strangest yet most familar feeling ever. I knew it was a test. That to attain more enlightment I needed to convince this reptilian gatekeeper / guardian. There was a dialog between the reptilian and my guardians, then an agreement. I remember feeling relieved.
Then I was travelling forwards at warp speed through never eneding lines of mathematical code, sacred geometry and pure knowledge from higher beings. This was the first time on the journey that I started to feel at ease, wasn't scared. I think there was lot of guardians / guides with me now. They were super excited, I mean unbelievably excited, that I was back here in this place I didn't know I'd been before. The code was relentless, I had an understanding of it being the key to life, the universe, everything, I instantly understood how ancient civilisations built structures way beyond their capabilites. That were are most definately not alone in these universies. That we are alone being, death equals life, everything is cyclic, it was all a memory I didn't even know I knew.
I was then in what I can only describe as an Egyptian grand hall of knowledge, I was flanked by 2 figures with jackal like heads, like the god Anubis, there was also another figure in the room somewhere but I couldn't pinpoint it, only fleating glimpses, it seemed like Osiris or Horus. I was shown tablets that contained secrets. I knew that I understood them but that also they were beyond my comprehension. This sense of duality was ever present during my journey. I was in this hall for quite a while and the entities that joined me there seemed pleased. They communicated that they were pleased I'd come back, they hoped to see me again soon.
Then I was back with my guardians, we were flying thru the most lush, green vegetation I've ever seen. The speed was immense, almost frightening, it was very disorientating, made me feel nauseous. The lead guardian was encouraging me to fly with them, that we were safe, surrender and enjoy the ride. I did! We flew around what I'd describe as an Aztec / Mayan / Inca type temple, it was huge! I've been to Angkor Wat in Cambodia, it made it feel like a postage stamp in size. The place I was in was inhabited but I didn't see its inhabitants, only signs of their life there, fires burning etc. We flew around the site for a good while, the guardians were saying to me, " Look! Don't you remember, don't you recognise this place?". Somehow it felt like home. They knew it did and they kept repeating to me that this was part of me, of us. Then I remember a feeling of it being about to end. They knew it too. There wasn't a feeling of regret about leaving, to be honest I was looking forward to feeling "normal" again. Can you ever feel normal again after this kind of experience. They were chattering excitedly again, they seemed happy that I'd made this far, they let me know I would be shown more next time but warned me about the others in the spirit world, they told me to always follw the light, never to be scared, it's just a ride! Then I remember them waving as they faded, they were saying goodbye.....but only for now!
I was completely gone for 15 mins this journey. Way longer than my first time.
I felt I was lost inside the journey, like I would never find my way out alone and would have to follow the serpents or be stuck where I was forever. At this point I had a memory from my first DMT trip, it was to follow the light. I then sensed myself being escorted / guided through this stage by 3, what I can only describe as guardians, one on either shoulder and one out in front.
The lead guardian was telling me to follow her. She felt female, the 2 at my sides felt male (I think). They were pleased to see me again, I don't know how it was a feeling of again but they definately knew who I was and they were frantically communicating this to me. The 2 male entities were trying to calm me, reassure me that it was all ok, not to be frightened, release myself, lose my ego and surrender to them, trust them!
All the time this was happening, there was "something" happening over to my right, a pure black vortex. At the entrance to the vortex, there was "creatures" that were reptilian in form. I felt a sense of pure evil from them but the vortex looked alluring for some reason. I had to remind myself of loved ones to remain focused and not be drawn in. Then the lead female guardian started communicating with the creatures. She was telling them to go easy on me, they felt mischeivous yet malevolent. It was like they were playing a game with me, almost as if it was part of a test. The creatures were so excited by all this, frenzied, chattering amongst themselves, they seemed amused by their game. The lead guardian told them I wasn't ready, that I had a light within me. I felt like she said I was a good spirit, the creatures seemed angry then that they couldn't play their game. I culdn't help feeling that if I went with the creatures into the black abyss, that it would be a one way trip. There would be no return from that realm. It was scary as hell. Then me and the guardians seemed to progress a little further away from the abyss and the creatures. It was a feeling of leaving that dimension / level and moving onto the next one. I could still see the last one but I was definately progressing to somewhere else.
The next stage was without doubt the weirdest shit I've ever experienced. I was floating upright in infinite space, galaxies looked tiny, they were everywhere all around me but I never seemed able to look behind me. Only forwards and the periphery of my side vision. The guardians at my side were still there but not visible but I could feel them comforting me, reassuring me yet again, that the goal was within reach, the knowledge was almost about to be bestowed on me. The female lead guardian has either gone or transformed into a reptillian form. The reptile was definately female, it appeared right at the side of what felt like my face but I was no longer me, I was something else. The reptile then leaped inside of my consciousness / soul / spirit, whatever you want to call it. It could feel it inside me, searching my psyche to see if I was pure enough for what was to come. This was a terrifying feeling, it was inside and beside me at the same time. It kept trying to scare me outwardly and checking me out inwardly to sense my reaction. It was like if I let my ego get involved, I would have been even more scared. I had to release my ego, leave it behind me, expel it from my consciousness as it felt like totally un-needed, baggage that would restrict me. The reptile could be felt in every part of my spirit. The strangest yet most familar feeling ever. I knew it was a test. That to attain more enlightment I needed to convince this reptilian gatekeeper / guardian. There was a dialog between the reptilian and my guardians, then an agreement. I remember feeling relieved.
Then I was travelling forwards at warp speed through never eneding lines of mathematical code, sacred geometry and pure knowledge from higher beings. This was the first time on the journey that I started to feel at ease, wasn't scared. I think there was lot of guardians / guides with me now. They were super excited, I mean unbelievably excited, that I was back here in this place I didn't know I'd been before. The code was relentless, I had an understanding of it being the key to life, the universe, everything, I instantly understood how ancient civilisations built structures way beyond their capabilites. That were are most definately not alone in these universies. That we are alone being, death equals life, everything is cyclic, it was all a memory I didn't even know I knew.
I was then in what I can only describe as an Egyptian grand hall of knowledge, I was flanked by 2 figures with jackal like heads, like the god Anubis, there was also another figure in the room somewhere but I couldn't pinpoint it, only fleating glimpses, it seemed like Osiris or Horus. I was shown tablets that contained secrets. I knew that I understood them but that also they were beyond my comprehension. This sense of duality was ever present during my journey. I was in this hall for quite a while and the entities that joined me there seemed pleased. They communicated that they were pleased I'd come back, they hoped to see me again soon.
Then I was back with my guardians, we were flying thru the most lush, green vegetation I've ever seen. The speed was immense, almost frightening, it was very disorientating, made me feel nauseous. The lead guardian was encouraging me to fly with them, that we were safe, surrender and enjoy the ride. I did! We flew around what I'd describe as an Aztec / Mayan / Inca type temple, it was huge! I've been to Angkor Wat in Cambodia, it made it feel like a postage stamp in size. The place I was in was inhabited but I didn't see its inhabitants, only signs of their life there, fires burning etc. We flew around the site for a good while, the guardians were saying to me, " Look! Don't you remember, don't you recognise this place?". Somehow it felt like home. They knew it did and they kept repeating to me that this was part of me, of us. Then I remember a feeling of it being about to end. They knew it too. There wasn't a feeling of regret about leaving, to be honest I was looking forward to feeling "normal" again. Can you ever feel normal again after this kind of experience. They were chattering excitedly again, they seemed happy that I'd made this far, they let me know I would be shown more next time but warned me about the others in the spirit world, they told me to always follw the light, never to be scared, it's just a ride! Then I remember them waving as they faded, they were saying goodbye.....but only for now!
I was completely gone for 15 mins this journey. Way longer than my first time.
