dirt is my middle name

Take it from someone who has the same problem, your spelling sucks, makes this entry almost unreadable but yeah, you were high. As for your situation. You need to get on OST (Maintenance). If you continue to use knowing it will cost you everything you are without control. Go to a clinic. The best thing the army ever did for me was get me onto methadone. Been about 25 years and though I had rough spots in that first decade you either stabalise or die.
 
My spelling irl is actually really good it's only shitty here because i type everything on my phone which is a huge paij in the ass and i try to to as fast as i cam with as few fuck ups aa possible... im really fast with a keyboard, typing accurateky at + 100wpm so that makes typung on my phone tgat much more frustratingb so i rush and therefore fuck up just thwt much more.

When i typed this long ass entry i was spending the night at a chicks house who probly would ofbletbmebstay there a couple weeks but i fucked that up by shootingbspeedballs in her bathroom and she sajd sbe knew i was high cuz i was nodding so that was the first, last and only time ill get to crash there. I have an amazing ability to fuck up any good thing that comes my way =\

Oh and i never got to type the part that is wby j made the title what it is

I had recently overdrawn my banm account $500 which is the msx it allows u to z(cash from am atm) and my mom didnt know i gkt kicked out of the halfway house...

Long story short (well not so short after seeing howbmuch i tyoed preceding this) i convinced my mom that within a day that my account was goung to be sent to collections and that if she paid it off id hit her bacjbwith my tax returns and wouldnt overdraft it again. I knew once she found out i got kicked out of the house id be 100% on my own so figured doing one more dirty deed couldn't make things much worse then they were akready gonna be. So she paid off the account amd as soon as that $ hit it i took out anothekm.$400 n came.clean about everytbing

I feel really badbfor deceiving her and straight up lying that i wasnt gonna overdraft it again bht i wasnt trying to be homeless without a penny to my name.... of course now, about 48.hours later, that $400 has diminished to about $50, but thats anotber story entirely that can be broken down to two words* cokes and dopes
 
I 100 percent agree with Rachamim its time to get on methadone. If only to give you a little time to find another job and a place to stay. Heroin is not going anywhere.
 
Well i got locked up for the last 24 hrs maybe ill post more on itblater but im about to be back pn supervised probation i already know so off thd dope train for me for now..
 
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