White Flag
Bluelighter
I'm seventeen years old, I weigh around 165-170 lbs., I stand at 6'2", and I would say that my experience with diphenhydramine (Benadryl) is moderate. This will be my fourth time going in and I'm hoping for something other than the light visuals that usually occur (like the jelly on the walls and the contrast/brightness of some surfaces switching from light to dark).
Bargain Music plays in the background.
9:00 - I dose on six 25mg diphenhydramine tablets for a test drive. (in the form of Benadryl allergy meds, I was lucky to find a bottle without pseudophedrine, its just straight diphenhydramine.) If I don't feel much, I'll just dose higher later. For now, I kick back and load up my copy of Grand Theft Auto: Vice City and since I'm too lazy to work on the missions, as well as the fact that I'm waiting for a nice, easy trip, I'm just going to go on a rampage or two (my favorite including the theft of a sport bike, the purchase of an uzi, and the beginning of cat and mouse chases with cars and other motorcycles throughout the city by shooting the vehicles once, giving them a headstart as they speed off, and then following them, liberally tightening my finger on the trigger... you know, as I see fit and all that. Hehe.)
9:50 - Since I had a full stomach tonight, I decided to dose on four more and I'm still doubting the tablets to the fullness of le gut. I figure I'll just dose more later. The limit I set for myself tonight is fourteen and I'm up to ten. Let's hope this goes. Right now, I'm feeling a very slight feeling of calm coming over me, almost washing over me very delicately. This could be placebo, but in my previous interludes with diphenhydramine, I remember this calm... who knows? Its nice. Jumped on the Internet for a few minutes, checked a few online journals and talked to a couple of people... read up a little on erowid and lycaeum. The onset better come soon. Hehehe.
10:15 - Onset begins. Its that familiar feeling of sleep depravation that benadryl likes to dish out in bucketloads. I know for a fact that I'm not moving very fluidly at all, but it sure as fuck feels like it. I suppose this very pleasant and serene comeup is supposed to prepare me for something big. My tiredness seems like it comes from one of the shittier benzos (like Xanax) and this other, floaty feeling seems to be very reminiscent of half a bar, mebbe a quarter.
11:00 - Feeling very euphoric so I switched Bargain Music out for Phish's Lawn Boy album. The good stuff, for mellow times. Hehehe. I'm going to lay in my bed and wait for the REALY music to finish burning (radiohead, always puts me in a fucked mindset and my triped turn out extremely odd). Time to hit the CEV button. Oh, I might dose up later on. Depends on how well this goes. Hehe.
(The times I list from here on in are approximations)
11:15 - I'm in my bed and Phish is going on (Bag it, tag it, sell it to the butcher in the store...) and on, the tired feeling continues plaguing me, but I can feel it being replaced by an emptiness. I hear the cd-rom in the other room pop open, indicating that my radiohead cd is done burning but I'm lost in that ever familiar light show inside my head. I place the inside of my elbow over my eyes and all of a sudden, I can see the room through my eyelids and arm. I look over into the right side of the darkness and a womans hand appears in a blast of light. All of this light is reflecting from a HUGE gold and diamond ring on the ring finger. This vision subsides and I go back to studying the room. Everything is outlined with an almost neon red and the surfaces are all black (reminds me of an old tank game on the macintosh).
11:30 - I'm still studying the room when I figure, "Holy shit... what if everything really IS like this? I should check!" so I lift my arm from over my eyes, open em wide, and everything in the room is normal... same old midnight shadows playing on the wall, same old light from the living room, filtering in from under the door. I keep hearing footsteps, but I know everyone that's out there is either in bed or sitting at the table in the dining corner (I live in a condo... hehe). I go back to my CEV position and the room is gone. There is no woman's hand, Phish is letting their guitars wail on and I've got this feeling that they're not playing guitars, but whales. I visualize Phish playing a whale on stage... almost sends me into a laughing frenzy.
12:00 - There's a slimy/gel type of substance jiggling in the darkness. I stare (as much as I CAN star with eyes shut and arm over 'em) in awe as it jiggles to the drumbeat. Right about now, I realize that my Radiohead cd is done burning yet I make no effort to go get it and switch it in. I begin getting tired again, I think of upping my dose, and fall asleep instead.
While asleep, I had very vivid dreams. I saw an old man with green wings walking around, then I was looking into the mirror putting gel into my hair and I just kinda stared at these HUGE flakes of dandruff. I flew a few times... all in all, weird dreams.
Summary - I'm still all about enjoying dramamine, benadryl, and all of that. If it wasn't for the tired feeling, I'd like these meds a lot more, but hey... you take what you can get, OTC-wise, I mean. Hell, I could always go find myself some shrooms, but this is too easy.
My hangover this morning isnt heavy, it never is after benadryl. I feel somewhat rubbery and whenever I clear my throat, my vision slightly ripples.
EDIT:
A couple of sidenotes I forgot to put in...
My usual dose is 6, so 10 is a comfortable step up.
All of the typos here were left alone. That's all the effects of the drug, my fingers were feeling awfully rubbery when I started on the second or third entry.
[ 03 January 2003: Message edited by: White Flag ]
Bargain Music plays in the background.
9:00 - I dose on six 25mg diphenhydramine tablets for a test drive. (in the form of Benadryl allergy meds, I was lucky to find a bottle without pseudophedrine, its just straight diphenhydramine.) If I don't feel much, I'll just dose higher later. For now, I kick back and load up my copy of Grand Theft Auto: Vice City and since I'm too lazy to work on the missions, as well as the fact that I'm waiting for a nice, easy trip, I'm just going to go on a rampage or two (my favorite including the theft of a sport bike, the purchase of an uzi, and the beginning of cat and mouse chases with cars and other motorcycles throughout the city by shooting the vehicles once, giving them a headstart as they speed off, and then following them, liberally tightening my finger on the trigger... you know, as I see fit and all that. Hehe.)
9:50 - Since I had a full stomach tonight, I decided to dose on four more and I'm still doubting the tablets to the fullness of le gut. I figure I'll just dose more later. The limit I set for myself tonight is fourteen and I'm up to ten. Let's hope this goes. Right now, I'm feeling a very slight feeling of calm coming over me, almost washing over me very delicately. This could be placebo, but in my previous interludes with diphenhydramine, I remember this calm... who knows? Its nice. Jumped on the Internet for a few minutes, checked a few online journals and talked to a couple of people... read up a little on erowid and lycaeum. The onset better come soon. Hehehe.
10:15 - Onset begins. Its that familiar feeling of sleep depravation that benadryl likes to dish out in bucketloads. I know for a fact that I'm not moving very fluidly at all, but it sure as fuck feels like it. I suppose this very pleasant and serene comeup is supposed to prepare me for something big. My tiredness seems like it comes from one of the shittier benzos (like Xanax) and this other, floaty feeling seems to be very reminiscent of half a bar, mebbe a quarter.
11:00 - Feeling very euphoric so I switched Bargain Music out for Phish's Lawn Boy album. The good stuff, for mellow times. Hehehe. I'm going to lay in my bed and wait for the REALY music to finish burning (radiohead, always puts me in a fucked mindset and my triped turn out extremely odd). Time to hit the CEV button. Oh, I might dose up later on. Depends on how well this goes. Hehe.
(The times I list from here on in are approximations)
11:15 - I'm in my bed and Phish is going on (Bag it, tag it, sell it to the butcher in the store...) and on, the tired feeling continues plaguing me, but I can feel it being replaced by an emptiness. I hear the cd-rom in the other room pop open, indicating that my radiohead cd is done burning but I'm lost in that ever familiar light show inside my head. I place the inside of my elbow over my eyes and all of a sudden, I can see the room through my eyelids and arm. I look over into the right side of the darkness and a womans hand appears in a blast of light. All of this light is reflecting from a HUGE gold and diamond ring on the ring finger. This vision subsides and I go back to studying the room. Everything is outlined with an almost neon red and the surfaces are all black (reminds me of an old tank game on the macintosh).
11:30 - I'm still studying the room when I figure, "Holy shit... what if everything really IS like this? I should check!" so I lift my arm from over my eyes, open em wide, and everything in the room is normal... same old midnight shadows playing on the wall, same old light from the living room, filtering in from under the door. I keep hearing footsteps, but I know everyone that's out there is either in bed or sitting at the table in the dining corner (I live in a condo... hehe). I go back to my CEV position and the room is gone. There is no woman's hand, Phish is letting their guitars wail on and I've got this feeling that they're not playing guitars, but whales. I visualize Phish playing a whale on stage... almost sends me into a laughing frenzy.
12:00 - There's a slimy/gel type of substance jiggling in the darkness. I stare (as much as I CAN star with eyes shut and arm over 'em) in awe as it jiggles to the drumbeat. Right about now, I realize that my Radiohead cd is done burning yet I make no effort to go get it and switch it in. I begin getting tired again, I think of upping my dose, and fall asleep instead.
While asleep, I had very vivid dreams. I saw an old man with green wings walking around, then I was looking into the mirror putting gel into my hair and I just kinda stared at these HUGE flakes of dandruff. I flew a few times... all in all, weird dreams.
Summary - I'm still all about enjoying dramamine, benadryl, and all of that. If it wasn't for the tired feeling, I'd like these meds a lot more, but hey... you take what you can get, OTC-wise, I mean. Hell, I could always go find myself some shrooms, but this is too easy.
My hangover this morning isnt heavy, it never is after benadryl. I feel somewhat rubbery and whenever I clear my throat, my vision slightly ripples.
EDIT:
A couple of sidenotes I forgot to put in...
My usual dose is 6, so 10 is a comfortable step up.
All of the typos here were left alone. That's all the effects of the drug, my fingers were feeling awfully rubbery when I started on the second or third entry.
[ 03 January 2003: Message edited by: White Flag ]
