Did Psychedelics Change You?

[SuperPsych]

^ I'm skeptical of the posts here saying that the users fear of Sean has been diminished. As someone that has been on their deathbed before and after using psychedelics, I'm inclined to say that these people are looking into their momentary experiences far too much.
The psychedelic ego death sensation is nothing like your body literally dying from trauma. I want people to remember that before they post about how they have no fear of death. If you don't, you are essentially not a human anymore, and psychedelics DO NOT have the potential to a remove you from the human condition for the rest of your life.

Try dying of organ failure and tell me you aren't scared, I challenge you.

That's a fair statement. I have actually never experienced ego death. When I experienced that on DXM my ego was still very much there, which is why I was fighting the thought of death. It wasn't ego death, it was an inner battle with myself.

I was convinced that I was dying and it was terrifying. The fact that I did not know what came next, and the fact that it may very well be nothing was agonizing. After I cycled through that for a long time, I was able to mourn not only a loved ones passing, but MY OWN passing. After that I was greeted with a beautiful acceptance. No I don't know what will happen, and if dying is just blackness then I wont be around to know it

Ever since that experience which was over 2 years ago, the acceptance remains. I have the same mindset towards death as I did directly after the trip. Dying could be something beautiful, it could be nothing, I could be reincarnated. It doesn't matter. It is inevitable, every living thing either has or will die, and like I said, if it is just nothing then at least I wont be there for it. No matter what happens it's not worth worrying about, I'll find out what happens eventually. You're right though, thinking about it my fear has not completely vanished, but has gone from 99% down to 2% and I am just fine with that. When the thought of dying crosses my mind I don't feel fear, I feel nothing. I am completely impartial which beats the hell out of terrified. I don't claim to have gotten rid of my fear of death forever but for the time being I have. If I'm just reading too much into my experience then that doesn't matter, I got the same result.

I cannot even fathom what you went through. It was obviously an extremely scary experience, but it doesn't make my experience any less valid. For the time being my fear has gone down almost completely, it very well may be a different story when I'm on my death bed

 

[lovepsychadelics]

Almost died from cardiac failure due to MDPV/MPA overdose. I kept collapsing on the floor basically mini strokes seizures collapsed 8 times trying to get from my dinning table to my bed some 5 meters away (I live in an apartment). Organ failure will be something I'd have to eventually come to accept, due to the abuse of my body over the years and fear is part of the process, as is grief, anger, denial, acceptance etc. The 5 stages of death and dying.

I've worked in oncology and palliative settings. While I can not understand what your going through as I myself have not been there yet (as in given a diagnosis and time frame ie Ca lung/metastatic Ca, Hep C hepatic failure, end stage HIV, end stage MS etc) I can empathize as I have seen many people suffering these diagnosis progressing to the inevitable point we all must face, our own mortality. Perhaps dealing with this on a daily basis is part of the reason I abuse substances, maybe some degree of PTSD/depression. I doubt I will have an easy time accepting my own demise.