Did I get lucky?

[znb]

I am babbling a lot here. Questions at the end. Sorry.

So yesterday I decided to end my 50-150mg a day oxycodone life. In pain management and I am tired of running on the edge of withdrawal all the time.

Just gotta get to the next refill. Right?

No. Not anymore.

I one time ran a half mile through a wood with random barb wire dumped in it after being beat unrecognizable. Half nude. I can do this.

So I gathered pregablin, about 50 75mg pills. 50 lope. Red Bali kratom. I am disabled and I really do use meds for pain in my spine and legs so RLS is torture. Feels like I am being ripped apart. That was the part I needed to avoid the most. I also have buckets of benzos but I generally avoid them. Same with muscle relaxers. I got hundred of damn things.

A dead man left me the pregablin. He is still saving my life. I found it while cleaning and remembered that people on here says it will keep the RLS at bay. I am gaba sensitive so I actually don't need much. One 75 twice a day so far. I took it as a sign.

My last oxy was at 5:30pm yesterday. Over 30 hours. Sniffles maybe? I've been taking just a couple of red Bali at a time. Lope, 4 twice a day.

I don't feel terrible. No bathroom stuff, no RLS, no insomnia. I just have to pee a lot.

Is it going to get worse? I was so scared. Terrified actually. So far I have been sleeping and marveling how different certain things feel.

The dead man who left me the pregablin used to call me a "force of nature." And right now I kinda feel like it.

How long will it take for the oxy to be cleaned out? I will stop taking stuff slowly after that. I know I should just make a pregabalin and kratom taper schedule. Oh and lope. Does anyone have an recommendations?

I held his hand as he left this world and he is the reason I am not suffering. Again. I just saw that bottle and decided right then to stop. I am wondering if I am nuts?

 

[daturetard]

So yesterday I decided to end my 50-150mg a day oxycodone life. In pain management and I am tired of running on the edge of withdrawal all the time.

Just gotta get to the next refill. Right?

No. Not anymore.

I one time ran a half mile through a wood with random barb wire dumped in it after being beat unrecognizable. Half nude. I can do this.

So I gathered pregablin, about 50 75mg pills. 50 lope. Red Bali kratom. I am disabled and I really do use meds for pain in my spine and legs so RLS is torture. Feels like I am being ripped apart. That was the part I needed to avoid the most. I also have buckets of benzos but I generally avoid them. Same with muscle relaxers. I got hundred of damn things.

The start of this scared me for you. It really reads like you were thinking of taking your own life, and gathering meds to. After reading all the way through, I'm glad that you are deciding to get off of oxy, it's stolen a lot of people's lives.

My main recommendations would be to get off lope as soon as possible. It's horrible for you, much worse than the average opioid, in high doses. This is due to strong cardiotoxicity. You could make a standardized solution (depending on solubility, I have no clue for lope) and dose by milliliters, this will make tapering almost effortless. Just have to stomach the taste of the solution.

Next, to get off the Kratom, you're gonna want to dose it by capsules, this will help taper, as you can remove one capsule at a time, or even fill one half way. This won't put you into any sort of withdrawal because with Kratom, you never get a calculated dose.

I'd recommend not to use the muscle relaxers with the pregabalin and lope. (As a matter of fact, if you can get clonidine, DON'T use the muscle relaxers, other than soma, clonidine will help you more with what you want to use MRs for) If you do, I'd use half when you need it for its prescribed purpose, or when RLS gets unbearable.

Pregabalin has a crippling withdrawal for most that experience any wd, some have no symptoms even with long term use. I think a lot of the WD comes when people are abusing it.

You've got some pretty nice comfort meds. If you're surprised how easy your wd is, that's a good thing! However, be careful to not just swap the chemicals in your system for those comfort medications.

So, yeah, just try and get clonidine.

Goodluck