My life was different then
Less complex, emotions clear.
A simple fact in one day changed that.
I remember that day I last saw the light
Radiating from your face.
I never realised how much you mean to me.
Did I even say goodbye?
Now my memories of you are clouded
Emotions thick as a wall.
I see your face still - crowded with images of a room
Full of saddened faces
All remembering what we have lost
And our common fate.
After, we mill around.
Strangers bound by their loss
Stifle their emotions and quote
Useless, empty words to hide their pain.
I nod and smile the same smile they do.
A smile which fails to mask
And puts the word to shame.
Alone again I try to picture you
With that light in your face.
Drowning in my grief
I remember your laugh.
Going on with life
But it doesn't feel quite right.
I wouldn't have seen you everyday.
The cloud of emotions too real to express
Dampens every moment, every breath
As I remember.
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if you found out you were dreaming, would you want to wake up?
Less complex, emotions clear.
A simple fact in one day changed that.
I remember that day I last saw the light
Radiating from your face.
I never realised how much you mean to me.
Did I even say goodbye?
Now my memories of you are clouded
Emotions thick as a wall.
I see your face still - crowded with images of a room
Full of saddened faces
All remembering what we have lost
And our common fate.
After, we mill around.
Strangers bound by their loss
Stifle their emotions and quote
Useless, empty words to hide their pain.
I nod and smile the same smile they do.
A smile which fails to mask
And puts the word to shame.
Alone again I try to picture you
With that light in your face.
Drowning in my grief
I remember your laugh.
Going on with life
But it doesn't feel quite right.
I wouldn't have seen you everyday.
The cloud of emotions too real to express
Dampens every moment, every breath
As I remember.
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if you found out you were dreaming, would you want to wake up?