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Bluelighter
This got deleted 3 x... I wrote a blog, I'll post once I am a bluelighter.
TL; DR.
-I have had sexual desensitization --> doing NoFap for this and it helps... but need to make 90days first.
-Slurred speech
-more difficulty in school
-and the like post effexor.
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I have ADHD, was on Effexor XR. It is likely that I have had some of my issues even before effexor, but this drug greatly exacerbated them. I could read and write at gr. 10 level in gr. 5. I don't think I slurred any words... maybe mumbled some if I was shy, but not literally finding it difficult to say them.
I was on Effexor XR for severe anxiety from 19.5-21 or so. Maybe 1.5 yrs. maybe 8mo. I actually have no idea.
I always disliked school. Too rigid, too many inane rules. I usually did quite well. I was overweight but quite funny and had lots of friends up until high school. I first experienced difficulty performing there... I found out it is anxiety a couple years later in university. I was treated with Effexor XR. #WorstDecisionEver
I have other side effects:
-Long lasting sex fx (desensitization), possibly slurring words, memory problems...
-Awareness effects: I rarely ever drive. I literally got lost for like 2 years after moving to my current city, walking... near my apartment, daily. I felt really uncomfortable driving in my home city, even around the nearest roads... I lived there 7 years.
-Also weird zaps like my phone was vibrating in my pocket... but on the wrong leg. Sometimes it didn't even vibrate. Sometimes it wasn't even on me. This is pretty much gone; I may have some hallucinations here and there (rare... alcohol, stimulant, sleep deprived, anx induced).
-Problem solving effects (math, office work, and the like...)
-Could Effexor, which effected my sex drive and sensation, have caused permanent down-regulation of NE and other neuros (esp serotonin --- with excessive PMO)?
-Also the blackouts... while drinking, and other implications there. I've drank maybe 1400x or more, in like 3-4yrs. blacked out (5 or more times). NEVER once did I ever black out before using Effexor. Okay, I drank way more after that... but I prefer stimulants.
-Side note: I could hide my self medication of rum, then vodka for a few years, then familial stress, pressures, my inability to get things done at school, bastard friends leading me astray, causing irreparable harm... I drank and drank, until I couldn't stand).
-Is it possible that I will never be as intelligent as I once was, or that I have some sort of brain damage from my time on meds?
It definitely fucked me up that's for sure... Obese as a child -- to pretty fit and *finally* good looking, only to add irremovable (for years) fat, and then destroying my Ability to feel pleasure or want real sex... That's good for dating! And actually tangibly worse things I did not mention. Anyways, not to dwell... most that is behind me... I just don't want to lose my potential. Other worse things happened too like MANIA.
/Fuck... I'm remembering all this now. I have a paper due. /
I hope Dexedrine for ADHD (only for school for now) doesn't fk me up more. Besides anxiety and fatigue stimulants weren't nearly as bad as alcohol nor antidepressants were to me. It is a Dopamine and possibly NE releaser, right?
-So to sum up: Can these meds cause me irreparable neurological damage? Brain Damage?
I want to get an MRI anyways... and possibly test my nerves down there... but I saw a urologist, he agreed to abstain and gave me some cialis... that was a year ago.
I definitely feel a lot better and can rise on command 2 weeks into nf, even a week... but how long til that heals completely?
I have all but quit drinking, smoking, cola, effexor, PMO, and whatever else. I meditate, eat right, and usually exercise.
TL; DR.
-I have had sexual desensitization --> doing NoFap for this and it helps... but need to make 90days first.
-Slurred speech
-more difficulty in school
-and the like post effexor.
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I have ADHD, was on Effexor XR. It is likely that I have had some of my issues even before effexor, but this drug greatly exacerbated them. I could read and write at gr. 10 level in gr. 5. I don't think I slurred any words... maybe mumbled some if I was shy, but not literally finding it difficult to say them.
I was on Effexor XR for severe anxiety from 19.5-21 or so. Maybe 1.5 yrs. maybe 8mo. I actually have no idea.
I always disliked school. Too rigid, too many inane rules. I usually did quite well. I was overweight but quite funny and had lots of friends up until high school. I first experienced difficulty performing there... I found out it is anxiety a couple years later in university. I was treated with Effexor XR. #WorstDecisionEver
I have other side effects:
-Long lasting sex fx (desensitization), possibly slurring words, memory problems...
-Awareness effects: I rarely ever drive. I literally got lost for like 2 years after moving to my current city, walking... near my apartment, daily. I felt really uncomfortable driving in my home city, even around the nearest roads... I lived there 7 years.
-Also weird zaps like my phone was vibrating in my pocket... but on the wrong leg. Sometimes it didn't even vibrate. Sometimes it wasn't even on me. This is pretty much gone; I may have some hallucinations here and there (rare... alcohol, stimulant, sleep deprived, anx induced).
-Problem solving effects (math, office work, and the like...)
-Could Effexor, which effected my sex drive and sensation, have caused permanent down-regulation of NE and other neuros (esp serotonin --- with excessive PMO)?
-Also the blackouts... while drinking, and other implications there. I've drank maybe 1400x or more, in like 3-4yrs. blacked out (5 or more times). NEVER once did I ever black out before using Effexor. Okay, I drank way more after that... but I prefer stimulants.
-Side note: I could hide my self medication of rum, then vodka for a few years, then familial stress, pressures, my inability to get things done at school, bastard friends leading me astray, causing irreparable harm... I drank and drank, until I couldn't stand).
-Is it possible that I will never be as intelligent as I once was, or that I have some sort of brain damage from my time on meds?
It definitely fucked me up that's for sure... Obese as a child -- to pretty fit and *finally* good looking, only to add irremovable (for years) fat, and then destroying my Ability to feel pleasure or want real sex... That's good for dating! And actually tangibly worse things I did not mention. Anyways, not to dwell... most that is behind me... I just don't want to lose my potential. Other worse things happened too like MANIA.
/Fuck... I'm remembering all this now. I have a paper due. /
I hope Dexedrine for ADHD (only for school for now) doesn't fk me up more. Besides anxiety and fatigue stimulants weren't nearly as bad as alcohol nor antidepressants were to me. It is a Dopamine and possibly NE releaser, right?
-So to sum up: Can these meds cause me irreparable neurological damage? Brain Damage?
I want to get an MRI anyways... and possibly test my nerves down there... but I saw a urologist, he agreed to abstain and gave me some cialis... that was a year ago.
I definitely feel a lot better and can rise on command 2 weeks into nf, even a week... but how long til that heals completely?
I have all but quit drinking, smoking, cola, effexor, PMO, and whatever else. I meditate, eat right, and usually exercise.
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