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Did Ecstasy change your life? MERGED

Has MDMA been beneficial in your life?

  • Yes

    Votes: 105 74.5%
  • No

    Votes: 22 15.6%
  • Other

    Votes: 14 9.9%

  • Total voters
    141
I have to say it definitely changed my life for the better. I have not rolled in a long time but almost all of my memories are fond memories. My wife and I look back on all of the times we rolled together and we just laugh at how much fun we had. Don't get me wrong I don't have to be on E to have fun with my wife or friends but I sure do have a lot of fond memories. I guess it changed my life in the way that it allowed me to see and feel things in a different way. I have made some good friends on E with people that I normally would not see myself talking to. Great times good friends
 
Negative, after a serotonin overdose with paxill, ecstasy, and Dextromorphan in my system, scared me away from "bombs", they were fun tho.
take care...
 
Be_One said:
What up people....I am a close friend of the creator of this thread Megalomania....I was with rollin' on ecstasy with him the times that he did it....and can back up the statement of growing closer.
I know there's controversy about the whole drug, especially from people who haven't experienced it or even tried to learn for themselves what the drug is about. It gets me upset when conditioned thoughts like "this is a drug" "you're taking this drug and it's going to hurt you" rule a person's mind. I think the hidden curriculum behind any roll on ecstasy is to learn just what kind of Love is inside of us all to give and receive. To me, the point to rolling is to learn how to roll without taking the drug.

There is quite a difference between using and abusing
very fuckin true.......
 
Yes, extasy changed my life, beacouse without mdma I can't danced and make my party great. When I had't try using extasy I need only good music for beautiful time on dance floor.

Sorry, my English is poor..but I hope you understand me.
 
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Im not sure if xtc has changed my life at all...i have only rolled 7 or 8...or 9 times (deff not 10 yet) and im not sure i fully understand rolling yet...sometimes i feel like all the shit that goes on while i roll that would be life changing is bullshit...but on the otherhand maybe my reality is justt so far from the truth that when i roll its not that its bullshit but its just unfamilair...hmm
 
No, E fucked up my life, i just did a month in jail and had to spend 10,000$ in legal fee's after a girl did too much e and died in my room (She didnt tell us how much she did, she did the majority after me and my fiancee passed out)

Don't say oooh you must have had dirty shit. Well, A)I tested the pills first, pure MDMA, and B) the police tox report, found only 1380mg of MDMA in her system.

All the E bullshit i'd heard before then made me love the drug, you know, its harmless, now i think almost all the info on MDMA i find in bluelight is re-spewed garbage and very few people know the auctual facts. Mainly the fact that MDMA has never killed anyone and its impossible to die on it. Really? Lol. Anyone want a scanned copy of the coroners report? Only 1 drug in system, MDMA, 1380mg. No prior health or mental problems.


I was found innocent by a jury of my peers, btw.
 
I'm no expert, but if they found 1380mg. of mdma in her blood/body, then we can guess that she had taken more than 1380mg, since I think that some mdma would be lost in digestion and so on. I really don't know how much is lost, but let's say she took 1500mgs.

And let's say your pills contained maybe 90mg. mdma each. If so, she took 16,66 pills! That sure is a large amount for some good pills. If the pills were weaker, she had to take even more pills!

What do you expect when a girl takes this amount of pills?

(I'm sad to hear this story, the death of the girl, you'r month in jail and the 10 000 dollar. A sad story....)

Be safe people!
 
Auctually, she only took 6, double stacked purple hearts (about 1 per hour till her estimated time of death), i personally took ten because i assumed, hey, they're pure, they cant hurt me. She also showed no signs of being sick or overdosing :( edit: when i went to bed, she'd only consumed 4, showed me the two she had left. I told her i was going to pass out and she seemed perfectly normal....

Sorry but that experience has permenantly changed how i view ecstacy and its safety, it also makes me skeptical about alot of mdma facts on bluelight, because according to what i'd read, it should have never happened.
 
In the first post you said you didn't knew how many pills she took, and now you know?

And if she took 1500mgs. That would be 250mgs pure mdma per pill. That is some extremely great pill 8o

Either way, I think no one have ever said that mdma will not kill people, it sure is quite safe though. -But people have died in the past, and it will continue to kill in the future...
 
Uh, I said she didnt tell us how much she did, but I knew how many pills she had and hence was able to deduce how many she did before i passed out (from watching her eat them) then did the math because when the cops came, she had none left, she had 6 total, and i watched her do 4. I wanted to see how many pills people would assume she did to die, because the auctual number was so low...

The pills wern't even the greatest on the market at the time, they were just one of the cheapest (3$/tab)


It should go without saying i havn't done E since then.
 
I completely agree.

I did E with all of my close friends too, and it brought us all close together too. I honestly can't even explain how it works, but you can sit and talk about anything for hours with your friends, it brings you closer together.
 
I voted other because:

Although i was abusing it when i first got into it, i learnt some things that i still carry with me today. It helped me come out of my shell and socialise (sp? is it s or z :/) more, and although i was always a pretty nice person, hanging out with the wrong people kinda pushed that part of me to the back, but E brought it back from the back.. I've also bonded with friends on new levels which has made a very solid fixture in myself.

Then post abuse symptoms started happenin. I'm currently "severely depressed" although i cannot say it WAS MDMA that caused this, i believe it played a big part. I'm constantly fighting paranoid thought's although that, i believe, was more cannabis.

I don't regret taking MDMA, but i massively regret abusing it. I'm now taking a break.. havn't pilled properly in about half a year.. i miss it :(
 
i voted other
because the first 20 or so times i rolled, it was incredible and taught me so much about people and religion and relationships ... i discovered a sense of spirituality through taking ecstasy and developed amazing connections with my friends.

and then i started getting ripped off and lost over $1000 on deals that fell through or got bunk pills or pills that were cut to shit.... but even after that i didn't stop looking for more.

i still look, not as much as i did last year, but i still loose money on bad pills and when i do get good pills it doesn't feel the same as it did those first 20 or so times. "lost the magic"? i'm not sure.

but i never regret taking ecstasy and the things it showed me about spirituality and people in general. i wouldn't take that back for anything.
 
Yes, it showed me a truly vibrant, exciting, and free scene, that of electronic music. I've had some of the best times of my life going to these shows.

Unfortunately, it also gave me mild to harsh depression. I've never been depressed before; my life was a bit boring, but I was essentially clueless, happy, and content where I was. Now I feel like my life is in the shitter, which has motivated me to improve it drastically, but I don't feel any good at the moment.

It seems like a monthly/bi-weekly habit is simply too much for me.
 
Outwardly, I am self confident and outgoing. Inwardly I have struggled with low self esteem and personal relationships all my life. I am convinced that E has rewired my brain in a positive way. I feel positive about myself and life post E for approx 7 - 10 days.

After a 'bender weekender' I do not get significant "blue mondays" like wakinglyfe. I can truely say that the euphoria I feel on E is better than anything I have ever experienced in my life - sex, drugs (grass/speed/lsd etc). The difficult part is moderation. The temptation is great to get rolled all the time, but I get around it by planning dates and sticking to them.

Such empathy, such compassion, such insight. A new summer of love. If I could live my life over I wish I had tried it at a much younger age. I would be a better man today.
 
dyslecstasy said:
i voted other
because the first 20 or so times i rolled, it was incredible and taught me so much about people and religion and relationships ... i discovered a sense of spirituality through taking ecstasy and developed amazing connections with my friends.

and then i started getting ripped off and lost over $1000 on deals that fell through or got bunk pills or pills that were cut to shit.... but even after that i didn't stop looking for more.

i still look, not as much as i did last year, but i still loose money on bad pills and when i do get good pills it doesn't feel the same as it did those first 20 or so times. "lost the magic"? i'm not sure.

but i never regret taking ecstasy and the things it showed me about spirituality and people in general. i wouldn't take that back for anything.

Thanks for sharing. I have a feeling many others on this board will share similar stories.
 
meh i abused it, doing it every weekend and a every now and then i would do it 2 days a week sometimes up to 6-7 pills. now there were some breaks but this went on maybe 3/4 years

at first it showed me some new highs and then it showed me some new lows.

and guess which has stuck around with me? those brilliant new lows, and some anxiety

up yours jesus
 
it changed my plans a few friday or saturday nights, it changed how much money i had at some points. But as far as any deeper meaning, I think thats some rubbish, I take it purely for recreation. LSD and DMT on the other hand...
 
Did it change my life? Yes. But I think the simplest decisions in life can have a bigger impact

Example: Deciding to get a BMW M3 over a Honda Civic. Larger payment, less money for other things, the way ppl view you in one vehicle over the other etc.

Doing E may make me a more loving person while on it (That in itself is Huge IMO and why I love it) But it does not make me a more loving person when not on it, like to the prick that cut me off while Im on my work etc.

But thats my experience on it. The effects are only present while Im on it and does not affect my sober self. It may be diffrent for other ppl, where they do carry it on to their sober lives, and I think that's great. But it doesnt have that effect on me so I dont think it's that life changing to me personally.
 
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