I was actually more nervous when I was seriously addicted to clonazepam. I know it's almost impossible to notice it when you take BZDs every day, but it's true. One day tolerance hits the level when BZDs stop relieving anxiety and all you can achieve with them is blacking out, but it takes more and more as well. It got so bad in the last year that I even calmed myself down with amphetamines, I'm not joking, it did calm me down, but then I would have to snort every day. Clonazepam did nothing for me, so I often took alprazolam or something else for the comedown. Things may become sick.
A dangerous thing is when you're anxious all the time and start being afraid of various situations that aren't scary. When similar situations happen again, you eventually start associating the anxiety with these situations, definitely not pills, because how can anxiolytics cause anxiety, right? I began thinking through stupid things like waving a hand to kids on the street when I was waiting at crossroads, because I was thinking how it looks to other people. For God's sake, I'm never going to make such a prisoner of myself.
"To live in fear is to be a slave." (Seneca the Younger) <- I just love that and finally I can live by that. I suffered a lot because I was thinking what other people think, I was retreating from every possible argument, because I was tired of stress in my life. Certainly it all affected my personal life, but no matter how much I may need other people as a human, there's no way I will ever let myself suffer again because of a girl or any other person. My mind may be warped as hell, but you can't survive without experience.
I must add I can remember how I took my first temazepam pill because I couldn't stand the situation with a girl in the middle high school. And for years I wouldn't admit that, because it was so embarrassing, so I perfectly know the feeling. Eventually I ended up being perceived as a guy treating girls like objects, I so tried to show how much I don't care.