SayingSeven
Bluelighter
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- Nov 12, 2013
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@SayingSeven
I feel like you and I would get along really well haha. Everything you said is basically spot on with how I live my life and how using fits in with it. Like you said, I have stolen money before, but it was seriously only $20 maybe a total of 10 times for the whole time I've been using. And like you said, it was only when I was sure they wouldn't notice or care. And I too felt guilty afterwards. I think just about everyone, addict or not has grabbed a $20 or two out of their parent's wallet or purse before lol. And honestly hand to the bible that has been the worst thing I have done. I have never stolen from any friends or fellow users , be it drugs or money or anything. I have had people steal from me being in desperate situations and still have it in my heart to forgive them and help them out. I'm too nice. I have always been this way and have been hurt many times because of it, but I can't pretend to be any different, it's just who I am. My whole life people have told me that I am and that I put way too much trust and faith in people and their probably right. But you know, I never have to look over my shoulder and I sleep really well at night.
exactly! I'm the same way. I've forgiven people and helped them out even when they've screwed me over, haha. I'm too trusting and too understanding--but to be honest, I'd rather be that way than the opposite. I feel bad enough just about using and lying (and even that, typically just by omission) to the people I love, I don't need anything else weighing on my conscience.