I'm new to the site so I hope I'm posting correctly. A little biground info...I've been an opiate user for three years daily use. Started. W hydro three a day of 7.5 and sons three to six per day. Then I was put on a time release morphine called Avinza 120 mg/day for about a year and a half for chronic back pain due to a set of circumstances too long to go into I was. Put on dilaudid 4 mg/4X a day. This is where it got crazy. I had been taking everything as prescribed till they switched the Avinza to Opana ER, I started banging the dilaudid and snorting the Opana. Tolerance went thru the roof and I ran out early (two weeks) so I started procuring Oct 80's and was banging 3-6 a day. After a near overdose I was strongly urged by loved ones that I had to do something a.s.a.p. so I opted to head to detox and went thru four solid days of withdrawals so bad I thought (or at least hoped at some point) id die from the shiz. Got out still feeling about 80 years old and the paws kicked in. So by day 7 I thought "I'll just use for one day I need to feel "normal" for just a few blessed hours". Well that was four days ago. Now I'm procrastinating to avoid the inevitable and making things worse at the same time. I'm doin 180mg oxycontin and one 40mg Opana a day between yesterday and this a.m. SO long story short are my withdrawals gonna be as bad as before and are the paws gonna last for the rest of my miserable life? I want my life back but when I think about the severe anxiety and depression it just makes me seriously consider replacement therapy except that methadone scares me even more. I really just want to quit but they haven't come out with that magic "normal" pill yet and just THINKING about NA/SS fills me with loathing. SO...again, r my withdrawals gonna b just as bad as before? I know everbodys different but generally speaking. Oh anf one more thing, if pissed positive for Oct but was only suposed to have Opana (oxymorphone) in my system am I gonna fail bc of the extra oxycodone being present? I believe the lab used gas spectronomy?? Thank you more than you know in advance for any advice. I really need some support buy can't get it at home since the truth is just too damn ugly.
