Microsoft OLE DB Provider for ODBC Drivers error '80040e14'
[Microsoft][ODBC SQL Server Driver][SQL Server]The log file for database 'dbsMoodGym_Prod' is full. Back up the transaction log for the database to free up some log space.
/Workbook/newmooduser.asp, line 225
i guess i'll check out the moodgym some time later, possibly when i'm depressed..
well, i get depressed a lot, and i know that's because of my own pessimistic angle, not to mention the paranoia of things going wrong..
what if.. this doesn't work? what if.. my plan goes horribly wrong and explodes in my face? what if this, what if that..
then occassionally a good cry out session helps.. the last one lasted for 2 days.. the 2nd night i cried myself to sleep, and i woke up as if nothing happened.. it felt numb, but at the same time i felt like i was tougher and more ready to face the world.. and then i realised it's just my fears taking over me..
it's also good that i have a friends that i can talk to and are willing to help.. i usually clam up and am unable to say a word, i'm never able to tell them what the problem is, but they just guess through my yes/no answers..
what also really helped me with the last episode was Shadow's
long post (enter at your own risk) .. not that i posted a reply
but it let me see what my priorities were and where i was heading at at the time.. thanks for that sis!
fill out your own list, and compare it with someone else's.. my boy gave me his own list and i saw his perspective why there were some things that didn't work between us..
i'm definitely keeping a blank copy of this for the future..
i've had suicidal thoughts, but i don't want to cause any sorrow to ppl around me who love me, so i guess that's the only thing that keeps me here..
i'm definitely never going to take any medication, i don't think it will solve any of my problems..
just take a break.. take a breather and step back.. don't seek help if you don't want to, but don't do anything silly that you may regret either!
take up an activity that you like and can get your mind off life, the universe and everything - sk8, spin.. even shop! don't dwell in it either, try to make yourself feel better, nobody can cheer you up if you don't want to cheer up in the first place..
[ 05 April 2002: Message edited by: spacecadet ]