Stringer_Bell
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Hi,
There was an old thread on this but I didn't want to bump it.
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/641606-Depression-the-day-after-using-opiates
I'm getting the same thing. After using about 80mg of Oxy for a day or two (I have a baseline tolerance even though I only use for a few days each month), the following days I will experience quite severe depression. This isn't physical withdrawal (I think). I have never been physically dependent on opioids and never use more than a few days in a row.
So I used Oxy last Thursday, Friday and Saturday for the first time in a month. About 80mg a day. On Sunday I felt exhausted and dreadful. Monday I felt much worse, the depression was severe and debilitating. So I took 40mg of Oxy and immediately felt great. I took another 40mg and continued feeling great all day. I woke up the next day without depression and went for one of the strongest 10km runs of my life, literally bounced through it with no fatigue even though I was running fast. However later I decided to take my final tablet of Oxy, even though I wasn't depressed. Took it and felt great. Took my final 40mg later and continued feeling good. Woke up the next day feeling okish and went running again.
Since then (Tuesday) no more Oxy and I feel terrible. The depression is severe and I don't feel physically good. Even walking is tiring and exercise seems impossible.
I'm very curious as to what is going on here. Most of all I just want it to be over. I'm borderline suicidal, can't work at the moment and am just in a bad way. I used to take Dexedrine (prescribed). It was great at first but over the course of a couple of years it just started affecting me worse and worse to the point where my body would react very badly to it. When I first started taking opiates there was no downside, I felt great for a few hours, the opiate would wear off then I'd feel fine again. But now, I'll get high for a couple of days then feel terrible for a week afterwards.
Like in the thread above I'm guessing this is the beginning of true addiction. If I had more oxy now I would take it just to stop myself feeling so utterly terrible. I think I'm done with this. The idea that I can use this stuff for a few days a month, get the good effects and not pay for it is not proving to be correct. So the only choices seem to be either don't use it at all. Ever. Or use it every day. I don't think I want to do the latter.
There was an old thread on this but I didn't want to bump it.
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/641606-Depression-the-day-after-using-opiates
I'm getting the same thing. After using about 80mg of Oxy for a day or two (I have a baseline tolerance even though I only use for a few days each month), the following days I will experience quite severe depression. This isn't physical withdrawal (I think). I have never been physically dependent on opioids and never use more than a few days in a row.
So I used Oxy last Thursday, Friday and Saturday for the first time in a month. About 80mg a day. On Sunday I felt exhausted and dreadful. Monday I felt much worse, the depression was severe and debilitating. So I took 40mg of Oxy and immediately felt great. I took another 40mg and continued feeling great all day. I woke up the next day without depression and went for one of the strongest 10km runs of my life, literally bounced through it with no fatigue even though I was running fast. However later I decided to take my final tablet of Oxy, even though I wasn't depressed. Took it and felt great. Took my final 40mg later and continued feeling good. Woke up the next day feeling okish and went running again.
Since then (Tuesday) no more Oxy and I feel terrible. The depression is severe and I don't feel physically good. Even walking is tiring and exercise seems impossible.
I'm very curious as to what is going on here. Most of all I just want it to be over. I'm borderline suicidal, can't work at the moment and am just in a bad way. I used to take Dexedrine (prescribed). It was great at first but over the course of a couple of years it just started affecting me worse and worse to the point where my body would react very badly to it. When I first started taking opiates there was no downside, I felt great for a few hours, the opiate would wear off then I'd feel fine again. But now, I'll get high for a couple of days then feel terrible for a week afterwards.
Like in the thread above I'm guessing this is the beginning of true addiction. If I had more oxy now I would take it just to stop myself feeling so utterly terrible. I think I'm done with this. The idea that I can use this stuff for a few days a month, get the good effects and not pay for it is not proving to be correct. So the only choices seem to be either don't use it at all. Ever. Or use it every day. I don't think I want to do the latter.